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4 years ago
Hey everyone. I’ll just get to the point. I didn’t get the adopt fursuit. It wasn’t something that happened between me or the seller. It was a emergency surgery for my family’s cat. He had crystals and it got to the point where we had to take him to the vet. He’s fine now, but the surgery was more damaging in finance terms. I didn’t have enough for groceries and art supplies so I asked if it was possible to refund the suit. Thankfully it was but it’s gonna take sometime. I’ll be honest it was hard to do yet alone say it. I’ve been feeling down these past few weeks and it was improving. Then came the surgery and I couldn’t wait for the next pay date cause if I did, I’d be broke. Guess I’ll have to look for a fur suit maker that delivers to Canada. Shame as well, loved the look of the one I was adopting.
Aside from that, I’ve been dealing with bouts of anxiety and real bad depression. It feels like every time I try to have fun, I get put back under and curb-stomped. Sorry if I sound dramatic, been trying to stop myself from having a complete breakdown. But it feels like the more I resist, the worse it gets. Even more so when I buy things that cost a lot more. Part of it’s buyers remorse but I’m also not confident in my choices. A majority of the time, when I actually make a choice, it haunts me for a great amount of time and rips my mind to shreds. Again sorry if I sound dramatic. Happens when I’m in a bad mood.
I’m just gonna try and start posting my Inktober stuff on the weekend and if not then, next week. Not just because I’m feeling down, I didn’t want to flood peoples submissions with my drawings. To make things more complicated, I’ve barely drawn anything this week. I was low on paper and had to get some today. Additionally, I was actually wondering on whether to do a poll for my next sketch. So I’m going to do something different and do a poll on this journal for my next sketch. What do you guys want?
A) Amara
B) Levi
C) New character I’ve been working on
D) NSFW drawing of Akira Shepard or someone else
E) Jay
Whoever it is, I’ll draw them regardless of who gets in my way. Unless a wildfire swings by and forces me to GTFO, that would be a different story. Still, I’ll try my best and hope you all have a great day/night!
Aside from that, I’ve been dealing with bouts of anxiety and real bad depression. It feels like every time I try to have fun, I get put back under and curb-stomped. Sorry if I sound dramatic, been trying to stop myself from having a complete breakdown. But it feels like the more I resist, the worse it gets. Even more so when I buy things that cost a lot more. Part of it’s buyers remorse but I’m also not confident in my choices. A majority of the time, when I actually make a choice, it haunts me for a great amount of time and rips my mind to shreds. Again sorry if I sound dramatic. Happens when I’m in a bad mood.
I’m just gonna try and start posting my Inktober stuff on the weekend and if not then, next week. Not just because I’m feeling down, I didn’t want to flood peoples submissions with my drawings. To make things more complicated, I’ve barely drawn anything this week. I was low on paper and had to get some today. Additionally, I was actually wondering on whether to do a poll for my next sketch. So I’m going to do something different and do a poll on this journal for my next sketch. What do you guys want?
A) Amara
B) Levi
C) New character I’ve been working on
D) NSFW drawing of Akira Shepard or someone else
E) Jay
Whoever it is, I’ll draw them regardless of who gets in my way. Unless a wildfire swings by and forces me to GTFO, that would be a different story. Still, I’ll try my best and hope you all have a great day/night!
