Yea, sorry for the inactivity, but I am a little busy with College these days!

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13343958/

Yes the Luna one I linked. She's actually a part of a legend I heard from a very special friend a while ago, when I fell very sad.

Her name is Luna, according to a legend, She protected Earth when it was still young, sent by who else than your God. But in her loneliness, she prayed for lunar flowers, and spawned the first wolves. That is the reason wolves howl at the full moon: In honor of their mother, Luna.

Well, That was a huge rant wasnt it? It might not be the correct answer to the emotion Im having. I think I went as far as to insult a god others worship.

I'll survive... Not a big thing, really. Got used to it.

Heartbeat. Around me, darkness. Inside me, disbelief. I hear footsteps from the room beyond. And it turns into ghostly moaning, which echoes through my mind. I feel a certain Makuta breathing darkness into me, as suddenly, painful screaming fills the room, disturbing, deformed, creepy faces stare at me from the corners of the room that light cannot touch, ready to hunt me down. The screaming doesnt stop, it keeps on, becoming filled with more pain, as if someone' s guts are being pulled off. Suddenly, i feel the pain. Undescribable, heavy, and outright horrible. I notice blood on the phone I hang onto; Its mine. My head is being covered in blood as the creepy faces, getting closer and closer, keep looking at my eyes. My blood flows unexplainably. And I feel myself cold. Its cold. Im in pain, bleeding. And suddenly, they jump at me. My heart beats as if I had a heart attack, but suddenly, I find myself gored in a dark limbo, in a fetal position. My organs spread through my belky in front of me, as I hear a demonic voice. The makuta hss spoken. I listened. And I... saw dead bodies, people ai know. My loved ones. My crushes. My friends. And myself. All ripped apart, in a nightmarish scene, as the Makuta Spoke. I knew, Im no longer who I used to be. I began to laugh maniacly, as my eyes turned black with red iris, floating in blood tears. I became insane... Laughted and shrieked, as the darkness revealed everyone precious to me, dead. My body became different. It was bloody. Scarred like my heart and mind. And suddenly, I jumped, roaring!

Today, I bought a little croissant. But it wasnt a normal buy, and I sure will not risk any more stuck snacks from such vending machines with springs...

Because IT WAS STUCK! I called for the person responsible for that vending machine. He told me he'll be out in 1 and a half hour, and they will call me... Well I had to go to class anyways, I was kinda late because of this incident...

When I return, the stuck product was not there. I fell into a panic and called the number again, who told me "They possibly took the opportunity". They told me they will arrive. In my panic tho, after the call, I felt like I began to cry or start a rampage, gladly neither happened.

another class had to pass when the person arrived. And we settled it fine, I got another Croissant, and I found out the person I was talking to in the phone wasnt a woman, but a man! While I was calling him, I heard a woman's voice, but it was just high pitched... Well, I dont know, but God either shows his middle finger to me suddenly, or he's just trolling the crap out of me. I feel like a bipolar, because I constantly change emotion now over this... I laugh, feel guilty, laugh, get mad that I am trolled at by a deity that is not comfirmed to exist, laugh at myself, I feel sad, I laugh, I.... I dont know if my body wants to shutup anytime soon XD

Well, seeing how quickly my latest art received 8 faves in a short timespan, I decided that I will usually use SL to take screenshots I can trace to make something that looks better than what I suffer for with free hand. It seems like I should start trying right away.



In case you dont see the art I'm talking about, its porn, so either turn nsfw on or dont even try to find it.

that I totally hear something really different from myself than what I actually say... Or is it just some people being retarded IRL to understand what I say?

I feel like I am bothering some people I used to consider my friends. Why is that?

UPDATE: Yes, I am aware of when I intentionally bother people!
But sometimes, it really is not my intention, especially towards someone I consider a friend.

Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
I'have 5 fingers,
The middle is yours.


HUNGARIAN EDISÖN!!!
a rózsa piros,
az ibolya kék,
5 ujjam van,
s a középső a tiéd!


I forbid you from being offended, this JOURNAL is rigorously made for humorous, JOKING purposes.

