Let them destroy you or carry you on
4 years ago
You're fighting the weight of the world, but no one can save you this time
Heya
It's been several years since my last journal. I was hoping to make a new one recently, but i stumbled into a nasty surprise that put me out for another month or so. A lot can happen in a few years, and man did it ever.
To those of you who i've not interacted with over the past few years
I'm sorry
To those of you who I HAVE interacted with over the past few years
..I'm sorry (hehe)
There is a lot that continues to be on my mind and my plate, so I sit here with the little free time i have remaining going directly into self study and poking through some old single player games i've had sitting around for ages. I never ended up getting to go to any of the schools i wanted to growing up, but the teaching tools available nowadays is amazing. The crowdfunding thing has become super commonplace and useful for artistic growth. The speed at which ideas and execution blows by has been making my head spin. I remain motivated, but i wish i were just a slight bit younger to experience it at full blast.
I have years of caked-on dust I need to blow off of my art pages. I don't know when or what i'll be uploading, but I am still around and still taking on a scattershot of commissions every once in a while (a while often being months apart)
I figured I'd have much more of use to say here but that's just how things go, I guess. Sometimes it's better to say something than nothing at all.
...Aight, back to my corner for now. Take care, I hope those of you left are happy and have cleared many of your sidequests.
Squash your beefs,
Finish your business,
Don't blink,
and above all, Never give up.
It's been several years since my last journal. I was hoping to make a new one recently, but i stumbled into a nasty surprise that put me out for another month or so. A lot can happen in a few years, and man did it ever.
To those of you who i've not interacted with over the past few years
I'm sorry
To those of you who I HAVE interacted with over the past few years
..I'm sorry (hehe)
There is a lot that continues to be on my mind and my plate, so I sit here with the little free time i have remaining going directly into self study and poking through some old single player games i've had sitting around for ages. I never ended up getting to go to any of the schools i wanted to growing up, but the teaching tools available nowadays is amazing. The crowdfunding thing has become super commonplace and useful for artistic growth. The speed at which ideas and execution blows by has been making my head spin. I remain motivated, but i wish i were just a slight bit younger to experience it at full blast.
I have years of caked-on dust I need to blow off of my art pages. I don't know when or what i'll be uploading, but I am still around and still taking on a scattershot of commissions every once in a while (a while often being months apart)
I figured I'd have much more of use to say here but that's just how things go, I guess. Sometimes it's better to say something than nothing at all.
...Aight, back to my corner for now. Take care, I hope those of you left are happy and have cleared many of your sidequests.
Squash your beefs,
Finish your business,
Don't blink,
and above all, Never give up.
New places? not really, just the same old mirror pages here on FA, on DA and IB. I'm active on zero of them. or at least I have been. I might change that? or not? I'm still quite unsure. x.x
This could be one of literally hundreds of games. I am almost never the person who leaves a long set, win or lose. I would have thought nothing of it, so if that plagued your mind after all this time, no worries x.x; (in fact, y'likely could have messaged me at the time, one way or another)
I still share some of your older art now and then~ Some things will always be relevant l3
still share my older art? my god, as like what, a weapon? V;
You have drawn some niche subjects that come up now and then, such as replacing cybernetic legs with tank treads, or furries who are anthro tanks
Interesting, being remembered for the one-off things
Not sure why i'm surprised, taking a few leaps outside of the box will tend to get noticed |3 I do love filling niches, either way!
In any case, I hope that you're doing well.
now i gotta figure out what to do next
I've missed seeing your art and would love to see how you've progressed over the years! But, as I'm shifting away from commissions and more toward personal projects, I fully understand that interests change. I've always gotten antsy doing the same thing for years, myself. Whatever you've been up to, whatever you'd care to share, I'm here for it~
I do believe i've checked in on your stuff every once in a while, and every time has been a drastic improvement, having me wonder where I'd be if I continued. 'twas quite an inspiration in turn!
And nah, though i did have a bit of a self destructive break many years ago, my interest (in art in general) isn't what ended up fading. It was time and energy. Though i am right there with you on wanting to shift focus from commissions to personal projects.
I now have a full-time job that uses up all of my creative energy, with maybe a few hours at the end of the day to stare at my tablet, often with nothing left. I do have a few doodles i've started/done at random but i don't know what's worth posting anywhere..still kinda figuring out what a 'return' would look like right now tbh. Hopefully it'll have significantly more butts P;
I'm lucky to have a job that's not too taxing, so I still have the drive to be productive when the shift ends. I'm still not entirely sure whether I want to break into a creative industry role or just stick with the relaxed ez-code monkey thing I've got going. I have my ambitions, but the idea of making a move into something that could drain that creative energy/ambition is definitely scary. But for now, 40 hours of every week is spent doing something that isn't building relevant skills, just making money. Definitely got that in the back of my mind a lot.
I've been too lazy to post my sketches anywhere but Twitter (or IB, sometimes) but I'm sure the folks on here would be happy to see whatever you've got. People seem to like it that I keep throwing up old sketches that I never posted back when I doodled them~