Today I went to the viewing/church gathering thing I'm not sure what its called but basically its a special hour of church dedicated to the person who has passed and such. Which the priest went off on some questionable tangents but overall went well.

After that we went back to his parents house where we all had lunch and shared memories and talked for about 4 hours.

While I didn't like her I learned from his mom that his girlfriend had gone on the ventilator as well and had passed as well today. So I hope her family does well as while I found her to be a in my opinion terrible person I felt for her family and hoped they would be ok.

I'm still in a mode in my head where I feel fuzzy and like things aren't processing all the way as once I saw his urn it finally set in and while I'm holding it together it's pretty tough still.

But ya as of today I've said goodbye to my friend I've known for about 17 years since middle school if im counting right and still find it hard to believe I wont see him again as he was my closest friend who accepted many things about me and shared many of his thoughts and experiences with me. I doubt I'll ever replace him but I'm glad to have known him.