So, as you may see, I came to the decision in the title. Reason: I have few males in my character palette, but I plan many, many of them. There are plenty of ladies in the island, so is Vuk, Dary, Lambada and Rasputin enough for them to play with? Nah, I know this is a pansexual island, but then again, theres not enough to play with in one side, and another has plenty of it. In this case, the girls can play with each other plenty, but miss the boys. So here is my wishlist:
-Vuk Tempest (DOne)
- Martin (Planned)
- Rick Fang (PLanned)
- Dary Cool (Done)
- Lambada (Done)
- Dr Beat (Planned)
- Jerome (You just met him)
- Smith (planned)
- Garth, Captain of the Guard (Planned)
- Tony, his father (Planned)
- Winston (planned, lol Alpha & Omega reference?)
- Bogey
- Gary
- James Veyron (Planned)
- Unnamed Rabbit
- Unnamed Kangaroo
- Unnamed Snow Leopard
- Unnamed Bat
- Unnamed Bull
- Kenji the red panda (PLanned)
- Bullet the Deer (Planned)
- Dr Schnabel -bear/wolf mix (Planned)
- an unnamed dragon
- Todd (Planned)
- Cooper (Planned)
- Peter the dalmatian (Planned)
- An AKita Nui (Big Akita)
- An Akita Inu
- A male poodle
- A pony
- An alpaca
- A lizard
- A snake
- Suggestions accepted, but no requests please.

,,, Because of whatever... I hear different reasons, but mostly the person of a new programmer in FA (Zaush) seems to be the focus... I would ask "did I miss something" but you know, I don't really care. Seriously, I wont leave FA for any reason like that. And how many times does "Leaving FA" journals happen? Since 2010, the year I joined FA, I saw this stuff multiple times, and still not giving a shit. FA is not the only place rapist can get away with their stuff, for one, and two, sometimes, the rapist claim is a bad prank to ruin one's life pretending to be "raped", and 3, I really do not see any of this as a reason to leave FA.

I wont take sides, as I never really did, and I wont ever. I do not know Zaush personally, but whatever Drama surrounds him, will not be a reason for me to leave FA.

I hate it when people threaten to leave FA then come back... I dont know why the rape subject even annoys me, but I really do not care that much to leave FA. It just wont make any difference.

Shadow flu, a fictional disease made up by me! listen closely, because this is an important story element!

Shadow flu is a unique disease, and also a very severe one. Its caused by a fully inorganic gas of mysterious nature, wich is black, cold, and smells unique! Its produced by a strange black flower that instead of enjoying light, warm and clean air, blooms on dark, cold and quite polluted spots, and is hard to get rid of due to the disease itself. The gas dissolves when contacting oxigen, keeping it from spreading further. Upon contact, by breathing it, the victim will begin to feel the symptom in 1-5 days depending on individual. The first stage of shadow flu involves weakness of the muscles: after few steps the victim collapses fully tired and sore. It will seem to be just muscular fever caused by hard working of said muscles. The faint tought is possibly stress to the victim. 3 days later, fever, sneezing and coughing, sore throat, headache, Dizzy feeling, runny nose render the victim bed-stuck. It is recommended to contact a doctor inmediatelly. In 2 days, additional symptoms occur: vomit, nausea, diarrhea, and muscle weakness make the disease worse. Normaly these cause a slight stress on a victim of common flu, but shadow flu comes with a slowly growing occurence of neurogicism wich confirm the presence of shadow flu toxication. Hallucinations, both auditory and visual, occur with time. Victims studied report hearing voices in the day following the neurotic symptom's first appearance. Later these victims claimed strange figures visiting them, talking to them, wich occured to the observers as some kind if imaginary "friend" type of hallucination. As these hallucinations grow from simple to agressive, victims are seen panicing, yelling at something that is not there. Often "leave me a alone" and "Help im being kidnapped" is heard from victims. If the disease remains untreated, the disease will cause the victims to go into an animalisticly agressive state where they begin to pose a threat to anyone that dares to go nearby. They seem to have lost control over their bodies, and also became unable to communicate. This is the final known stage of the disease. After that most people were killed, commited suicide, went missing, or were cured earlier, tho in some cases the victim was able to revert to its original state, but it is rare and took very long to occur. Majirity of the cases also sport black pox spots on them from the third stage on, but early stages may produce some kind of green substance in spots too. Some people produce additional symptoms, not to be mentioned.

