ok....yesturday was just a horrible day. i was depressed, i pissed off a friend of mine, got caught up between two of them in some drama that im sure im going to remember for as long as im on FA, watched a friend systematically unfav everyone of what was one of his favourite legendary macro artists' works over one pic *which...to him, meant that the artist had just given up on doing stuff of his own and just started doing things other people wanted. which to him is like the artist loosing all pride in his works. It goes into a deeper feeling than what i can bring up", and then last night it ended with me just loosing it and ignoring everyone in the house *that last bit was caused by RL shit...not what happened on FA* so...regardless of what everyone has said and what i was told not to do...i think i still owe everyone one FA an apology...not just one person or in this case, one friend...but to everyone that watches me...and everyone that ive watched. it just something that i let run out of control because i listened to what others tell me and not what i should have thought was right. Im not going to call name, im not going to single anyone out....im just going to say what ive just said. they can take it however they want it cause im not in the mood to care anymore. i just want things back the way they were....either with or without them. ive thought about it all night and finally just decided to do this instead because i knew it was one way of pleasing both sides. but ive also thought about each friend individually. one is a mutual friend, and id hate to loose him because we have too much in common, the other is a friend but i fear that all the fame and popularity has taken over....he hasnt been the same since we first met... eitherway....im just going to go back to doing that i doing...and do my own thing for a while. just to try to get back into things.... and i would like to thank  jelethorim for sticking by me last night and calming me down....without him, i probably would have done something i would have regretted. now than....back to the old grind....first vidja games then drawing...like normal i guess