I am very proud of myself and my fellow co-workers at my job. I presented an idea of turning the nursing facility into the Great Pumpkin patch from the Charlie Brown cartoon and it looks absolutely wonderful. 50 Woodstock, 10 Peanuts characters, 2 Snoopys laying down on his doghouse and at least 100 pumpkin cutouts with vines and leaves. I did the bulk of the decorating, spending nine hours of my free time into putting up the vines and leaves. I even worked while coughing out my lungs.

A lot of people say I wasted my time doing that but I don't think so. The residents love how it turned out and that's more than enough for me ^.^ <3 Now to sleep in before clean, clean, clean. My mom and step-dad come up for Halloween. We'll probably go shopping for candy and make our annual Halloween treat bags. Then on Saturday, it's Trunk or Treat at one of the prisons and I'm going to work from two to six so my assistant can have the afternoon/evening to celebrate her grandson's birthday.

I've been sick the last couple of days. Started off as a sore throat and I'm just achy and irritable. I can't stop coughing and I feel so tired. I really cannot wait for my two days off. Going to sleep in and recover.

As an Activities Director, I get to plan fun days throughout the week of Halloween. Today was crazy/scary/fun makeup day. I was hounded because I didn't have any face paint on, but I'm like...dude I just got here lol Ended up painting my entire face white with black eyeshadow. My lips and eyes are dripping blood. Kind of a wow factor and I got a lot of compliments. I may or may not load a picture I took of myself on my phone. Tomorrow is crazy hair day.

My grandmother, the woman who became a second mother to me died early this morning. ):

Lately I've been wanting to do something productive and well, I've turned to crocheting. Went to the ol' Wally World here in town and picked up a beginner's starter kit. Read the directions and tried it...couldn't quite get it. But I watched some crochet beginner's videos on Youtube and I believe I understand now. I haven't really tried it yet as I was playing Skyrim (I've been playing that recently now for a while. So damn addicting >< ) I took my niece with me to the store to buy a few things and picked up my starter kit. I have this red, green and white yarn and it's all Christmas-y. She wanted me to go pink but I was like NO. Pink is NOT my color. I'm a purple girl. I normally don't like red or green but I'm liking the combination of these colors on the yarn. Last night, my cat was trying to have fun with the hooks lol Damn curious cat. I can't wait to get started. I think I may crochet a scarf first then work on these other patterns. There is a lot of neat little things you can do. ^^

I was sick for a few days with a head cold, runny nose and fever. I was well enough to go to work on Sunday but Monday around 2AM, I start vomiting and having diarrhea almost at the same time. Needless to say, I've been one sick foxy the last week and I can't wait for this to end. x.x;

Well...we all survived Corporate/State being in our building and walked away with 13 tags. My department, Activities, didn't get any, and I can thank my two assistants for that. Totally going to take them out to dinner one day. We call can relax now. Thank God x.x

On the low side, all the stress I've had while they were here for about a week has caused me to get sick. Whether it's the flu or a cold, I have no idea but I'm unable to shake this fever away. I called off yesterday and I'll have to call off today too. In my place of occupation, we can't go to work if we have a fever. I'm glad I do have Friday and Saturday off as well and I'll get to play catch up on Sunday and Monday. I'll be missing a lot of things but at least I'm not going to get anyone sick.

Other than the stress at work and the sickness following, I've been pretty good. Occupying my mind with Skyrim and getting back into the groove with my role playing. A few 'blasts from the past' returned to my life which caught me by surprise, and I'm pretty happy with it. ^^

I think I've finally let go of someone once special in my life. I've taken in consideration on what someone had said to me in another journal. I'm just not going to worry anymore. It's out of my hands on what happens...meaning I'm not in control. If this person is happier than so be it. I'm going to be happy elsewhere. They can finally be happy with each other and not have to worry about me.

As for commissions, I probably won't get any at this time. I have a goal to see if I can find my own place and get out of this household. I love my brother's family but I want to live on my own for once. He just promoted at his job so I don't think they'll be needing me anymore anyways. And I'm tired of having my room in the garage of all places x.x;

During the month of December, it had been really hectic during the holidays with Christmas and then New Years a week after. I figured I would be able to relax a bit during January, seeing as I didn't have anything major to plan. I'm the Activities Director at a nursing home. I plan out the calender, work on care plans and a lot of other things. I love my job a lot more than being a Cook. It's less stressful than being a cook and that's saying a LOT.

Anyways, Thursday rolls around and I'm happy since I am off Friday and Saturdays. I went to do an assessment with someone and my boss walks by the room I'm in and tells me corporate is here. My heart literally sank to my chest. I was in the kitchen as a cook last year when they came in, and I learned it's the same team as last year.

