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4 years ago
Art may be slowing down soon.
I have to admit I'm struggling. With ADHD and my disconnection from life and avoiding public life other than work, I thought I could spend more time with art and finally learning how and what I want to do.
But I feel like over the past few months I had a giant improvement spike but now I feel like it's falling down, and here's why:
I can't use any poses I like or see without practically copying the lines to proportional length, so I use CSPs 3D models for posing, in the end I'm basically retracing the model but with large or thinner lines depending on the body shape that the model CAN'T produce. I can use a model and painstakingly pose it for hours but never create a proper drawing from it without just basically using it's outline. Every artist starts with shapes and lines connecting, and then the body outlines. I'm trapped on step one, the simple shapes, angles, and sizing.
I compare myself from my issues with jealousy and envy, I can't just drop the feelings.
Angles and proportions...I can watch (or try to with my poor attention span and learning abilities) EVERY tutorial video on youtube, but I can never grasp the concept of how to or where to place parts of a characters faces for example facing forward, and then turning that face 30 degrees right and tilting the head. I can grasp the concept with a cube, but not a face unless I can rotate one infront of me.
Lastly I'm inconsistent. I want my characters to be perfect. But I keep changing them. Nothing is perfect, yes I know, but when I took my 6'2"muscle cat with yellow hair and turned her into a 5'2" white haired princess, I feel like I made the right and wrong choice. I want to world build, I want to give them life and a story, not just still images of events or short actions.
Again, I hate comparing myself, but I use Fluff-Kevlar as a HUGE inspiration for my world setting, but also for my art. Not that I want to be his EXACT style but more so be able to convey my art in the same...tone??? Like, I want my art to feel as dynamic as his does, but nothing as extravagant as a gigantic painting with thousands of hours in minor details.
To all of you who have favorited and watched me so far here and on twitter, Thank you so f*cking much! <3 I want to tear up when I see a new person each time.
and I'm sorry for this rant. I was working on (or said I would) a request for another user but I'm having the troubles stated above with starting.
I have to admit I'm struggling. With ADHD and my disconnection from life and avoiding public life other than work, I thought I could spend more time with art and finally learning how and what I want to do.
But I feel like over the past few months I had a giant improvement spike but now I feel like it's falling down, and here's why:
I can't use any poses I like or see without practically copying the lines to proportional length, so I use CSPs 3D models for posing, in the end I'm basically retracing the model but with large or thinner lines depending on the body shape that the model CAN'T produce. I can use a model and painstakingly pose it for hours but never create a proper drawing from it without just basically using it's outline. Every artist starts with shapes and lines connecting, and then the body outlines. I'm trapped on step one, the simple shapes, angles, and sizing.
I compare myself from my issues with jealousy and envy, I can't just drop the feelings.
Angles and proportions...I can watch (or try to with my poor attention span and learning abilities) EVERY tutorial video on youtube, but I can never grasp the concept of how to or where to place parts of a characters faces for example facing forward, and then turning that face 30 degrees right and tilting the head. I can grasp the concept with a cube, but not a face unless I can rotate one infront of me.
Lastly I'm inconsistent. I want my characters to be perfect. But I keep changing them. Nothing is perfect, yes I know, but when I took my 6'2"muscle cat with yellow hair and turned her into a 5'2" white haired princess, I feel like I made the right and wrong choice. I want to world build, I want to give them life and a story, not just still images of events or short actions.
Again, I hate comparing myself, but I use Fluff-Kevlar as a HUGE inspiration for my world setting, but also for my art. Not that I want to be his EXACT style but more so be able to convey my art in the same...tone??? Like, I want my art to feel as dynamic as his does, but nothing as extravagant as a gigantic painting with thousands of hours in minor details.
To all of you who have favorited and watched me so far here and on twitter, Thank you so f*cking much! <3 I want to tear up when I see a new person each time.
and I'm sorry for this rant. I was working on (or said I would) a request for another user but I'm having the troubles stated above with starting.
I'm doing what I can as I progress, I guess the one thing I had forgotten is that my only fear while learning from others is that I'll end up copying and I want to stray far from looking like a traced or stolen idea. References are necessary while learning, I just lack the ability to "shift" them I suppose or change from imagination.
But again, thank you <3