I'm still out there and still making art. If you would like to know where, feel free to DM me.

If you wish to throw more hate one me, then just please leave me alone. I'm tired of dealing with you people.

9 months, 13 days 8 hours and two minutes ago I made a mistake that would cost me a lot. In all that time I've done a lot of thinking, waiting and apologizing. I've said it so many times that I've lost count. I've gone over the story numerous times and replayed the scenario countless more in my head. It is probably the single biggest regret in my life, but the longer it goes on it gets easier to be okay with it. It gets easier to understand I did nothing wrong initially There was nothing wrong with that single innocent picture I drew all those months ago, but with the reactions that came thereafter. I should've thought before I acted, and I let my emotions get the best of me.

And yet it's so hard to let go.

The loss of friendships, several best friends among them, is some of the hardest hurdles I've had to push past. That no matter what I say or do that it will all fall upon deaf ears and in the end I've no one to really blame but myself.

I've been healing myself.. slowly. And I will come back to doing art. It's just been hard to be myself when I know it "hurt" a group of people in an irreparable manner.

But they don't care. They don't care about my pain or how I feel. They just move on to their next target that needs calling out while continuing to loathe a larger and larger number of people that don't follow their strict ideals.

I am not a bad person.

I play by the rules, I donate to charity, I volunteer, I give back to my community, I forgive, I'm helpful, and I'm strong for those who need me. I can't keep beating myself up over one mistake.

I thank you for anyone that's still around. I know it's hard just following silence for so long, but I'll be sure to post stuff soon. I don't know if and when I'll be taking commissions, but I'll at least be posting up sketches when I can.

It will be okay.

I'm sorry it took so long, and thank you for reading.

Edit 8/24 10a: sorry if any of the above seemed incoherent or contradictory. It was written in a state of minor sleep deprivation, but that doesn't mean I didn't mean what I said.

I just have another note to add on the subject, and that is I don't condone of minors being put in fetish or strictly 18+ scenarios. I drew what I drew believing fully that a. the scenario wasn't fetishy, and b. the character was over 18. Some perceived as both of these statements to be false, and whether they are right or wrong doesn't change the fact that it could be seen as such. I apologise if I hurt you in any capacity.

A lot of my actions in the two months following were also not of my best decorum. From making an edit to the image to commissioning fetishy art of Ralsei myself, I made myself to be quite the antagonist. I was feeling quite full of myself, and I let that get the better of me. These actions were my own and I'm sorry if I was offensive.

Hey everyone, I'm currently open for commissions until the end of the month. No fancy forms or anything, but we'll be following the price guide here if you wanted something: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24979211/ shoot me a message if you're interested.

An apology circa 2018

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Guess who has one paw, one hoof and is streaming? It's this guy! SFW only stream today https://picarto.tv/Achiga

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Just wanted to remind you all that this YCH ends tomorrow night! Current winning bid is from anonymous via fA note at $75. Check it out!

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We're live again! Happy Saturday everyone~ https://picarto.tv/Achiga

I promised you a stream for your birthday, Timmy, and by god you're getting one! Meet me at https://picarto.tv/achiga to get your present.

This week I'll be streaming from 7 AM - 11 AM PST. I'll be working on Patreon rewards as well as taking in stream commissions. I'll be following this price sheet: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/24979211/

I'll be offering sketches, flats and cel shading according to this sheet. Soft shading unavailable due to time. If you want something from me, but for some reason area unable to make it to the stream, message me privately and we can work something out.

Going to be on vacation for the next seven days (days 77 - 83). I won't be able to create or post my flats like I usually do, so instead I'm going to be offering free colored sketch experimental headshots. If you want in, just reply to this tweet: https://twitter.com/ArtchigaKaji/st.....62540221104129 with a ref and an expression. I'll be doing one a day and they'll take me 30 minutes each, so don't expect anything ~too~ amazing. I do hope this is a nice compromise. Thank you for understanding <3

Commissions are open! Details are inside the commission form. The form will be open for 24 hours. Please be sure to follow the instructions within otherwise your form will be deemed invalid. Only 10 slots available total!

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Public commissions opening this Friday. I'm in need of new tires for my car, so I'll be opening up 10 commission slots this Friday. Flat color with max detail (days 41-44; 52). 50 each, 65 for two characters. One character: 3 key words. Two characters: 5 key words or one sentence description and a setting. (No run-on sentences please)

Thank you for your consideration and I hope you have a wonderful day or night

Hey everyone, if you didn't know, I've also got an art Twitter account you can check out here: https://twitter.com/ArtchigaKaji

This will have all of my new newest pics uploaded as they come out without the fluff of my rambling. Currently I'm trying to help it grow with a raffle I've got going on over here: https://twitter.com/ArtchigaKaji/st.....45630615945216

It'll end at 500 followers and we're currently at 478. Let's make that final push, nya?

After a long time of deliberation, I think I've finally figured out what I want my patreon to be and what I want to do with it. If you wish to support me, you can do so here: https://www.patreon.com/Achiga

There's a lot of cool tiers with various rewards attached to them. Last time was a bit overwhelming, but I think I just promised too much too fast. This should hopefully make the workflow a little easier and give you all a chance to give me ideas on what to work on next!