From what they are telling me, they are wanting to watch the activities today and I'm just really nervous. I'm new at what I do and I need more training, and they know this. Everyone tells me I'll be fine but I just can't help it ;-; lol I really don't want to go into work today but I have to.

I can't wait for today to be over so I can have at least one day of rest before working Manager on Duty on Sunday.

I have tried to engage in some sort of rp, be it sexual or otherwise, and I always find myself just...not wishing to continue with anything. I've had too many disappointments last year that have killed my passion with writing and role playing altogether. I have no real direction with Airlia anymore. For the first time in almost a decade, it's dead. It just goes to show how much of an impact other people have played in her life, and with everything that's happened...It's just finally dead. Perhaps it was a bad idea returning here anyways. I have learned a few things that just add to making me lose my passion with everything. It's amazing how easily I can just be replaced and forgotten. Maybe I'll stick around...maybe I won't. I know for a fact that I won't be missed for very long.

Well, my Christmas holiday went well. I got my Sims 4 and my purple fleece blanket so I'm happy. ^^ Everyone loved the gifts I gave out this year and I'm pleased with that. Called my father Christmas Day. Got a $20 check in the mail from him. His funding is low and he couldn't come down this year ): I do miss him lots and lots and wish I spoke to him more often. Spoke to my grandmas. One of them still lives at home while the other is in a nursing home. Both looked to be well. It's so amazing on how times fly...amazing and sad.

I'm feeling somewhat better after everything that's happened the last month or three. I still find myself thinking and over thinking of what could have been but, eh, perhaps it was best that we parted ways. Granted it could have been better on my part but can't change the past now.

Looking forward to 2015. A new year ahead of me. I have a few ideas for resolutions and I hope to stick with one to the better end. It's a secret for right now but very important for me. ^^ I will say that I do have a goal I wish to accomplish in the near future and that is to move out and get my own apartment so I can finally live on my own. Sadly, I have lived a sheltered life and wish to break free from it. I do love my brother and his family but his wife and I do not see eye to eye. I feel I have overstayed my welcome and I'm starting to feel like I am their personal slave.

Other than that, I've been alright. Missing a few people, find myself thinking about others. I wish I didn't live in the past like I do. ): I guess that's how I am.

Christmas at my job was pretty chaotic but everything had turned out nicely. Everyone enjoyed the decorations I put up this year and I got a lot of compliments with the three Christmas trees. ^^ We had an employee and the resident Christmas Parties the last couple of weeks and it was an awesome turnout. The two residents I chose to give presents to this year really enjoyed the gifts I picked out. The smiles on their faces and the twinkles in their eyes made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside.

For the first time in YEARS, I get to have holidays off, and I am going home on Christmas Eve after work to spend time with my family for a couple of days before having to be Manager on Duty on Saturday. I get to drive two hours to my lil hometown. I heard that we'll be making tamales this year so I'm pretty excited. ^^ It's been a few years since we got to make tamales. Old family tradition right there. It's usually a week long process with many family members involved but I think my mom, sister-in-law and myself can handle it.

I didn't think I would have gifts to give out this year but everyone has at least two gifts, and I finally got all the wrapping done today! I also get paid next Monday, so I'll have enough to pay off the rest of this month's bills. I won't be buying commissions from anyone anytime soon until I get caught up in everything. The winter holidays pretty much kill my budget. My niece's birthday is New Years Eve, and I need to get her a gift. She's so hard to buy for though. Five years old and she's picky as hell lol

If I don't get a chance to over the next few days, I would love to wish everyone a Merry Christmas!!

Have fun, be safe and don't do what I wouldn't do twice!

I've been reading other journals about the Christmas Wishlist and decided to see what I can do. I do hope I can help others one way or another.


-Step 1
Make a post in your journal containing your list of 10 holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple to really big. The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.
If you wish for real-life things, make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where folks could get in touch with you.

If you need to get in touch with me for contact info or something, just note me!

-Step 2
Surf around other lists to see who has posted their list. If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use--or even know where you could get someone's dream for free--do it. You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf--to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not--it's your call. There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Just...wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive. And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special

-Step 3
The List

1. Enough money to finally pay off my collage loan and credit card so I can finally get rid of it.

2. More artwork of my character and her children

3. A vacation - I haven't taken one in years.

4. An apartment of my own. I love my brother and his family to death but I believe I am overstaying my welcome.

5. A better computer.

6. More outfits for work. My wardrobe is small and I'm required to dress professionally at work.

7. Games for my Steam

8. More ideas for activities for the nursing home I work at.

9. More confidence and esteem

10. To find the courage and strength to let things go so I am able to finally find that special someone in my life.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6329138/

Check it out!~

I've had a couple of friends tell me that I don't seem like myself. I guess you can say that's true as I'm still somewhat affected with what has happened regarding someone once close to me and his friend. Over time I'll be myself but until then, I'm still teeter-tottering in my emotions. Sad thing about all of this is I did get some artwork with my former friend. It's nothing naughty but it did show just how close him and I used to be....used to be...x.x;

I am a role player but as of late, because of some things that have happened, I honestly haven't had the heart to do any sort of role play. I even put my rp world on hiatus. No passion in it right now. Some people have tried to get me to rp but I just don't feel it anymore. Perhaps these feelings will fade and I'll start to rp again but with how I've been feeling lately, it's not likely.