Shadow flu is quite a disease that comes from an alien source. Some claim that the final stage is related to the most evil person in a specifical radius. A hivemind status is developed every time that renders the victim to be "makuta's puppet" in a matoranic sense. The shadow flu may posdibly be related to the shadows more than it having very much black to it.

I hope you enjoyed my tale! Be sure not to catch cold and get hallucionate: who knows what creeps your mind may create to terrorize you.

The idea of shadow flu dates back to the mid 2000's or around it. I was inspired by the zerg hyper-evolution virus and later by Mata-Nui online. Now I shared it and wow, I love it! What do ya think?

Note: I discovered a similar disease in SCP containment breach called scp-008. I never heard about it when Shadow Flu began developmebt, but i count it as an inspiration. Both diseases share fever and related symptoms, and both end up in the victim being hostile (scp: zombie; Shadow flu: ???) and each are encountered as gasses.

And here we are! 2014, the 5th year om the 2010's. And still the begining.
Last year, promises were made, that did not make it. My brother announced 2013 will be a baby year, ironically, he ended up divorcing before any baby could be made. MY granny died last year, and even tho I am glad her madness no longer infects us, Its still a tragedy inevitable in every family. My porning was once again criticized -and art destroyed- by those whose mind remain dark...
But What matters is that I rose again! And not only I became surprisingly productive, but I also had a grand christmas, and found new things like every year. While 2013 gave less for me to be optimistic... OR wait, to be positive, I dont know... I say it has worth it! The entire year was, to be honest, about to learn. Learn more important things than you can hear in school or in discovery channel! I learned some things about wisdom. Wisdom I so far neglected, and hope I so far didnt care to have! Respect I lacked -yea autism makes me hard to be calm- and logic I never imagined exists. I cried very much, endured deep mental and spiritual damage, so I can say "HEY! This has a lesson for me!"!

And that lesson only empowers my faith that the path I want to take is right! The path I care for, I want to be, I am!

On Yiffmas, I had the positive feelings rule over me and with it, I made some people happy. I saw smiles!

And reading other's stories, I am delightful that people, like  skailla who I nearly lost last year, really dont even mention if anything bad happened to them. That they only have good things to share -unlike me-, and they shared it with an ever-living smile.

I learned that life is not a romantic tale. I knew it already, but I did not understand what it really means. And what it means, my friends, is the message of optimism! That no matter how much hell your life is like, you are to be glad for the things you have, you are to hope without conditions, and last but not least: Make life your bitch! You are worth nothing of whatever you want if you sit in a chair and cry all day over how people hurt you, or neglect you, or annoy you, or how things just dont go as planned... Life's not a romantic tale! Life is life, and its full of obstacles! Obstacles everyone MUST fight alone! You are human, and better than that: You are a life form, one of the many sentinent species with so many unique features your fellow sentinent species dont have! You meet a problem, you solve it!

It truly saddens me that some people just dont get the message, even if you try to tell them, but meh, their death, their idiocy!

Happy New Year to all of you and be always positive! Solve your problems! Because complaining will lead you to no more than sympathy that solves nothing! SOLVE YOUR PROBLEMS! And Stay Happy!

Yes yes, I wish you all a Murry Christmas and happy new year everyone! May all of you live a blessed 2014 under the light of Unity, Duty and Destiny!

I could tell a tale of how my fictional Island does turn the winter into a festival!

So true to my previous journal, I am about to share my dream. That is to have a paradise where I am surrounded with women I can freely love and fuck, herm and men are no problem too. Just let it have some hole. Once I'll make it real. and I'll keep it real. I will fail, as I failed so far. But that wont keep me away from my dream. Other's may say I'm running away from reality, but then, who are they? They give up after one or two failures. They keeo complaining. And blame me for my "curses" But you know what? UP THEIRS. I have a delusion of grandeur to make real! And keep real!

