Hi everyone. I don’t even know where to begin. I guess it’s just I wanted someplace to write this. Even if it’s public, I don’t care anymore. I’ve been through a lot in my life; constant moving, pets coming and going, and feeling isolated from my family. In the end, I let my fears take control and force me away from them. To make it worse comes the fact that I feel scared to speak about it. I don’t want others to feel stressed because of me. I don’t want to sound selfish or egotistical. I… I just feel anxious because I don’t know what tomorrow holds for me or the people I care about. I’m afraid of losing them and never seeing them again. It’s happened to before and I thought I could overcome it. But I can’t.

I’m constantly stressed about others judging me or letting everyone down. It’s something I try to explain to everyone, but it doesn’t come out the way I want to. Everything I say either comes out wrong or sounds hollow. Even more so when I try talking with my siblings. Every time I try to say something or apologize, it feels like I’m on autopilot. Here I go, making everything bout myself.

I just need some time. I’m fine somewhat, nothing serious. I just need to sort somethings out. I’ll try to get back to drawing as soon as possible. I hate saying goodbyes. You never know if you’ll see them again.