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4 years ago
I honestly don't know why I'm still doing these, nobody reads these... so not like it matters...
I honestly already said everything in just the title.... Think that's good enough for a journal?
Joking aside, no, things have NOT changed or gotten better, more rather on the contrary, I've lost more people, been hurt a lot more, and to top it all off, I'm even lonelier than normal, which is becoming the new normal... Oh, did I mention I abandoned Twitter? Yeah, that's a thing, oh, and every time I'm told that someone is allegedly concerned for my well-being, I *KNOW* for a *FACT* that it's a lie, always has been, always will be. Death still seems like a pretty good option since nobody cares, not here, not on SL, NOWHERE, not even IRL, but oh well, such is life. And of course, the US Gov. isn't gonna do shit because they're too busy making money while putting the less fortunate like myself in crippling debt, instead of making counseling and healthcare *ENTIRELY* funded by the gov.... Then at least we might stand a chance.... Alas, that's the gov.'s decision.
Of course, I should probably make mention that I've been finding such posts on e621 to try to... I dunno.... feel something? Hard to describe, really... but it sure beats pawing off mindlessly to furry porn... in some minuscule manner or some shit, again, not really sure.... And to make matters worse, here's my dumbass wondering what love looks like, or what it looks like to have people comfort you, so as time goes on, I've DEFINITELY been craving the shit I've missed out on all 21 years of my life.
Yeah, you read that right.... I'm turning 21 this month, and I fucking hate it.... of all the holidays I hate, my birthday has to be the highest on the hate list.... and I hate *ALL* holidays...
Bah fuck it, I'm out of shit to say, so here....
I honestly already said everything in just the title.... Think that's good enough for a journal?
Joking aside, no, things have NOT changed or gotten better, more rather on the contrary, I've lost more people, been hurt a lot more, and to top it all off, I'm even lonelier than normal, which is becoming the new normal... Oh, did I mention I abandoned Twitter? Yeah, that's a thing, oh, and every time I'm told that someone is allegedly concerned for my well-being, I *KNOW* for a *FACT* that it's a lie, always has been, always will be. Death still seems like a pretty good option since nobody cares, not here, not on SL, NOWHERE, not even IRL, but oh well, such is life. And of course, the US Gov. isn't gonna do shit because they're too busy making money while putting the less fortunate like myself in crippling debt, instead of making counseling and healthcare *ENTIRELY* funded by the gov.... Then at least we might stand a chance.... Alas, that's the gov.'s decision.
Of course, I should probably make mention that I've been finding such posts on e621 to try to... I dunno.... feel something? Hard to describe, really... but it sure beats pawing off mindlessly to furry porn... in some minuscule manner or some shit, again, not really sure.... And to make matters worse, here's my dumbass wondering what love looks like, or what it looks like to have people comfort you, so as time goes on, I've DEFINITELY been craving the shit I've missed out on all 21 years of my life.
Yeah, you read that right.... I'm turning 21 this month, and I fucking hate it.... of all the holidays I hate, my birthday has to be the highest on the hate list.... and I hate *ALL* holidays...
Bah fuck it, I'm out of shit to say, so here....
