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Mid 2021 Update and some Life Changing Revelations
4 years ago
Heyo!
Thought I'd give an update on what's going on, as I don't I've given any kind of update since later last year.
I'm SLOWLY getting some motivation back for art, but things have been very busy and I've also found something out a few months ago that may have explained some of the issues with consistency with working on art.
First and foremost, I bought my first house early this year! I think one thing I REALLY needed was a change of scene, especially after what happened last year with COVID and also some very bad issues with the real estate I was renting under.
So I've moved from Melbourne and now I'm in Brisbane! New state and everything XD It's a big change for me, and it's the first time I've ever lived out side of Victoria state. I moved from most of my family, friends and most of what I know makes up my life, so some might wonder why I chose to do so. There's a few reasons why that is.
Main reasons being:
- Cheaper house prices. The prices in Victoria are so bad right now, you have to go at least 100km away from a major city to find a decent house that's affordable. In the city, you can barely even find an apartment for under $200k.
- More security and options for my future. I think after the Victorian government really screwed up with the COVID outbreaks last year and the citizens being stupid, rebellious and in major denial of what's going on. I can't trust that they can stabilize their situation enough from going in and out of lockdowns until at least most people have been vaccinated, which could take a year or two based on the speed we're dealing them out at the moment. They're COVID tracking is a bit borderline too and can be quite lethargic with encouraging businesses and such to check-in and follow hygiene rules. Having no security on what's happening around me causes me to stress out and lose control. I needed to be somewhere that I can be more sure that my life's not changing plans every two or three weeks. My mental health works better with a routine that I can stick to and settle on until it needs altering. Plus Queensland's system with dealing with tracking and checking in people is way superior, so I feel safer physically.
- Better weather for my health. Melbourne is very notorious in Australia for being a city that has "four seasons in a day". The temperatures are all over the place, and my body does not react well to constant, drastic changes with that. People close to me know that I do have a knack of catching colds quite regularly, and I'm sick of it to be fair.
- Just a change of scene. Sometimes all you need is a fresh start to get things going again.
So I've been getting things done for the house and been busy. I've had heaps of new furniture being put in, I'm currently having a much better fence being built, done quite a bit of re-mods to the gardens and there's still quite a bit to do with that. Also starting to construct some guitar display work in my little office. Got some wall hangers and I'm hoping to keep my guitars all off the ground so I can make some room.
I'm also looking at returning to studies, and will be re-attempting the Advanced course which I withdrew from last year. I've had some time to reflect on it, and I wanted to return when I know I can sit it in a physical class and not online. I know it sounds very picky and some might suggest to be grateful in case it was my only option. It took me last year to figure out how badly I perform on an fully online basis. You all know what I was like last year, I was a complete bloody mess. I need that in-person connection with teachers and classmates to thrive at my best, and I need something to physically attend so I've got a reason to wake up at an earlier time for. Gives me another part of that routine I need.
Also, I will be getting my first dog this weekend. I checked out a litter of German Shepherd puppies a few weeks ago, and I put a deposit on a gorgeous boy I couldn't look past. He's a sable coat too, which are my favourites. I originally was thinking of getting a husky, which is my favourite breed. But I took some good time to reflect on my current situation and what I plan to do in the next half year. One thing that stood out is the huskies generally have really bad separation anxiety, and when I return to uni I don't think it's fair to have him stress out every second day because I'm not there. They're really a dog that you really need to be at home a lot to raise up well. So I went with my next favourite, and I was raised with sheps growing up too.
I've decided to name him Steele, and I'm very much looking forward to raising this little guy. It obviously won't be easy work, but I'm willing to put in the effort and love so he can grow up to be a great dog. Might post a pic of him here too.
And I mentioned before I found out something recently. Some of you might remember in my previous journal, I said something at the end about me not knowing if it was ADHD or something that's affecting my focus on things.
Well not long after that I decided to go and see someone about that. And to my surprise (or not), turns out I do in fact have ADHD. A couple of symptoms aren't so bad (maybe I've grown through it over the years), but most of them are there. The particular ones that stood out were fidgeting and not sitting still (My mind hates that tbh, I'll end up either tapping my feet or bouncing my knees quite visibly. My body has to be doing something at least). Procrastination and concentration is another, as well as having a shorter attention span on doing things. So I struggle maintain focus with doing something for a longer period of time. It can be as bad as changing activities every 10-20 mins, particularly if it's something I haven't got a lot of interest in.
So finding this out solved a lot of questions that I've been trying to find the answers for at least the last 5 years. Particularly with my issues with consistently making art, and I found that depression and ADHD can sometimes go hand-in-hand with screwing that consistency up with me all the time.
I was given many options on how to deal with it. One of them was through medication, but that's a path I don't want to go down. I've seen with other people I know that take them, that it really can deaden emotions and makes them seem like they're living in a completely different reality.
I'm currently trying some different methods on learning to deal with it. One example is I do notice that when I am more active with going to the gym and exercising, that helps my mind stimulate and relax afterwards. That's one of the methods that I really am working more towards, plus I need to get back into shape like I was prior to 2020.
So in addition to autism and a few other conditions, you can add ADHD now to that list too XD
Anyways, hope you guys are all doing well and are safe ^.^
~ Guru
Current Working List - 30th of January, 2022
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KlausD
Anthropornorphic
NorthShepherd
~northshepherd
Especially that sheppy puppy!
Pyndan
~pyndan
Awesome! I'm so stoked fur ya and all the changes! And a sheppy?! OMG, you'd better send tons of pictures!
Sevren2112
~sevren2112
Glad Queensland is treating you ok, though I miss being able to hang out with ya mate. But seriously, it's good that things are getting better for you.
