petergrey

expanded my thoughts in this journal: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9840916/

I knew you for over a year. Lots of time spent talking together, and hanging. You really were an amazing, cool dude. I crushed on you for some time. I'm sure you knew, but I wanted to tell you that so badly and couldn't.

I only just learnt you had passed a few minutes ago, yet you have been gone for a few months now. I was wondering bad what happened to you. Wish I could've showed off all the cool shit I've done lately, talked about more music with you, seen what you would've been doing in future..fuck. I just hope that your death was quick and peaceful.

You're legitimately the first person I was close to that I've lost like this. Knowing I'll never get to talk to you again, see you again, no matter what I do hits so hard. I don't even know what to say.

I don't know who you really were outside of your face, if Peter Grey was even your actual name. I might not get the chance to pay respects myself because of that if I ever travelled. I do hope that one day I can leave a flower at your grave myself.

I'm sorry that I never reached out to you in your last months. I'm sorry I wasn't there to talk to you much in general later on. I'm sorry for a lot of things; and a lot of what ifs. I'm going to carry a lot of guilt for not being able to talk to you before you passed.

I'm going to miss you so much, man. I really hope you're at peace and happy wherever you are now.