So i never gotten wrote up at work but tonight i was written up because my drawer was $30.00 short thanks to a woman coig in paying with a $100.00 and i had to immediatly drop the $100.00 and i feel that is the reason why it was short the manager which gets high every night and when he gets high he is about as dumb as a fucking idiot bashing his head against a wall. he wants to blame me saying i paid out to uch when no i didnt i fucking counted the money and gave exact cash back to everybody that i had to give cash back to on every order.

I don't know what else to say but the manager used my drawer when i was on break aswell and so i feel he fucked me over.


I never done anything wrong ever at this job and then today before that manager goes on a week long vacatio this happens.......

So i can't seem to get another job here so i am stuck with working for wendy's tonight was bs i had to clean up the sandwich stations stuff, which left me behind on the grill clean up, then i had to do the dishes too it's basically every night i work i am so drained, stressed, and to the point of wanting to hit my head on the wall...... I need another job one that pays better then $8.20/hr ugh i don't even make enough for 2 weeks to pay my bills or food.....

Just seems like i aint good enough for people why i keep getting rejected i am just me and nobody is perfect but god tonight i really wish i had somebody to talk to, cuddle, or even lean against and just talk till i relaxed and fell asleep... every night i wish for this.

This is just for my own self to keep track of what i want in life.

Girlfriend
Family
Home to myself
Better paying job
Fix my truck up
Lose weight
Not to be alone through life

I don't know i am bored i love birthdays but one thing i wish i had for my birthday was a party and friends to party with me i never had a actually birthday party just always been cake and then bam that's it xD anyways i just turned 26 so yeah and now to sleep it's 12:54am just got home from work tired now xD

So who's gonna spend 4th of july with me?

Gifts:
I just want hugs that's it i don't want nothing else just hugs.

I don't want anything never had a party since well i was 4 years old last party i can remember, i got the day i asked off for which is july 4th off from work so i am just i guess gonna chill at home doing nothing idk. anybody is welcome to chill with me though i got skype or anything else.

So my paycheck was cut badly this week and i have bills to pay so i am selling my characters if you are interested please buy or spread the word.

Kiera $15.00: http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/.....r/163958/Kiera


Brian $35.00 (because my oldest sona and paid alot for his art) http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/.....er/64455/Brian

I need help please my paypal is aagreen142[at]live.com

Seems i am just a thing, a peice of trash that peope can get over on, an atm people can get money from, am i nothing to anybody nothing but a thing it seems. even at work even around my family and even around others here i got no friends all people seem to care about is money, looks, and not about who you are. i am so tired of this i don't want to feel like a nobody i want to feel happy, loved, cared for, i want to feel like i am a person and not a thing anymore.........

So i been trying to comfort my aunt and basically be there for her since he's the only family she has left she isn't my aunt yet but i consider her already but her brother is in the hospital still been about a week and a half now. he had a major heart attack while at a baseball park and when he was rushed to the hospital they found out he has a infection near his heart. my aunt is basically tore up and she works at same place i work and well i have to keep telling the managers the update on him and her. i feel like i am stuck in the middle of her staying with wendy's or them wanting to fire her idk but she hasn't worked for a week now and gonna be another week aswell. i haven't slept because everyday she is calling me wanting a shoulder or ear and so i been taking the time i need to seep to talk to her before i go to work every night.



I need sleep so badly i only sleep about 1 and a half hours each night.

Well here is a list of things i wish for

1) love for once in my life
2) Friends i can talk to not just on FA for i feel to many on here doesn't even care and just like seeing art not the true person.
3) to be able to be more then what i am now :(
4) to be able to go to a con for once in my life.
5) to get more art for art does make me happy about only thing that makes me happy now.
6) to be able to have money to spend and not have to waste all my paycheck on my truck to fix it or things i need.

I liked a girl irl and well we was friends or thought we was but she said we could be friends and hangout then for a week and a half never says a word to me..... i am so done with fucking trying to get a girl i am done with trying to find love all i ever find is heartache and people that don't care and just want to use others. for once in my life i want love that is all i ever wanted.

