Finally able to sorta get my head on straight. With any luck, I'll eventually be able to move forward with what I want to do in the future of my life.
That being said, I've noticed a strange phenomenon. Well, it's one I perceive, anyways.
Even though the days are definitely marching onward, it barely feels like time is progressing to me.

Decades ago, I could actually feel the movement with various milestones either from myself or from others in life; significant things, mind you. Maybe it's the decline of major technological advancements compared to many years ago.
But...ever since about 2012, I think, it doesn't really feel like things have been moving forward.
In many cases, it feels like a lot of things are going backwards...and that bothers me.

I mean, on one hand...I'm immortal, thanks to whatever happened then or several years before. But on the other hand, it still has me concerned for the future. I keep finding myself asking a lot of questions pertaining to that.

"Will I be able to achieve any more of my dreams in the future?"
"Will there even be a future to pursue for many of us?"
"What will things be like ten or so years from now? Twenty?"

There are other questions, sure, but most of it is heavy existential stuff I'd rather not get into publicly.
Still, sometimes I forget that it's good to just blurt out my thoughts on these journals and such, just to free up some space in my head, even if it doesn't amount to much. It's been difficult for me to really talk about a lot of these things or to focus on other things like I should, or like I want to.

Speaking of which, for anyone paying attention and keeping an eye on the sluggish activity here (thank you, by the way), I'm working on some more uploads again. Just a few hours ago, I posted some long-overdue Kokoro. I hope to post some more of my backlog when I can push myself past these mental blocks...and eventually some stories, too.

...goddess bless, I miss casually writing.