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I just want to catch a break
4 years ago
Last weekend I had a mildly annoying toothache that grew into nerve throbbing pain toothache on Sunday night...which then turned into feeling like there was a hole in my jaw and then swelling in my neck and jaw area and then I had to go get antibiotics for that. Monday I thought I was near death just trying to sleep the pain was so unlike anything I've ever felt before, the swelling in my neck made me feel like I was trying to swallow glass and I was a mess. Tuesday the swelling started to go down, but not by much and now its bearable. All I've really wanted to do all week was sleep but I also still had to work and talk to people all day because I have no means of paying for this shit otherwise.
I've been having jello and ice cream and milk and water all week and that's it, there is no pain today but I still can't open my mouth much. Sometime next week I'm going to have to get this tooth taken out and the pain will come back but I mean...you know.
Today our dog Oreo was circling and seemed lost and confused, she is 15 years old (we got her around the same time we got Kisa) and she didn't seem to know where she was. She was my grandpa's best friend, she has been searching for him every day since he has passed. We took her in to the vet and they weren't quite sure what exactly is wrong with her. (as in, not knowing if it was something neurological that we would need to see a specialist for or not) they were able to identify that she wasn't in pain or anything, which is good, and we are taking baby steps with trying to figure out and pinpoint what exactly is wrong with her. She was given medication and now she's back home, so that's the best outcome we could have hoped for right now.
She did perk up a little bit when we got home so I'm hoping that whatever is going on it isn't too serious.
It just feels like for the past two years we have been dealt the shittiest hand, and I'm sure other people feel that way as well and have worse situations than I have been through. Its just..crazy, idk...I wish things could get better, I don't want these bad things to keep happening and I want to be able to process what we are going through at the moment fully before the next life-changing shitstorm happens but. I guess this is life.
My head hurts. Maybe I can make some happier journals soon. 