So Is trying to sell there character and needing money if you can please spread the word or even buy trying to sell her to a good home. https://www.thedealersden.com/listi.....foo-dog/126312

So i went in on monday at 5:00pm est when i was suppose to start and first thing i get is the general manager wanting to talk to me. i work for wendy's and the general manager there is rude, disrespectful, doesn't know how to do her job, has no social skills at all and blames one person for everything (me).

So she said to me why was there meat thrown away and i told her i accidently dropped it on the floor and i wasn't gonna wash it off, she said to me as if not listeing to me that there is 1lb of meat missing every week which leads to a box of meat which costs $80.00 a month. i'm like yeah and i aint the only one doing the grill also so don't blame me for something i never done. Well she starts telling all the managers and i believe she thinks i am stealing and the other managers knows every night i work i chop that meat for chili meat and always put it in the fridge for the chili the next day. Well so my day was terrible i went the whole day not talking to anybody then the manager questioned me if i was ok knowing that he was talked to about me by the general manager. I started to tear up because i never done anything like that and the general manager blames me for it when i do everything i stock, i clean the grill, cook on the grill, clean the filters, coordinate when needed, even make sandwhiches aswell. I wanted to walk out today but i couldn't just leave the others there to deal with the rush so i stayed because of the others not for the general manager. on top of that one person before we even closed walked out and never came back.

I feel as if i am a worthless peice of shit that people seem to just blame everything on and think can get away with it. and also the general manager mentioned something about stealing and i was like all i take is water or sweet tea and drink as prior to what she told us we can have that is it. i never take anything else and it is tearing me up with so much stress right now.

So i am struggling and been struggling for 2 years but this has been worse on me. i hate making one of these but i had no other choice but to make one. please if anybody can share the link here and help me :(

https://www.gofundme.com/to-fix-my-.....-buy-a-new-one

I don't know if i feel love or not and when i fall for a girl i really like irl idk if she really likes me back. we work at the same place but different stores and the fact she will want me to come see her at her store on my off days but she says she'll come down and see me when she's off but never shows up. been 3 times she told me she'd come down and all three times she never came down :( it is getting to the point of why waist my life trying to find love when it seems i can't get love no matter what i do for somebody.

So i been off and on alot because i got a job at wendy's and been training for it alot this past week and also this week too. you know what that means? i can buy more art xD

Ok so i want to do things for others more and i want t be a better person and get out there and reach out to more. i use to do music videos on youtube haven't done them in awhile but i wanna get back into doing them again. i need feedback should i do them and if i did what should i change in some videos i done? https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCK.....LKIf58-unxiIzw

All single ladies are included in this, regardless of physical gender, and you may answer as your female characters as well:

What do you find attractive?
What is your favorite fantasy?
What would you consider your most daring fantasy?
Are you a fan of bondage?
Do you own any toys of unspeakable nature?
What is your opinion on rough play?
Have you ever done things in public?
Have you ever been caught doing said things?
What is your idea of a romantic time out?
Do you kiss on the first date?
Do you ever see an attractive guy and imagine what he would look like without clothes on?
Do you make animal noises while engaged in hankypanky?
Do you prefer human, canine, equine, dragon, or some other type of male anatomy?
When is the last time you got laid?
Did you enjoy it?
Was he good?
Do you think I would be better?
What is your opinion on oral?
Do you often engage in the sex of the cyber?
If so, how often?
Do you have regular partners?
Are they good?
Do they satisfy your needs?
Are you currently on the market?
Would you consider yourself dominant in the bedroom?
Do you find any of my characters attractive?

And lastly:

If I did a "Win a Night" would you be interested?

[14:21] Brian Dianthus: Well it's from when i was little back to basically 1st grade and all the way till i dropped out. I was bullied and nobody even cared, i asked teachers, my parents, and even the bus drivers i have had if they could stop it to change it. Nothing ever happened. Well i ended up dropping out because if i handled the bullying to much more i was just gonna flat out kill myself. I tried it when i was in middle school. I stayed to myself i stayed alone everywhere i went and even to this day irl i still stay to myself.
[14:22] Brian Dianthus: I have no friends irl i have nobody i can talk to i got my family and that is it
[14:23] Brian Dianthus: I've held in so much anger so much hate and so much pain that i am tired of seeing others bullied or taken advantage over. I try to help others i try to not be somebody people can just run over anymore. That is why i am an asshole most of the time now.
[14:23] unknown person pats your back
[14:23] unknown person: i'm your friend? :D
[14:23] Brian Dianthus: I try to do good things only to be stabbed i the back for doing them, you aren't here irl but online you are a friend
[14:24] unknown person: well, regardless. a friend is a friend, better than having virtually having zero
[14:25] Brian Dianthus: to me i don't know more virtual friends keep stabbing me in the back then friends i don't have irl does



That is all you should know it was a message from me to somebody on Second life and i am not putting out there name so i put unknown person in place of there name. This is the cause of why i am the person that i am today.

