Four days ago, my last remaining grandparent to cancer. A heartbreak among all the family members.
I've been worried for my mother since she was with her when her mother passed away.
She was a sweet grandma and visited a lot when I was much younger, always flying over from South Africa to visit us in the US.
20 years later, I still have the snow tiger plushie she bought me when I was 4. And I'll continue keeping it and looking after it cause that's basically the only thing I have left.

Yesterday, my best friend I've had since moving to Johannesburg last year has passed away peacefully in her sleep.
And I haven't been able to focus much on anything, I've been in tears since I got the news at 6 am yesterday...
I don't understand why she passed, and I've been angry and upset for not knowing what brought her to this unfortunate and early end.
She was the nicest and most generous person I knew. Nothing would ever be able to replace her.
And that's fine, I don't want anyone to replace her. She has left a mark in my life that stopped making me the upset and depressed person I used to be after I moved to South Africa.


I haven't been feeling like myself from these events. I'm sorry I haven't been able to work these past couple of days.
I will need a day or 2 off next week to attend my Grandmother's funeral on Wednesday and I'll be back home to work on comms either on the same day or the next day.

Thank you all for sticking around as long as you guys have, and thank you for your patience and understanding.
With love.
Nopulant.