I'm tired, im stress and i nothing i do ever goes right.
This is all the things i've bottled up over lockdown and this year and i cant keep it to myself any longer.

My 3D printer is being a massive bitch and wont print anything for some fucking reason and i have to find the time of day (very rare for me now) to rebuild the piece of crap to get it to work. If it doesnt work then fucking kill me

Patreon is a fucking joke cause i can never EVER get enough to reach a decent income. It's always stuck between 2-3.

Youtube fucking sucks cause no matter how many vids I upload or how i keep improving the views are shit. Hours and hours i spent trying to get everything right means shit compared to the crap projects that gets tones of views. Those dub videos aint easy to make but do people care? No they dont cause all they care about is leaving stupid comments. I cant even monetize my channel cause i keep losing views. Coppa is the reason why i stop practicing animation.

i gave up my dream to someday see my ocs in comics and on the big screen. Seeing how things are going it's not worth seeing them get wreck by them

Commissions barely give me hope cause i only get under 3 or less. Commission sheets, leaving comments on people pages linking them to it. Fucking pointless. It means jack shit in the end.

I wanted to do video dub commissions and t-shirt designs stuff but knowing my shitty ass luck those will end up a waste of time. No matter how much time i spent on each design.

I got stuff i'm stuck working on that im not even getting paid for (try asking for a request and it's instant ban and good luck getting off that list) so who knows how long it will take me before i'm free from that.

I barely have a reason to get out of bed nowadays or look forward too. Everyday is the same old shit. Life not getting better no matter how hard i try or put on a fake smile to trick the world im not one step close from having a break down.