Ok so some of yall know me, some of yall think i am a fagoot or retard or etc. whatever yall call me is just words. i am tired of being bullied i been bullied my whole life to the point i tried committing suicide 2 times in my life. I want to be happy i want to live a life ful of smiles, no pain, no hurt, and no name callings. I never once done something to a person that caused them to hate me or call me names, I never do anything at all except mind my own business.

I am a loner i stay to myself and to myself is where i feel most comfortable. If i talk to you it's because i feel i can trust you to not call me names or bully me. I am tired of being a peice of shit to everybody and tired of not having friends that will help me, be with me, and even care for me. I am tired of not having much suff and i try everyday to have something i try so hard to have a friend i can talk to everyday or even hug i don't have a friend where i live and i am tired of not having somebody to watch movies with. i want to feel loved i want to feel happy i want to feel like i am a person instead of some peice of crap.

Many may un watch me, or bad mouth me for this, or even not want to reply i will understand but i am tired of people not knowing my life.

My life is a living hell and yes i am dealing with alot of stuff to where i can't tell you what it is exactly.

Ok so as some of yall know i use to have a club, mall, and hangout on second life called Furr Galaxy, it was a thriving club till i had issues within the staff that ruined it for me. I am trying to start it back up by getting money to be able to buy land or rent land on second life for it.

I have nothing to give but i am thinking about selling all my characters except kiaku and aaron in order to accomplish this goal for others.
I been so depressed latey and it was the fact i had no place i could be free at anymore or express myself and the only way i expressed myself was through a club and music.

The mission and Goal i had for furr galaxy is as followed

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Introduction

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Hello and welcome to Furr Galaxy. We're an adult sim where you and friends can come and hangout, meet new people, cuddle, and even more within our Modern/sci-fi themed sim. We currently have a mission to shoot for the stars and we need your help in doing just that.
Here you can meet a lovely community of people who are free to express themselves and who they are within our rich diverse community.
We host quite a few activities within our sim. These activities include: a hangout area, a dance-floor/club platform, and a mall where you can sell and buy items.

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Our mission

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Our mission is to reach the stars and into the galaxy. You too can participate in this space race, as every donation and every tip goes to upgrading the technology of our sim. We're a modern civilization looking to improve our technology to reach our many missions into the stars and beyond. We appreciate feedback from our community, and what each person has to say in our development.We do this because we want people who enjoy the sim to have a say in what kind of technology should be upgraded within it. We'd love to hear from active members of the sim and what they have to say and suggest. We want to be a club and group known for helping those on sl and even people period if you are furry, human, or neko.

My personal goal as an owner is to give a place for everybody to relax at, meet people at, have fun at, and just to have a place they can learn how to run a club or work at a club at. I just want to be able to help others and give back to the people what they miss on sl anymore.

Ok so here is a few things i want for christmas but i know wont get any but it's something.

1) to be able to have christmas with my family and not be alone like every other year.
2) to be able to give somebody else a smile for christmas
3) to be able to get just one christmas art of Aaron.
4) To be able to have art together with my friends,
and 5) wish my grandmother was still here :'(

I got a discord chat now for FA members and frieds also don't gotta be members of FA though, https://discord.gg/UXs2wNn

Ok so i have become broke and with me only having the lawn care job during winter is when it falls apart i am thinking of selling some characters but i want to know if there is anybody doing free art at the moment or raffles atleast?

So i got a new laptop and omg i can't see the tiny print but anyways typeing this now xD so i will be on here more often now and this is thanks to my grandmother she got me a laptop to help try and find a job with aswell and for my personal use.