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Yeah, I don't really say "y'all" unless I'm mocking rednecks lol.

But anyway, I'm having trouble writing, writer's block I guess you could call it. If anyone knows anything that may help with this I would be glad to hear it.

Another thing that I was thinking of, though it goes against what I was what I ever wanted to do, was maybe writing something that was a little less than clean, mostly just as something different to do and to clear my head to do some serious writing. Would anyone be interested reading, what I guess could be called, god-awful erotic writing? lol

Oh yeah, and Happy New Year, for what it's worth.

Stolen from  ChaosWolf13

If you have 00-10 ... write [I'm a goody-goody]
If you have 11-20 ... write [I'm still a goody-goody]
If you have 21-30 ... write [I'm average]
If you have 31-40 ... write [I'm a bad kid]
If you have 41-50 ... write [I'm a very bad influence]
If you have 51-60 ... write [I'm a horrible person]
If you have 61-70 ... write [I should be in jail]
If you have 71-80 ... write [I should be dead]
If you have 81-90 ... write [I got a ticket to Hell]

HAVE YOU...

[ ] smoked
[ ] consumed alcohol
[ ] slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex
[x] kissed someone of the same sex
[x] had sex
[ ] had someone in your room other than family
[x] watched porn
[ ] bought porn (who buys porn? lol)
[ ] tried drugs

TOTAL SO FAR: 4

[ ] taken painkillers
[ ] taken someone else's prescription medicine
[x] lied to your parents
[x] lied to a friend
[ ] snuck out of the house
[ ] done something illegal
[ ] felt hurt
[ ] hurt someone
[x] wished someone to die
[ ] seen someone die

TOTAL SO FAR: 7

[ ] missed curfew
[x] stayed out all night
[ ] ate a carton of ice cream by yourself
[ ] been to a therapist
[ ] received a ticket
[ ] been to rehab
[ ] dyed your hair
[ ] been in an accident
[ ] been to a club
[ ] been to a bar

TOTAL SO FAR: 8

[x] been to a wild party
[ ] been to a Mardi Gras parade
[ ] drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night
[ ] had a spring break in Florida
[x] sniffed anything
[ ] wore black nail polish
[ ] wore arm bands
[x] wore t-shirts with band names
[x] listened to rap
[ ] owned a 50 Cent CD

TOTAL SO FAR: 12

[ ] dressed gothic
[ ] dressed girly
[ ] dressed punk
[ ] dressed grunge
[ ] stole something
[ ] been too drunk to remember anything
[ ] blacked out
[ ] fainted
[ ] had a crush on a neighbor

TOTAL SO FAR: 12

[ ] had a crush on a friend
[ ] been to a concert (Flogging Molly concert in Feb. though!)
[ ] dry-humped someone; been dry humped
[ ] been called a slut
[ ] called someone a slut
[ ] installed speakers in a car
[ ] broken a mirror
[ ] showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
[ ] brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush

TOTAL SO FAR: 12

[ ] considered Ludacris your favorite rapper
[x] seen an R-rated movie
[ ] cruised the mall
[ ] skipped school
[x] had surgery
[x] had an injury (my knees are destroyed)
[ ] gone to court
[ ] walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping
[ ] caught something on fire
[ ] lied about your age

TOTAL SO FAR: 15

[ ] owned/rented an apartment/house
[ ] broke the law in the police's presence
[ ] made out with someone who had a GF/BF
[ ] got in trouble with the police
[x] talked to a stranger
[x] hugged a stranger
[ ] kissed a stranger
[ ] rode in the car with a stranger
[ ] been harassed
[x] been verbally harassed

TOTAL SO FAR: 18

[x] met face-to-face with someone you met online
[x] stayed online for 5+ hours straight
[ ] talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight
[x] watched TV for 5 hours straight
[x] been to a fair (Iowa State Fair, best in the world!)
[ ] been called a bad influence
[ ] drank and drove
[ ] prank-called someone
[ ] laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex
[x] cheated on a test

TOTAL: 23

I'm a good little puppy, huh?

I think mine is finally gone. I can say that I am genuinely happy and have been so for the past couple weeks and it's been at least that long since I've thought about killing myself, so everything is looking up in my mind. I'm extremely glad that I can say good-bye to all that useless self-hate and sadness, I really had no reason to feel that way, nothing was wrong with my life and it's still that way. Everything is great for me! Now maybe I can focus on actually getting things done and helping other people with their problems.

So, yeah, it was awesome. It was a very good first con. Had quite a bit of fun, did stuff, stayed up really late every day, and had some special fun as well.

Thanks to  marfles  Unition  AzlanFiretail and  crazyjoe1952 for being so nice and hanging out with me the entire weekend and for letting me stay in their room last night so I didn't have to drive home, so hearts to them.

I can't wait to go to my next con!

I'm sure not many of you will even take the time to look at this, such is the existence of journals, but for those of you who do see it, do you think I should start writing more? I just really have absolutely drive to write for some reason, and maybe if I hear from some of you it will bring me some kind of encouragement and I'll be able get going again.

