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Hello Once More

Happy Catboy Summer 2021!

I'm far far more active on my Twitter in the way of daily dealings, Vrchat snapshots, and Lawsuit photos - however given the belated anniversary of my previous journal I thought I might provide a more purrsonal albeit cryptic update on myself.

I was unaware of it at the time, but the beginning of July, 2020 was an uncharacteristic high-point in my life, thereafter followed by the worst eight month period I've had to experience. The eventual end of an idyllic, month-old private relationship with a very close friend at the time and my subsequent romantic obsession with this man who no longer loved me threw me into a mental spiral and pushed me dangerously close to the brink; it was a self-imposed private hell that I escaped only by cutting ties with my friend in December.

The trauma is ongoing, but I'll withhold the rest of my thoughts on the situation. The turn of the new year brought me a lot of new joys and new friendships, along with the major development of moving out of my parent's house and into my own home. I was not happy for a very long time - in a lot of ways I'm still hurting - but seeing where I've come since the start of January I'm getting closer and closer to confidently saying to myself that I can be happy again.

There's still a small part of me that wishes to return to where I was one year ago, maybe fix any mistakes I had made in my relationship that pulled me into my half year-long downslide. I know it's a toxic way to view things, and eventually I'll be able to put that hope out of my mind. In the meantime, I'm going to continue to enjoy life as I can, as well as continue to upload my commissioned arts to FA, albeit far too slowly ^^;

I promise that the next annual update will be more pleasant. Until Then! ♥

~Law

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