Yet again I had to disappear. Things went bad with our little doggo and the veterinary neurologist to whom we took her to the capital said, there are two things we can do. One was going through an immediate surgery with limited chances of success and a lenghty treatment and rehab later, which had even lesser chances of ever helping her, and through which period she would still be immobilized and in excrutiating pain in the windows of time when the painkillers would be stopping to work, but it would be dangerous to give her another dose just yet not to overdose. And in the end of a several-month long nightmare, with a significant probability, there wouldn't be any improvement. Or we could get over our pain and stop her's. I told you, I'm going to fight till the end, if there's a reasonable chance, but the percentage wasn't anywhere near good. So we decided it's more humanitary thing to stop her suffering and let her rest, finally, after already a long time, when she was still being diagnosed and it was visible what toll her disability and pain had on her. After that... I simply needed a couple of days to come to terms with my new, dogless reality. I've always had a dog ever since I was 12. This little pooch, our little darling, was with us 11 years, ever since the day my gf found her malnourished and bald from flea allergy, looking more like a little monster, than a beautiful dog she turned into within the next couple of months. No wonder she was more of my gf's dog, my gf was the one who saved her and she's always been THE human for her, but that doesn't change the fact she was one of the most cheerful sparks of joy in MY life too. I can't promise I will be able to respond to any contact today still, but I'll try to slowly start getting back in the grind, just not to go mad.

Also, I'm closing commissions for now. Thanks to your fast and vast response, I was able to pay for the initial surgery and then the hospitalisation, diagnostics and specialist consultations. I will concentrate now on finishing them, going back to issuing YCHs instead, to make my living, and slow down with pace I get new pictures to draw to rest after this madness a little and to have more time to finish all the pending work finally. I dearly hope I will not have to open my commissions until then, because that would mean, something bad happens again u.u I hope to open them when I'm done with all the ones I have for now, as a joyful event bringing variety and not an emergency measure.

I know you guys and I know you're the most supportive community I have ever met in my life <3 And that each time I say farewell to any of my pets, you're there with your supportive and soothing comments. I want you to know it means a lot to me <3 but I don't think I will be able to answer to any just yet. I'm sorry, but please know it doesn't mean I don't see them and they don't affect me. It's just very difficult to think of answers, because I'm always getting very emotional. Nonetheless, please accept my big thanks for your kind words! In the past and the ones I know you will say now, because you're the fucking best community on the Internet and I'd never want to lose you u.u <3