After a very relaxing past couple days, and strangely... Feeling loved and appreciated for the first time in what seems like forever by my wonderful pack I call my family now, I've recovered from the depression...

I've kinda of come to terms with the fact that I need to finally let things go. Otherwise, it hinders my own growth as a person... The event that dramatically changed my life, for better or worse, is almost 6 years ago on the 21st and... Well... It was 6 years ago... I need to come to terms with it, I need to face the reality of it, and I need to move on. I can't keep allowing this cloud to loom over my head, filling me with the burden of guilt... I need to let go... I need to let HIM go...

I still miss him. I still remember how he smelled, I still remember every word, every sigh, every gasp. His feel. But he's no longer here. And there isn't any getting him back... His decision was his to make... I still get depressed... I still get angry with him... But I need to move on, suffering is caused when someone holds onto their pain. I need to stop suffering...

My pack helped me through this recent wave, one especially in particular. And if you read this, you know who you are. Thank you. Thank you to all of you. You all have shown me the type of people you truly are, and I just want you to know how much I appreciate it, and how honored I am to be considered part of your pack.