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4 years ago
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Just a little update in my life. (TW: su***dal thoughts & s*lf h**m)
For a little while there I was getting pretty down on my life. I worked for 3 months at one of the worst jobs of my life after leaving a job that I nearly considered a second home. When I was there I was mentally and verbally abused for things outside of my control (Being left handed as one of them). I was also being pressured at home by my parents to stick with the job and just work harder or try and change what I could in hopes things would get better. Which they didn't. I got to the point that I really didn't want to live anymore. I hated myself, I hated the home I was in, I hated work, I started feeling like there was nowhere in this world for me, and so I'd begun self harming, writing suicide notes, and I was really close to ending things.
I moved out of my parents house, up to a roommate situation in Woodland and was contacted by a place in Elk Grove about a job. Having no other options, I accepted. I've now been at my workplace since last September and it's been one of the best places I've ever worked. Of course it has it's downsides, long hours, a bit of a psycho boss, but my coworkers treat me well, I'm allowed to alter my appearance to what makes me happy, I speak to the people in charge regularly about things that could be improved for those of us who are neurodivergent, and I love it.
Of course, the place in Woodland didn't work out, my roommate ended up flipping her lid on me and I was forced to isolate myself in my room for my own mental wellbeing for several months, and of course, isolation in a small bedroom isn't exactly a healthy thing to do, so with the help of my mother, I found a place up near Arden, which is where I live now, by myself. It's a small, one bedroom apartment a stone's throw from Arden mall and I love it. It's my own little bachelor pad. <3
I'm doing a lot better mentally these days. I'm on the correct meds, I started my journey with pole fitness on 3/21, and I'm becoming the person I was always meant to become.
For a little while there I was getting pretty down on my life. I worked for 3 months at one of the worst jobs of my life after leaving a job that I nearly considered a second home. When I was there I was mentally and verbally abused for things outside of my control (Being left handed as one of them). I was also being pressured at home by my parents to stick with the job and just work harder or try and change what I could in hopes things would get better. Which they didn't. I got to the point that I really didn't want to live anymore. I hated myself, I hated the home I was in, I hated work, I started feeling like there was nowhere in this world for me, and so I'd begun self harming, writing suicide notes, and I was really close to ending things.
I moved out of my parents house, up to a roommate situation in Woodland and was contacted by a place in Elk Grove about a job. Having no other options, I accepted. I've now been at my workplace since last September and it's been one of the best places I've ever worked. Of course it has it's downsides, long hours, a bit of a psycho boss, but my coworkers treat me well, I'm allowed to alter my appearance to what makes me happy, I speak to the people in charge regularly about things that could be improved for those of us who are neurodivergent, and I love it.
Of course, the place in Woodland didn't work out, my roommate ended up flipping her lid on me and I was forced to isolate myself in my room for my own mental wellbeing for several months, and of course, isolation in a small bedroom isn't exactly a healthy thing to do, so with the help of my mother, I found a place up near Arden, which is where I live now, by myself. It's a small, one bedroom apartment a stone's throw from Arden mall and I love it. It's my own little bachelor pad. <3
I'm doing a lot better mentally these days. I'm on the correct meds, I started my journey with pole fitness on 3/21, and I'm becoming the person I was always meant to become.
I just had the turning point of my life too. Take your like, and make a masterpiece out of it, don't you ever forget it!