Since only a friend replied on my twitter post, I'll post it here too.

I'm in a weird spot in life. I'm angry with myself about a lot of things.

About the entire month of April and 3/4s of March I've skipped Tuesday in-person classes. I've enjoyed life so much more on those days than ever before. I've literally travelled to adjacent cities, haven't done much, but just traveling makes me happy, and I could not be happier. However. The dilemma I'm facing is that since I've missed so much school, and I've already failed first semester, how will I recover?

I'm enjoying no school and just going to work. My other dilemma is that the field I'm going into just doesn't completely interest me. It's the only field that basically has a guaranteed job right after I get my degree. The things that do interest me, however... Just don't have a field waiting for me after school.

Plus, my plan was to move to the UK after I secured a decent job over there or in the states, and pay off any debt or loans I owe. But I don't know if I can do that. Or even if an Associates degree from the states would be valid in the UK. There is a lot of unknowns, and I just don't know what to do.

Streaming has always been on my radar, but I don't feel I'm entertaining or memorable enough to even watch on a regular basis. Past friends say I'm hilarious, and my parents say that I'm such an echo is someone's life, they could never forget about me. It feels like inspiration fodder to me. Plus to even start I would need to move out, because my mother is constantly home and always questions what I'm doing in my room, who I'm talking to, or anything like that. I don't want to deal with her.

I guess my excuse for skipping class is I'm trying to enjoy life while I still can.

I know not many are going to read this, or even get this far, but I guess I need advice. Whoever can step me in the right direction or direct me to someone that can help in some way, thanks.