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Summer of Sorrows
4 years ago
Where do I begin?
Firstly, just a few days ago, my grandmother on my mother's side of the family (not the one I live with now) passed away peacefully in her sleep. She was well close to reaching 100, and it was expected given all the health complications that she had endured through the final years of her life. I do feel sad that she is gone. But at the same time, I'm glad to see she lived a good life, surrounded by the ones that loved her dearly, and will be missed.
Second, the issue with my current household has not improved. In fact, it seems to have worsened over time. My father continues to get kicked out of his house multiple times due to his absent minded behavior, and his addiction to alcohol has also risen. To make matters worse, the person he lives with used to be his fiancé. However, his mindless actions have caused her bipolar disorder to flare up, thus making just the sight of my father a negative trigger. This has resulted in him repeatedly getting yelled at, and kicked out of his house, with her actions aided by my town's local authorities, who have made it quite clear that they are done dealing with the both of them, and no longer want anything to do with the situation. Afterwards, a phone call is usually made between my grandmother, and his fiancée, and starts off the the obligatory shouting of lewd 4-letter words, and abruptly ends with the constant complaints of my father. My father is longer in mental control of his actions, and things such as soiling himself in public, to beating his hand on tables and chairs while mindlessly staring off into space have become a common sight. My grandmother wishes to help him, but at the same time, doesn't want to see him admitted to a rehab institution again. She wishes to take him in, but I currently live with her and have made my views on the matter quite clear. We have no room, nor the finances to support three people under the same roof. So at the moment, my father wanders between both houses, lost in a cloud of pain, misery and depression, since he lives within close proximity.
Third is the issue with my grandmother's truck. It is a 1999 Dodge Dakota Sport 2WD base model (No power options, No AC) with the 3.9 Liter Magnum V6. The problem is the service to the vehicle has been neglected for so long, that it is costing both my grandmother and I more to repair, and replace parts that are constantly breaking down. Living in the New England area has rusted out most the of the frame to the point the fuel tank has to be held in with chains, since the mounting straps have rusted away. The motor is eating coolant due to leaking freeze plugs, and a bad tensioner keeps causing the serpentine belt to jump off the pulleys, and get caught in the fan. And just recently, one of the front brake lines blew out, causing the truck to loose just about all braking power. I can repair a lot of this myself, but it is challenging due to my rheumatoid arthritis, thus is why I enlist the aid of a good friend of mine who has helped me with many vehicles in the past. However, whenever someone comes over to help me with my grandmother's truck, my father has to come over, and start in with the begging, and pestering for money, and cigarettes to the point they leave, leaving me stranded. The truck has sat in the driveway now for the entire past weekend, due to this reason alone. At this point, I'd be much happier to see the truck hauled off to the scrap yard.
There is a little bit of good news.
For a short time in August, I'll be taking a good week, and a half vacation from the issues at hand, and will be heading to Florida on a road trip with a friend of mine to Megaplex. This convention will be just what I need to relax, unwind, and regain contact with those in the fandom that I have missed, as well as make new friends, and enjoy the many memories to come. I have been looking forward to this convention now for the longest time, and am grateful to have planned it well with a good friend of mine. It'll definitely be the vacation I need to recharge myself, and get back into enjoying what the fandom has to offer.
That's about it for now.
Take care all.
Firstly, just a few days ago, my grandmother on my mother's side of the family (not the one I live with now) passed away peacefully in her sleep. She was well close to reaching 100, and it was expected given all the health complications that she had endured through the final years of her life. I do feel sad that she is gone. But at the same time, I'm glad to see she lived a good life, surrounded by the ones that loved her dearly, and will be missed.
Second, the issue with my current household has not improved. In fact, it seems to have worsened over time. My father continues to get kicked out of his house multiple times due to his absent minded behavior, and his addiction to alcohol has also risen. To make matters worse, the person he lives with used to be his fiancé. However, his mindless actions have caused her bipolar disorder to flare up, thus making just the sight of my father a negative trigger. This has resulted in him repeatedly getting yelled at, and kicked out of his house, with her actions aided by my town's local authorities, who have made it quite clear that they are done dealing with the both of them, and no longer want anything to do with the situation. Afterwards, a phone call is usually made between my grandmother, and his fiancée, and starts off the the obligatory shouting of lewd 4-letter words, and abruptly ends with the constant complaints of my father. My father is longer in mental control of his actions, and things such as soiling himself in public, to beating his hand on tables and chairs while mindlessly staring off into space have become a common sight. My grandmother wishes to help him, but at the same time, doesn't want to see him admitted to a rehab institution again. She wishes to take him in, but I currently live with her and have made my views on the matter quite clear. We have no room, nor the finances to support three people under the same roof. So at the moment, my father wanders between both houses, lost in a cloud of pain, misery and depression, since he lives within close proximity.
Third is the issue with my grandmother's truck. It is a 1999 Dodge Dakota Sport 2WD base model (No power options, No AC) with the 3.9 Liter Magnum V6. The problem is the service to the vehicle has been neglected for so long, that it is costing both my grandmother and I more to repair, and replace parts that are constantly breaking down. Living in the New England area has rusted out most the of the frame to the point the fuel tank has to be held in with chains, since the mounting straps have rusted away. The motor is eating coolant due to leaking freeze plugs, and a bad tensioner keeps causing the serpentine belt to jump off the pulleys, and get caught in the fan. And just recently, one of the front brake lines blew out, causing the truck to loose just about all braking power. I can repair a lot of this myself, but it is challenging due to my rheumatoid arthritis, thus is why I enlist the aid of a good friend of mine who has helped me with many vehicles in the past. However, whenever someone comes over to help me with my grandmother's truck, my father has to come over, and start in with the begging, and pestering for money, and cigarettes to the point they leave, leaving me stranded. The truck has sat in the driveway now for the entire past weekend, due to this reason alone. At this point, I'd be much happier to see the truck hauled off to the scrap yard.
There is a little bit of good news.
For a short time in August, I'll be taking a good week, and a half vacation from the issues at hand, and will be heading to Florida on a road trip with a friend of mine to Megaplex. This convention will be just what I need to relax, unwind, and regain contact with those in the fandom that I have missed, as well as make new friends, and enjoy the many memories to come. I have been looking forward to this convention now for the longest time, and am grateful to have planned it well with a good friend of mine. It'll definitely be the vacation I need to recharge myself, and get back into enjoying what the fandom has to offer.
That's about it for now.
Take care all.
dalesql
~dalesql
Take care of yourself first. You can't help anyone if you are all messed up. I wish I had some useful advice, but I'm drawing a blank. enjoy your megaplex trip, and I hope that it helps you regain your balance.
