Howdy Y'all.

I know i dont post much of really anything anymore but things are looking up in my life.

So Back in july i got a bug up my ass about wanting to get back into art. I figure im almost 40 its time to get back into that hobby. SO i got a lil greedy and bought myself a new tablet. a Huion 191 something or other. I've only been able to toy around with it a lil bit seeing as the second i get something nice RL comes flying outta know where and work bogged me down for 4 months. So flash forward to now and Im happily able to work on art now that im leading a relatively bullshit free existence again.

SO i will be posting art again in the coming weeks. pretty much learning how to use photoshop along the way!

I finally got to finish part 6 of my story. I've had a lot of distractions this week, basically got promoted and things will wild for a bit, but i plan on continuing to write. specially since i have enough story down that i can start having more serious interactions between the characters. things like sex instead of implied or teasing. sometimes smut needs context. Or at least that's what i was taught.

I've Been having to relearn how to post stuff on Fa, basically reading other peoples stuff and seeing how they set it up. I've re uploaded all of my story that Ive posted. i re tittled most of it and numbered things to keep it simple. I'm not sure why i didn't think of it when i started. I'm gonna go with scatterbrained fennec as an excuse.

Also posted new stuff. So yay!

I ever since i was in school i hated one thing above all others. Write for classes. Every teacher i had wanted an essay on this or 10 pages on that. it had rules. in had formats. it had punctuation and spelling. All things i could not Stand having to deal with. I even failed out of a creative writing class for both the writing AND creative portions of that class. Hated writing with a passion. so why 20 some odd years later is it now both fascinating and fun. I mean its eating up monstery chunks of my day, Thinking about the characters in my head, what drives them, motivates them to do good or bad. It consumes my lunch hours and breaks at work. it eats up my time after i get off work. i've been spending 5-6 hours writing a day and even more just making up storylines as the day goes on.

Is this Normal? i have no experience in fa's writing community to even know.
i dont play my games any more when i get home. i just grab my phone and just get to typing.

and if anybody is reading my stuff i do write using my phone so thats kinda why it seems to be so short on fa, On my phone it seams to go on forever.
On the Iphone 6 hours of writing looks like War and Peace, but when its converted to the pc its like 3 pages and im just dumbfounded.

so yeah
gonna try and post something everyday or as fast as i can get it from brain to screen.

Love ya'll

Its been along time since i've posted anything to FA. Mostly cause i have gnarly arthritis in my right paw. Just hurts to much to draw any more. Not being able to draw hasn't slowed my brain down any when it comes to the fantasy world i choose to live in when life starts handing out bullshit. Earlier this week i started writing out my dreams and i'll be posting them here. I have one up right now. its rough and short but it makes me happy. And with my mate's support i think it will keep my happy and occupied for quiet a while.

Xbox Died last night.... Not a happy camper. Had a rough night at work and i just wanted to relax by killing something on a game. 2 minutes in I get the Red Ring. I got Pissed and took the bitch apart one screw at a time. now its in a garbage bag, in about 4 million pieces. On a more Positive note. My brother gave me his PlayStation 3 that he was gonna put in storage while he's deployed over seas. I've had it plugged in for about an hour and i have no intentions of ever getting an Xbox ever again. I'm on PSN too. my Handle is Aes_Griffox I need friends and stuff ^_^ SO hit me up!

I know I've never been a part of the popular artist crowd or been much a of a Con-Crawler so i may not be up to date with all the terms in the fandom anymore, so here's my Question. Is there such a thing as "Art Phobia"? Its something that's been plaguing me for almost 3 years. Anytime i get an artistic chill up my spine and get the absolute desire to put pen to paper i freeze up. Completely! I can think. I can move my hand. I get cold sweats and shake alittle. All i can do is stare at the blank page. I try and work threw it but it gets worse and worse till i just give up in frustration. Has anybody ever heard of this happening to someone else or am i just all the way OFF MY NUT? I need to know!?

It feels like I'm being abused by my Muse or something. Tramatized by my own creativity. Thing is i still have art cravings, like i bought a copy of Photoshop CS5 and a tablet earlier this year as a birthday present.

I started to play around with CS5 an don't feel anything wrong. (other then fact that i have no clue how to work the program) I can draw and sketch and goof around with no problems. i even kinda drew a sergal thing which I've wanted to do for years! I take up pen and paper and i lockup all over.

I find it Crazy but i seriously think somebody needs to do a Study on my Phobia or something. Please perscribe me meds so I can art!

thanks for your ears.

Aesop