The last several years have had their challenges in their own ways, this year is no exception and probably one of the biggest I’ve had yet.

Starting this spring the workforce from our small mining company will shrink form 13 to 8 possibly even less. Sites are nearing depletion and by the fall the only thing left to do is site rehabilitation. The smaller work force means I will be moving around doing a lot of different positions to keep the company running, so no time for big plans or time off. It’s going to be stressful but we’ll make it work.

The next is a huge change. I’m planning for the future and that means moving to a new company potentially in the fall and into a new career field all together. I’m going to give it a shot since it opens many doors once I’m certified. It may lead to a better work life balance and the ability to travel internationally for work. There are a few catches that come with it but I’m going to give it a shot.

So basically not much will be happening here for the near future since things are tight due to new bills and work the house needs but maybe I’ll do an old art upload here and there.

Thanks for reading - Ace

Its finally happened
I know I’ve been absent more this year than years past but there’s a reason for that. This year has probably been the most stressful and demanding year yet both in work and personal. I really needed to cut back and focus on what mattered the most.

I have been meaning to buy my grandfathers home for years now but covid and other things got in the way and we could never make a deal, seeing as he was wanting to move out if I did that which I didn’t want him to do. He was 91 years old and still self reliant and had a drivers license. Unfortunately he passed away last December due to medical complications that came out of nowhere. The house was left to the estate.

After months of struggling with family and the bank, we managed to settle on a price but getting here wasn’t easy at all. There were so many hoops I had to jump through and things kept coming out of nowhere.

However, Years of giving up things I loved and hard work finally paid off. I had to swallow my pride on being able to pull this off by myself 100% given the situation with the housing market in Canada and the ridiculous prices in Ontario. So finally I accepted what needed to be done and we managed to work things out in the end and I’m infinitely great full for my family and friends who helped me though this and now I’m a home owner.

A big goal In my life has been achieved so now one chapter closes and a new one begins and I already know well I’m in for a ride of challenges but if I’ve learned something about myself in the last 4 years. I somehow find a way to make things work.

While I’m cutting back this year I do have a large amount of art that has never been posted. I’m considering uploading some here and there since things are pretty idle here.

Some of you already know that 2023 has not been off to a good start for me and my family. Some wild stuff has happened already and I’m expecting things to worsen as the work season starts up. This is just a heads up if I seem to lose ambition or don’t feel as talkative. I’ve got a lot to deal with this year.

It’s been a shitty 13 days but it’s over. He’s passed on. Life is going to be hard without his visits or walking into his house and seeing him at the kitchen table. I wish I had more time but a lesson was learned. If you think you don’t have time for family, you make time because you don’t know how much time they have left.

This means a new phase in my life now starts and it’s going to suck. I’ve done things without thinking and now I’ll have to give up a lot to take on new responsibilities and make some goals happen. I thought I had more time but it looks like this transition is going to happen sooner than later. Trying to keep the house and having to find a new line of work in a few years isn’t the best spot to be put in but I’ll try to make it work.

My grandfather is in hospital and probably won’t be around much longer. The surgery he needs may kill him and since he’s 92 it’s a debate wether it’s worth it or not. For 92 he was healthy, indecent and still driving. I didn’t think this would happen yet.
It was bad enough we lost a 20 year old friend in an accident this year. The bad news never seems to end.

*Update*
The surgery will kill him. The doctors are incrementally treating him and keeping him on the machines. Unfortunately the only option now is if he’ll improve on his own. We’re hoping for the best but getting ready for what’s likely coming.

Lately I’ve been under a LOT of stress and burnt out. I’ve been out in an awkward position at work taking from multiple people wanting things done their way. Telling me to tell them when the other changes plans.
Pressing on we’re behind on material racing against the winter freeze up and all hell is braking lose. Machines are breaking, several are out of commission, parts won’t be in on time, plants have been freezing up. I could go on but it’s been a shit show.
To top it off lately I smashed my head at work giving myself a minor concussion and cracking two teeth. Thankfully only one tooth needed repair and work thankfully covered it but still, I don’t need this right now. Especially with everything going on.
Life goals are further away with the ridiculous cost of living ever increasing in this damn country.
On top of that I’m dealing with things at home that are driving me up the wall.
I’ve really just had enough for awhile. So if I don’t seem like my usual self, this is why. I’m writing this because I’m tired of explaining everything to everyone. Not to be rude I just can’t keep bringing myself back into the negative mindset every time I get asked.
Anyways thanks for reading.

I won’t say it but instead I will say I hope this year treats everyone better than the last two.

The tittle says all >.<''

If you are going to reach out for whatever reason. Please DO NOT note me saying hi. If there is no body to the message or a purpose I will not read it/ reply. Sorry to seem rude but I don't have time for that.

Now that I've got some time before next season maybe I'll try and upload a few things

So we're almost to the end of this dumpster fire of a year and that's something to be happy about though my year has been horrible on many levels, from injuries, to loss of family members to blow outs at work at least it's coming to an end. 5 weeks remain in the season but with that comes an uneasy feeling. I apologize but this will be lengthy.

To start we FINALLY fired the asshole who has caused me so much stress there for the past 3 years but now we need someone to fill his position over the winter since he used to stay on full time during the off season. I get laid off normally but can get by on E.I until season start and I enjoy my downtime but now that spot falls on me if another operator doesn't fill it, which will kinda suck since I don't get vacation during the work season.

The next bit puts me at that fork in the road I mentioned. After having a falling out at work between me and my boss who is also my dad, I'm faced with a life altering choice either way I go I will be giving up a part of my life. My options are
Sell off my 2017 Ram and pack things up and start over somewhere new which will be full of uncertainty but could benefit me in some ways OR and this is a big OR... Stay in the family business and work my way towards a share in the company and potentially take over the mining operation with my brother.