And so do you, dear reader. Dont ever think about giving up your dreams. Dont ever give up your delusions of grandeur. Because that's you. Wether others like it or not, you are going to make it real. And keep it real. Wether they like it or not. You only have to believe in yourself. And that, my friend, is not impossible. You may be failin' sometimes... But failure is a step to success. And trust me: Wether you want a harem, make your own company of animation, build the highest tower, make your own church, or even more, change the world, go for it! Sure, you will fail at first. But life is just like that: No success is deserved without failure. And that, my friend, is what you are to keep in mind. I'll get my harem, full of slutty girls, you'll get whatever you desire. And both of us walk on a road that is doomed to failure at some points, and all these failures will prove to be your checkpoints when you later find out that Success is your destiny.

Because in your road, you will meet enemies, ones that want to turn you back from it. For me, its mom. She wants me to be an all moral person, what is still an illusion... and stays that way. But that makes her my enemy I replaced for my fursona with a more supportive slut. And who is it for you? Are they any powerful? I dont think so. And you wont after you suceed. I'll get my harem, lots of girls to love and fuck most importantly. You will get your dream job, or dream come true in general.

And there is no NORM to keep us away from them. Now go! Fail many times, and then, make your dreams real! Keep your dream real! And fuck everyone else who are "Trying to help you" by stopping you from it! Delusions of grandeur exist so you can make them the fuck real!

A pessimist sees the dark in the tunnel, an optimist sees a light at the end of the tunnel. A realist sees the light comes from a train, and there’s a fourth who says ‘I don’t care what happens, I just want to go forward in this damn tunnel and see what’s on the end of it’, giving no care to the oncoming train.

Lately I have seen many "lovebirds" telling people that "sooner or later, they will find their right one" or what, and personally, I do not agree with it. To me, its a pessimistic vision, telling me that "GO LOOK FOR YOUR SLAVER AND MEET YOUR BROTHER'S AND FATHERS FATE, WHICH IS DREADED ENSLAVEMENT AND DIVORCE".
But I don't think I'll stay virgin tho, or that I will die a virgin. Now am I optimistic or pessimistic?

You know what? Neither. nor am I a realist I guess. I don't follow any ideals, nor keep myself in fear all day and night. I am a guy who follows his urges. And my urge is for fun.

And sex wise, fun is enough motivation. Fun is what really brings people together, feeding good emotions. Sadly, in history, a NORM has ruined fun. It developed marriage, and other shit, to the point it became even less fun! Also, this is how marriage ended up to be:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BoXQ.....9A&index=6
But not only men Marry in pain. Some women too are growing to avoid serious relationships. Which makes me happy too.

Also, A fancy number of this shall be considered!
ronnyeo.wordpress.com/2008/02/16/love-is-an-illusion

So no matter how you tell me about "life is not about sex" I'll say "Yours maybe not, mine is about it, also cars, fun, and more fun, and I'll find my job accordingly!" I'll be me, whether others like it or not, or whether others find it harmful to myself and my partners in crime or not, I will do what I enjoy! Period!

I am different. I am neither Optimistic, or pessimistic. Nor would I say I was Realist. I just dont care. ALl I care is to make my life as enjoyable as possible, without following the rules of norm, the rules of bible, or any rules keeping me from my sexual polygamy.

Okay, so I played Mata Nui Online, and HTH Versions lately and I am thinking about making my own game, not only to honor MNO wich is a PG game for kids, but also to take part in the bandwagon started with 2 games, one of them being High Tail Hall itself.

So how I imagine this, the player would start their journey on a paradise island on a beach where they are given the oportunity to explore most of the island, and enjoy some girls. But to expand the experience, the player will need to do certain tasks and solve puzzles, opening their way to other, more restricted areas.
During their adventures, the player pretty much solves mysteries and collects stuff, deliver items for people around the island in order to win the heart of some ladies. A tradeswoman will ask you to deliver a product a random islander ordered, which could result in two sex at once, if the player manages to complete their task.

so quiet and free
laying under a tree
so dark and light
so I can love the night
so clean and pure
for so many diseases the cure
so traditional yet modern
for adventures will go western!