Thanks for your patience and I hope you all have a wonderful day~

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multi stream for a bit

Opening for one (or two) fully shaded commission slots.

Prices here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24979211/

Examples here: https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....r-soft-shading

T.o.S. here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8215517/

Leave a comment, send a note or hit me up on Telegram to claim a slot.

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So this is gonna be a bit hard to write (hell, I feel like I've been saying this a lot and I always feel bad, but anyway) but this is an ongoing problem I've had for about two years now. I wasn't sure where to go or who to talk to, so I felt it better to scream out into the void than to continue holding it in anymore. I'm probably going to lose a few watchers in the process, because those familiar with what I'm talking about are, well.. whatever.

I've been free of my last relationship for about two years now and there's still one thing that still haunts me about it to this very day. Back when we were dating, he and I had very similar friends. We'd all talk on voice comms, over Telegram, play games, and generally be buddies. I used to draw art for a lot of these friends because, well.. they were friends and that's what friends do, right? I've done it since I was 16 and still new on Deviantart and I continued doing it even when my art got better because it's a nice thing to do.

Then during the last couple months of our relationship, something changed and I don't know what. He came up to me and told me to stop drawing art for people. He said it was unfair because it allowed me to grow faster and deeper connections than he could. He said he couldn't draw and that pretty much meant I shouldn't either. I stopped drawing for several months, or if I did, it would always look terrible and I'd just fall into a depressive state. It was the one thing I loved doing the most and to have someone who you think loves you the most to be the most discouraging person in your life... well.. it's heartbreaking.

It's been about a year and a half since then and I should probably be over it, but I'm not. Every time I see him in a group or chatting in a stream, I keep thinking back on that moment and I just feel nothing but discouragement. Any time I make a new friend and think about drawing something for them because it'd be fun or just because they'd like it, I keep thinking back to him and I worry he'll see it. Just a constant fear that maybe he'll show up in a sort of 'I told you so' moment. In some ways I feel as though I have to prove something, as though me being able to draw for someone isn't my only redeeming quality. Then I think back on all the friendships I've lost and I worry that maybe he was right.

My three year relationship had a few good times and many many MANY bad ones (Anyone who's been a roommate of ours can attest to that) but still the worst thing to come out of those three years was this. He hit me where it hurt and it crippled me. I'm getting better, but the pain still lingers and I can only pray that it'll go away soon.

I don't know if anyone's going to read this whole thing, but if you did, I laud you. If you want to talk more about it, all my contact info is on my fA.

This isn't a callout post, this is just me venting because I want to get better, not because I want to hurt someone else. I just don't want to feel alone with this pain anymore.

edit: I'll be replying to the comments when I can, I've just been in a bit of a dark place the past couple days since writing this. ;; I wanted to say that all your support means so much to me and I wanted to thank everyone for putting up with my hangups. The healing process is gonna take time, but your support helped me to push past a lot of the insecurities I've been holding onto the past couple of years. Thank you ;;

*confetti*

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Fill out the google form if you would like something. Details inside.

Form will be open for 48 hours!

For more information, check out http://t.me/Auviere

Hey everyone, I've got an exciting announcement for you all! I'm going to be doing collaboration commissions with the very wonderful . They will be working on the sketches and lineart while I will be responsible for the colors and shading portion of the commissions.

Slots will be taken over on her page via this journal: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8409245/

Most of the information is there and prices will be $70 for one character and $40 for each additional (max 3).

JB is a very diverse artist, so please feel free to think outside the box if you'd like.

Slots are limited to 5 and commissions will all be completed by Sunday (9/17)

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o shit waddup?

I'm scared, this web page says you can trade money for art, but I don't know how it works.

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Maybe you guys can figure it out. As far as I can tell, the portal will only be open for the next 48 hours, so... make use of your time wisely in there and try to get out before it closes.

(please help, I really need the money)

Look out for em!

Also check out http://t.me/Auviere for up-to-the minute commission information!

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Check out the link and fill it out if you'd like. The form will be open for the next 24 hours, so no rush. Love y'all <3

Hi there everyone~ Just wanted to give you a heads up on how commissions go (if you're interested).

Every couple weeks (until I get tired) I'll be posting a commission form where you can submit whatever ideas you'd like and however many ideas you'd like. The form will be open for 12-24 hours and a number of them will be picked based on creativity and workability. These are NOT first come, first serve, but i will only be picking a handful of them so my queue doesn't get too full. Turnout on these forms is generally low (4-10 people) so don't be afraid to get your ideas in there!

in-stream commissions are done... well.. in stream. They are first come, first serve and can be of anything that you'd like though if your idea is something I'm uncomfortable with drawing at the time, then I may deny your request altogether. They are $15 for one character and $25 for two. Tips are always appreciated <3

For quick updates on commissions, openings, stream updates and just a place where you can check out my art first, head over to my Telegram channel at http://t.me/Auviere or follow me on twitter at http://twitter.com/achiga

For my T.o.S. on commissioning me, please check here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8215517/

Stay Fresh!