I just played Nascar Rumble for the first time in I don't know how long, after buying it on eBay. It reminds me of a simpler and happier time for me, back when I was a kid, back before the complexities of the world had any bearing on me, before depression gripped me almost every second of the day, before... a great many things that I would love to not be existent in my life. But really, so much more importantly, it's just a fun game and I would suggest to anyone who owns a PS1 or 2 to purchase the game.

Stolen from  iRenia

HOW OLD DO YOU ACT?


[X] You know how to make a pot of coffee.
[ ] You keep track of dates using a calendar.
[ ] You own a credit card.
[X] You know how to change the oil in a car.
[X] You've done your own laundry.
[X] You can vote in an election.
[X] You can cook for yourself.
[X] You think politics are interesting

TOTAL SO FAR: 6

[ ] You show(ed) up for school late a lot.
[X] You always carry a pen/pencil in your bag/purse/pocket.
[X] You've never gotten a detention.
[ ] You have forgotten your own birthday.
[X] You like to take walks by yourself.
[X] You know what credibility means, without looking it up.
[ ] You drink caffeine at least once a week.

TOTAL SO FAR: 10

[X] You know how to do the dishes.
[X] You can count to 10 in another language.
[X] When you say you're going to do something, you USUALLY do it.
[X] You can mow the lawn.
[ ] You study even when you don't have to.
[X] You have hand washed a car before.

TOTAL SO FAR: 15


[X] You can spell experience, without looking it up.
[ ] The people at Starbucks know you by name.
[ ] Your favorite kind of food is take out.
[X] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need.
[X] You understand political jokes the first time they are said.
[X] You can type pretty quick.

TOTAL SO FAR: 19

[X] Your only friends are from your place of employment. (well school anyway)
[ ] You have been to a Tupperware party.
[X] You have realized that practically no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.
[X] You have more bills than you can pay. (I don't pay bills, but I figure my debt from student loans count toward this)
[X] You have been to the beach.
[X] You use the internet every day.
[ ] You have been outside of your home country 3 or more times. (no, but I going to España in my junior year!)
[ ] You make your bed in the morning. (lol you kidding)

TOTAL SO FAR: 24

[X] You have filed a tax return.
[ ] You have used a pay phone.
[ ] You have been served alcohol without being ID'd.
[ ] You have purchased stamps at the grocery store.
[ ] You have purchased a lottery ticket.
[X] You still have and use a VCR. (not much anymore, but sometimes)

Grand Total = 26
Actual Age = 18

Cool, I'm way older! lol

Stolen from  walnut225 , this should be interesting lol.

[] you meow/bark to get attention
[x] you find pets toys amusing
[] you get hyper by the smell of catnip
[] you growl/hiss when someone gets too close to your food
[] you growl/hiss when someone you dislike is too close to you
[x] you purr/shake your leg when someone shows you affection
[x] if someone tosses a ball, you chase it and bring it back
Total: 3

[x] you love to be scratched behind the ear
[x] you love fish/meat
[] you like to stick your head out trough the window of a moving car
[x] you like when people pet your head (lol my favourite!!)
[x] people can make you stop doing stuff by hitting you on the nose with a newspaper
[] you think feathers are fun to play with
Total: 7

[x] you sleep a lot during daytime (I have been known to sleep past noon, if I can)
[] you enjoy scaring birds
[] you lick peoples faces to show you like them
[] you bite people if they annoy you
[] you tend to steal food from your friends/family's plate when you have eaten all of yours
[] milk or water is your favorite drink
Total: 8

[] you own a collar and you enjoy wearing it (I'd like to have one though)
[] you own a leash and enjoy wearing it (again, want!)
[x] you own animal ears/tail/paws or a fursuit
[x] you enjoy long walks in the park
[x] you meow/bark when you see something you want
Total: 11

[] you call your hands and feet "paws"
[x] you tilt your head when you do not understand what someone is talking about
[] you run to the door when someone mentions a walk
[x] you really enjoy cuddling
[x] you stretch your body and whimper a bit every morning when you wake up
[x] you can wake up and go back to sleep right away after looking around
Total: 15

[x] you have your favorite spot besides your bed where you like to sleep (well I generally like sleeping on the floor)
[x] you meow or bark very often (whenever some comes into the room lol)
[] you hide when you get scared
[x] you run to the door to see who it is every time someone comes in to the house
[] you like to chase flying insects and try to catch them with your bare hand
[x] you tend to chew on stuff a lot
[x] you like to do tricks to get a treat (more so just to be funny)
Total: 20

[] you own a wearable item/tag with your name on it
[] you refer to yourself as an animal
[] your username has something to do with animals
[] your e-mail has something to do with animals
[x] if you get a bleeding wound, you lick it to make it feel better
[x] you look for edible stuff often
Total: 22

[x] you often find yourself looking through the window for a long time
[] you like to say hi to strangers
[x] you like to be petted when you have done something good (I like being petted any time!)
[] people think you act like a pet(I has a master I am very petty around)
[] you growl/hiss at stuff you do not like
[x] you like to eat grass
[] if you get wet, you shake to get rid of the water
Final Total: 25

Now, take your score and multiply it with by two to get your final score.

50%! Not bad

The things is, all of this is the kind of stuff that I do, I did normally for years before I had so much as heard of furry. So I wonder, was it destiny?! (There can be only one! lol jk)

Man, I don't do many journals do I?

Info on the raffle here http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2634695/

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