That if you have a insane religiousy extremist group to talk about, do not adress them by name, nor by anything that they associate with very well, if you know the given webpage has lots of them, and also has your mother in it, my RL mother in thiy case -not Julliette-

Now I was threatened to be undressed of the internet because I was commenting about them, and while I agree that I used inapporiate words, the father in said post TRULY had the same relationship with anything sexual, including custom haircuts of woman pussy fur, as said group HATES anything sexual to the point of taking extreme, controversial action, wich isnt necesarily killing, but as my mother, in her neurotic ways, did earlier this year, MADE ME DESTROY MY OWN DRAWINGS, because of nudity and sex, wich fuels my fucking hatred towards said group, because it is them who see temptation in everything, and see sexual freedom an inapporiate thing that they would illegalize.

My mother hopes to have taught me to forget that damn group, BUT SHE KEEPS PREACHING AND PREACHING INTO THE CURSED PHONE, fueling my emotions towards the group further with actually nonsense info, like telling my sister she's making her cat a god, or my little sister should not roam with worldly kids who she thinks are going to tempt her to sins and shit.... THEY ARE HER VERY OWN CLASSMATES, WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM MARGARET?

I have no reason to forget them because I'm surrounded by them! SHE MAKES ME HEAR EVERYTHING, literally EVERYTHING she told to her other children and 50% of that STUFF IS ABOUT THAT GROUP and its FAITH-BELIEF-Things!!! 80% are utter bullshit, the rest are conservative morals a MODERN PERSON has nothing to do, and I mean, NOTHING to do!!!

And let me see how hateful I am towards them, contrary to the hate I made towards the world BEFORE 2010.... Well, SHE complains about catholics, judges buddhists, criticizes other people's lives, and now she told me SHE divorced my father so she can live outside hatred... MY ASS, SHE IS MORE FULL OF FREAKING HATRED THAN I AM! ABOUT SHIT THAT IS NOT HER FUCKING BUSINESS? And some people wonder why I made Julliette the way she is? BECAUSE I WANT A MOTHER THAT ISNT A HYPOCRITE LIKE MY RL ONE!!!! Seriously, this is bullshit, I have to get out of here, and theres still NOT A FREAKING WAY out of here, why? I was so hoping that she would release me one day as she told that woman in the train... Since then all I hear about my future is how SHE's going to take care of me, how I will live in a little house IN HER YARD....

So is there a way to forget the group? Lets see:
- Cant stay, I have to listen to all preachings she does about any non-groupie kids that happen to be my little sister's CLASSMATES, that keeping a pet and loving it EQUALS pagan style IDOLIZATION, and ALL crap that I cannot even CONFIRM!!! I also had the mistake to once JOIN that group and I HAD TO KEEP MYSELF SHUT, AFRAID TO SAY I'M NOT GOING ANYMORE!!!
- Cant go anywhere, and that would be my best way to forget that FREAKING GROUP, to be as far away from them as possible! And as it seems, I AM CHAINED HERE!!! seriously, was that even needed?

And if my "autism" is really going downwards: Thats because I AM OVERBURDENED AND FUCKING DRIVEN NUTS BY HAVING TO LISTEN TO HER PREACHINGS AND SHIT!!!! And also, every time she comes to me to drama over PORN AND SEX AND SHIT, wich happened MORE TIMES... First, she made me into drama over the fucking masturbation, then she threatened to take the net away because of my love for PORN, then this year, the FUCKING DRAWINGS I MADE, WERE THE REASON THAT MY NEUROTIC RL MOTHER WAS BITCHING ME TO DESTROY MY BELOVED PORN DRAWINGS.
And she wonders why I am neurotic and frustrated, or as she says: AUTISTIC? ITS HER! HER FAULT! My hatred towards the group is nothing but the symptom of what SHE YELLS AT ME!!!

To me!!!!! Lets celebrate this and Julliete's creation with something. Now You all get a drawing together if all goes as planned. A zombie RAven with big tits!!

1 years after my surgery. You know, I was been operated with my penis, because of phimosis. One years and all is fine, except one thing. A part of my cock still hates being rubbed, and I feel like my cock is too dry. Is full recovery so long?

EDIT: Also, is it normal for a cock to not to be able to blend between my legs when hard?