Lately I've been finding myself feeling conflicted when it comes to streaming... I enjoy when I can multi-stream on platforms like Picarto with fellow creative friends. But despite platform the feeling kind of crosses both Twitch & Picarto... There's various aspects that I like... Twitch offers more engagement with folks coming in & participating on the chat, Picarto on the other hand allows for more ways to collaborate with other creative folk in multi-streams.

If I'm streaming by myself I have found it lackluster, honestly... I'm not always able to do things like being on a microphone while streaming... Often the best I can do is play music while I'm working. I try to always be looking at the chat windows to interact with folks who drop by my stream. I use streaming as a means of being able to socialize & engage with people who come to watch me work... I do not find it motivating if I'm just a 'background process' that no one cares to at least even say 'Hello', lurking isn't a bad thing... but just even acknowledging that you are there or something would mean something... otherwise it can feel rude & offputting. It is very demeaning to be just seen as 'entertainment' & not really feel valued for what I'm sharing.

I have been perfectly capable of working on my freelance work without streaming & initially the advent of being able to share the creative process was very exciting... but that excitement has turned lackluster sadly... I don't have the spoons to continue to put forth the effort & computer resources to stream if the interest in me actually streaming is not there. I know some of that is due in part to the schedule I keep & times that I stream... so there's various facets that have led up to where I'm at. I think going forward I may only stream if I'm coordinating specifically with a commissioner on their project... or invited to multi-stream with other artists/friends.