cw: ed talk, depression talk, relapsing

Hey guys, a bit of a follow up to my last post, but more of a solid stance.

I need to take a break from trying to draw. I've recently relapsed, my eating disorder has been
hitting me once again at full force. I've had so much brain fog and I haven't thought about
anything but how to lose weight and obsessing over all that.

It's also hitting fall, which always starts to remind me of the Holidays which just get me... depressed.
I miss my childhood a lot, especially how special the holidays were to my family. Since I've grown up,
and since I'm trans it's not really a thing I can do anymore. So whenever this time hits it just gets harder.

Seasonal depression I guess? I don't know.

But I'm going to try and tell myself I don't have to draw, that if I do that's great but I need to stop
stressing about trying to post things all the time.

I'm probably only posting this because of brain fog, so I'll probably delete it soon.

Have a good one guys, sorry I've been complaining so much recently.