Been incredibly depressed. Been seeking someone who just connects with. Not even a relationship thing, I'm already married. But the problem is, he doesn't truly "get" me... And it's all starting to stack and stack and stack. And I'd love to just be in the arms of someone who truly understands me, who fully gets me, who can speak to my soul when they say, "It'll be okay", and I will believe it.

That disappeared from my life rather violently several years ago... It still bothers me... I can't get it out of my head, those last words....

Sometimes I just feel old. I'm not that old, but I feel it. My body just wants me to lay down one final time. As if it has had enough.

I dunno... Maybe my ex had the right idea...