I think the best thing about not having a general following is you don't have expectations to meet. Everything's a surprise, but at the same time, no one's anticipating anything. That's neither here nor there though.

Still working on my meds. It's stop-and-go, and my faith keeps getting lost and restored in waves, but I'm on the right track, even if things are moving at a snail's pace. I told myself this would be a year of progress, and progress has been made. I'm closer to my goal than I have been in years!
... or was 2020 supposed to be the year of progress? I can't tell anymore. Both years kind of blur together.

In the meantime, I think I'm gonna get a new PC. My Dell Inspiron 7567 has served me admirably for the last 4 years, but the longer I use it, the more aware I am of its limitations and my lack of understanding of how to maintain a laptop. Monster Hunter World was a great game, but I could never play it for long periods of time because my CPU's power output was just shy of what was needed. Cyberpunk 2077 was also fun while the story lasted, but I had to really futz with the graphics settings. Every instance of steam/smoke came out as massive rectangles. It was terrible! For Honor is great fun, but the second someone throws an attack, I lose frames unless I'm playing at the lowest possible quality. I'd need a display with better refresh rate for that. I've also dipped my toe into making 3DX which is neither here nor there, but I'd need a better pc if I want to actually make something worth sharing. There's also the glaring fact that I'm slowly running out of storage space because all the guitars I used to make Anzu's Traders take up a shitload of space, and I don't feel like getting rid of them, as I have every intention of using them again.

As a result of this decision, I predict my commissioning will dry up for a little while, but from my perspective, I see this as a win-win. I'll be taking the time spent saving for this PC to plan out some decent art pieces. I'm actually in the process of refining my characters' personalities in anticipation for the stories I want to write, and I'd like for my pictures to reflect that a little more than they have. I've racked my brain on what to add and subtract about my characters, but have been rather afraid of making any large changes that drastically alter the aesthetic that drew me to their conception. I guess it takes personal change as well as conceptual change to a character.

ANYWAYS, I'm gonna get a PC, and I'll be siphoning my furry coomer budget to fund it.

Take care, everyone!