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Life Journal (05/18/2021)
4 years ago
Hello everyone and my fellow friends and followers and those who visit my page! I'm terribly sorry for the inactive session as usual but I have had to do so much things I am doing in my life, which is mainly college and jeez its a struggle. Unfortunately I got myself into a predicament that I managed to get out of! College, yes it is a struggle and i'm kicking myself into gear even more now as I want to transfer to another big college here where I live. As we know Covid has put a stop to many things and a hold to on some, my family has unfortunately been hit by covid hard time where I legit thought I was gonna lose one of my parents. But months have passed and where all ok! I actually got my first vaccination and will be getting my last one on the 28th this month! Artistic JourneyArtistic wise I have just been so unmotivated for many reasons, A. Cause of college B. the lack of interest in my art and C. how my art is never appreciated by many like it used to. I know some may find this either weird or whatever else but its true, hard work only for what? one or two likes or no likes at all and its very demotivating as I know people who used to like my work don't support me yet they support the other artist I know or they know to? Like I wonder what changed that made you not support me anymore? Like my style? interest? Characters? Well whatever it is im sorry you don't like it but we all change no? But at this point I don't stress about it to much, even though it lingers. Besides its not like anyone will see this journal anyways since many who follow me are inactive. It's just one of those artist struggle I know many artist and writers go through. But I will always make my move cause I will not let anything block my vision! I have been trying out new techniques and wanting to get out of my comfort zone. I have always loved artist who draw such beautiful scenery paintings and regular drawings via hand or digital. I know its a learning process and curve but in the end I know it'll be a new skill to add to my artistic media and make better drawings then before! I am also focusing on drawing more Living Machine characters. I had recently revamped my Dodge Challenger character by the name of Tod. his previous designs mostly consisted of green. Despite the help I got I didn't really like his design so I went back to my original way and made him the way I wanted, plus his previous design sparks back some bad flashbacks of drama from people in a certain community. Anyways ill be bringing more living machine characters to life, some you may find regular, some may have more beastly aspects, now those ones I know many people love! Other then that life has kept me busy from doing the things I really love doing but I will slowly be making a schedule to do things I want to do as I have calculated things I plan to improve myself and reflect on. OH! some other fun news, if many know I always loved fursuiting, I managed to finally adopt a fursuit design last year and now he's home and I love him so much! I have photos of him on my Instagram if your interested! Overall I just want to say thank you to those who stayed with me on my adventures on social media and supported me, it truly means a lot to me, new friends and old friends! I know I have some who follow me who don't associate with me anymore but I thank you to for everything to and in the past even if we don't interact. Besides we are in the year of 2021 and I forgive everything that happened last year even if others do not forget since I know some people will hold onto a grudge for a very long time. may I also state that no I am not calling anyone out, I just know everyone has different personalities and I know a few relative who can hold a grudge for a very long time.Overall this is how my life has been with me for the past last year and this year. In a rate from 1 to 10 I give 2020 a 4 cause things were so hectic, stressful, moments of pain and little joy and just above and beyond from loosing friends, a love interest, almost family members and literally flunking college but life goes on and we all face obstacles in life you know? Yes these moments where painful and will be in the memory bank but I always make a mental note to myself to learn from mistakes or other obstacles and challenges life throws a you. I know I still face challenges and always will as I continue my adventure and journey in my life of adulthood and as an artist, but I know there will always be my friends who will support me as always! Overall this journal is just to vlog how things have gone in the past and the present currently. I wish you all a good day or night! until then I will see you all next time!