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4 years ago
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srsly
i love u all
every comment, every favorite, every view, every thing.
makes me giggly inside
sometimes i feel too tired and I don't draw for a long time. I pick up pen and I sketch a few lines, erase, a few more lines, erase. I would try to warm up but then I wonder to something else and stay up late trying to get myself back to drawing. Then I realize it's 10pm... midnight... 2am. Time flew by trying to relax and focus. But I would end up too tired and go to sleep. I wake up, do chores, go to work. Then I come back home and do it all over again.
Worse if I have a closing shift then open the next day. 4 hours of sleep. I come home, I take a nap. Wake up at 9pm and repeat the cycle.
I stopped taking anti-depressants because symptoms make me tired all the time. I do try to sleep consistently, but for some reason, I wake up in the middle of the night and I can't sleep.
Too fatigue and tired to even eat right. So I ate a lot of junk food and gained weight so adding health issues on top of that too. Having chest pains, back pains, leg pains. blablabla
I kept saying "I'll open up commissions" but the fact that I have to force myself to draw when I couldn't and adding obligation on top of that feels daunting and dreadful. Don't get me wrong, I would love to open them up soon (trying to buy my dog a skateboard).
I was able to draw some more when I took a month long medical leave. I felt better but I'm back to work now. I applied to another job in hopes of a consistent schedule and better pay (wish me luck!).
I usually don't share issues out in the open like this. For some reason I feel like sharing it today.
Despite it all, I'm still optimistic. I love life. Love my fam, hubby, dog, friends, fans, people. I love my art and myself. I live in the moment or at least I try to.
If ya'll read all of this, thank you for your time and have a beautiful night/evening/day~
:) <3
no
srsly
i love u all
every comment, every favorite, every view, every thing.
makes me giggly inside
sometimes i feel too tired and I don't draw for a long time. I pick up pen and I sketch a few lines, erase, a few more lines, erase. I would try to warm up but then I wonder to something else and stay up late trying to get myself back to drawing. Then I realize it's 10pm... midnight... 2am. Time flew by trying to relax and focus. But I would end up too tired and go to sleep. I wake up, do chores, go to work. Then I come back home and do it all over again.
Worse if I have a closing shift then open the next day. 4 hours of sleep. I come home, I take a nap. Wake up at 9pm and repeat the cycle.
I stopped taking anti-depressants because symptoms make me tired all the time. I do try to sleep consistently, but for some reason, I wake up in the middle of the night and I can't sleep.
Too fatigue and tired to even eat right. So I ate a lot of junk food and gained weight so adding health issues on top of that too. Having chest pains, back pains, leg pains. blablabla
I kept saying "I'll open up commissions" but the fact that I have to force myself to draw when I couldn't and adding obligation on top of that feels daunting and dreadful. Don't get me wrong, I would love to open them up soon (trying to buy my dog a skateboard).
I was able to draw some more when I took a month long medical leave. I felt better but I'm back to work now. I applied to another job in hopes of a consistent schedule and better pay (wish me luck!).
I usually don't share issues out in the open like this. For some reason I feel like sharing it today.
Despite it all, I'm still optimistic. I love life. Love my fam, hubby, dog, friends, fans, people. I love my art and myself. I live in the moment or at least I try to.
If ya'll read all of this, thank you for your time and have a beautiful night/evening/day~
:) <3
You are the best! Do whatever you must do to get better!
Don't let art be a chore when it's your enjoyable escapism, no one is owed it and though it'd be lovely to throw money at you for arts, your health, mental and physical is waaaaay more important.
This is a lovely message and though it sucks various stuff hasn't been great, it's wonderful that you've got the optimism to go 'fuck it, i'm still going!' with a smile and well, yay!
You do you, we shall sit back and enjoy the art! Cause yes, it's lovely, just like yourself. At least, that's the impression I've got. So woo.