I'm stuck on the fence right now because long before I was the person I am today I've always wanted my own business, my own home and to live a decent life. Gaining a share in the company would be a big step to achieving those goals but it comes at the cost of rooting myself down to this corner on Ontario and I have to accept that traveling the world isnt an option and many of you I want get to meet or see again with limited to no time off. Conventions will be out of the question.
If I do go this route there is a deal I may be able to make on a house which might be my only way of getting one at a reasonable price but in order to do it I'll have to be smart and even then it will need a little work but that weighs on my mind too.

If I start over I will have nothing but maybe less stress and maybe I won't be so pissed off all the time but I just don't know at this point. Right now I'm just trying to focus on getting clear of my debt and maybe I should see about getting some medication before I become a time bomb again and really get myself in a bad situation. Life has been up and down too much this year and every little bit of joy I had was almost immediately followed by a faceplant of depression.

I don't know where things will go from here but that's how things have been and why I haven't been active or talked to many people. I might have to just accept the life I was given and follow it through, if that's the path I choose then it was nice knowing you guys while it lasted. The simple days are gone.

I know I haven't done much here since I went back to work 6 months. Life and work this year has been super busy despite the world going to hell in a hand basket. I've got a few months to go until the end of the season so the push is on now before the ground freezes. With any luck I'll get a break after Christmas but this year things are different with work. Since one guy was fired he was the full-time guy who stuck around during the off season so now that job falls to me or another one of our operators. So if he doesn't want the job I'll be stuck with it. Which is alright money wise but it's not just about money any more. I need some time for myself. We'll see how it goes from here.

The news has been confirmed. As of Monday I will be back to work full time. I apologize in advance if I'm not too engaged as things are all happening so fast and I'm no where near ready for this. This year is going to be a kick in the ass and I'm just going to have to suck it up and get it done.

Best of luck and have a good year my friends

Well it's been a few weeks now and I can't say thing got any better, in fact they got way worse.

A weekend out on ATVs went bad after a friend's machine broke down. I drove to Toronto to get parts but on my way back there was an incident that happened which resulted in unexpected expenses.

Then once I got home there was a blow out with family members which I did not need. Then the next day I was bitten 5 times on my right arm by my mom's rottweiler. I almost passed out and had to go to the hospital for x-rays to make sure nothing was broken or damaged. Thankfully it's just superficial wounds and bruised.

Tensions are high now in the house and a trainer was going to be called in. However upon visit to the vet they found that he basically blew out his back left knee and will need a 2500 to 3500$ surgery to fix it so the trainer will have to wait.

Now my sister is mad at me for throwing out something of hers because I wasn't clearly told what to throw out while cleaning the disaster zone we call a basement. This has extremely frustrated me because I've been trying to get this cleaned up for years because there is no extra room for visitors but apparently people need to sort stuff and be more precise so I'm saying screw it.

Everything I've done had come back to bite me in the ass. I've been trying to pull out if this slump and enjoy my last month before work starts up again but I keep getting kicked back down.

Now I hear everything is two weeks early this year and I could be back to work before this month is over. This is just plain bad timing -_-

I've been quiet for awhile and I guess I should explain. This year has really been off to a shity start with nothing going as planned. I lost 600$ on plane tickets for a trip I looked forward to for six months that got cancelled due to unseen circumstances.

Nothing has gone in my favour for looking for new work so as of April I'll most likely be mining for the family again, leaving me with no vacation and little time and energy to be involved with things. With that I've thrown out the idea of getting a fursuit for my 25th birthday because I just don't have the time to use one let alone drop 4 - 6k on one. This fandom was a fun hobby but it gets just as expensive as cars and ATVs - things I get more use out of.

I'm continuing to try and make things work around home to show that I'm responsible while trying to save for the goals and things I want to reach like being able to afford a house of my own but even doing that I'm still getting screwed over and can't live here happily. It seems like no matter what I do or whatever choice I make, it comes back to bite me in the ass. I really feel like I can't win lately.

The sad truth is I'm losing time to really enjoy this fandom and life and responsibilities are constantly pushing me away from it. There is a good chance that I may never see some of you again or get to visit you at all.

The fandom has done great things for me but has also took me to some of the lowest places I've been to yet.

I've spent whole days laying in bed just to fast forward through life, whole nights spent awake because I can't just shut down and turn off from all my stresses. I can't even find the ambition to talk to people on telegram because it feels like a chore. I know that sounds bad but its what it is.

Anyway now you know somewhat of what's going on.

A new year and a new start. This year I'm making some changes, some big some small. The big one is looking for work with a bigger company, hopefully this will go in my favour and give me more time to actually be able to do things like traveling and attending cons and hopefully be less stressful than working with family.

The next is I will be cutting back on art this year or at least limiting to what I will get in terms of ideas. Part of this will be do to a project of mine which will take me a while to complete.

Which brings me to the final goal. This year I'm going to be working on the story between Ace and Valefor. It will take me a while to complete it from writing the story to collecting art of various scenes from various artists. It's something I'm rather excited for and will take most of my spare time and focus.

I think that pretty much covers the relevant stuff.

Have a happy new year everyone

From one folf and wolf to the rest of FA, I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. 2019 has been one heck of ride!

Okay so after uploading most of my old art its time to change themes a little and post some squeakier stuff. I'll probably get around to that over the next few days.

Everything's been removed from my old account and now its time to start over. Over the next little bit I will start posting art that used to be on my old account as well as some new stuff. I'm committed to this now and there is no going back.
Let the next chapter begin!