Thanks to those who have helped me along the way with it and also understanding that I am still adjusting to my new job. I'm the Activities Director instead of a Cook at the nursing home I work in and I wake up early. By the time I get home, I'm so exhausted that I don't wish to do anything. My job does keep me busy so I don't have all this free time to think of a certain someone.

Other than that, I am doing pretty good. I've been re-uploading the commissions I have gotten over the years but I've added a little story to each picture plus lyrics to songs I believe fit the mood of the picture. I even have new artwork in the making and I can't wait; both of anthro and humanoid kitsune forms.

I unfortunately still harbor deep feelings for this friend of mine. I have dropped all communications with him on all chats and instant messengers in hopes these feelings for him just die. Really no use loving someone who doesn't love you the same way, but I guess it is my fault. I was too late, too blind and too stupid to realize he didn't love me in that aspect anymore...even when he had led me on into believing otherwise. What's really sad about all of this is I found out the truth from his friend, someone I had tried to become friends with myself but...well...that didn't work. Too much drama on all sides...probably most from my end. I really do hope he's happier without me in his life. From what I've seen, I guess she's really taking good care of him...and it hurts so much knowing that...;-;

Sorry my little rant is jumbled. I just had a lot on my chest to get off.

*wipes the tears from her eyes and stops writing*

HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!!!!

Have a fun day today, be careful on Black Friday, and be safe over the weekend!!

Interesting raffle going on.

http://rinnworks.deviantart.com/jou.....alue-494750010

Click it! Click it! Click it!

I think I need a new avatar/icon thingy. Any suggestions on who I should commission for one?

Why can't I watch myself?! So disappointing -.-

But seriously! Thinking of becoming more active with FA as in uploading pictures and perhaps commissioning artists like I once used to. I have a whole bunch of artwork that I have yet to place up and I've been keeping my eyes on a few artists.

So I had actually left my purse at work after a very frustrating shift and the next day, I come back to find out that I had around 150 to 190$ stolen. I really needed that money especially since bills are needing to be paid. My luck has sucked the last year or two. Seriously frustrated to tears right now. I don't know what to do ;-;

Been waiting for two pictures I bought from an artist. It's been at least eight months. Not very happy...

...just dealing with a bunch of stress IRL.

I just tried winning something in an auction on here, and I did win but there there was an extension in the time. Something about some fucking 'sniping' rule. What the fuck is up with that?

It just seems to be some stupid excuse to get money more money. I've never been in an auction that had a 'sniping' rule.

People should just pick a fucking time and STICK WITH IT! I sure hope those people get in an auction and they get stuck with a fucking 'sniping' rule.

Well, for starters, Happy New Year everyone. I know I'm a little late but eh ><

For all of those who have been watching me and favoring the artwork I have in my gallery, I thank you. Make SURE you also fave/watch the original artists.

It's been what, four months since my last journal and at least a year since I've uploaded pictures onto my gallery...

Things have been pretty hectic IRL and it's going to be a busy year for me.

I have a large family reunion and I'm in charge of a picture video with pictures and music family members are supposed to give me and suggest. If anyone around here knows of a video program where I can make a slideshow of pictures with music in the background, I would greatly appreciate it. And~ My younger brother is expected to get married this year on 10/11/12 and my future sister-in-law asked me to be her Maid of Honor. o-o; So naturally, I need to lose some weight like the majority of wedding participants, and her mother and I have to plan out the reception and stuff.

New Years Resolutions? Other than lose some weight before the reunion and wedding, and loading up all the pictures onto my gallery, that's pretty much it. Oh I'm sure there will be others but I can't think of any right now. x.x

Anyways, thanks for the watches and faves! I swear I'm still active. I mean, I have been faving and watching others during this time.

~Airlia

It's annoyingly cute but that doesn't mean people should start unwatching artists and what not. That's just retarded. =/ Grow up people and just deal with it.

...and I want to ask your opinion. I'm wanting to get a gender switch picture of Airlia...meaning having her drawn as a male. o-o; But my question is...would Airlia still be straight....or would 'he' be homosexual? I have my answer already and will reveal it in a few days. O_O;;;