No more please, I will do the ones who requested. (I will do this later too, its fun)

So I'm feeling better, and started to work on stuff again, yey.

My favorite thing to do in life is to criticize others do redlines/overpaints and give advice to people regarding art stuff. It would be a nice get-back for me as my hands are still stiff and commissions are a bit too challenging, I need a few more days to really get back into flow. (I am doing them again though, but with large breaks)

So if you feel up to it send me a gallery or a specific image, and any questions/concerns about your art.
I will redline if I can, and tell a bunch of things I think. It will be up to you if you take it or leave it.

(Chibis are so not my world I can't do anything with them so thats not gonna work sry)


I will be honest and in times brutal, so if you just want compliments I'm not your man.
I love getting these myself, mithril007, Sycra and Marc Brunet did me a few and they were such a huge help.

*I'm horrible and actual help is not guaranteed.

(I prefer comments so others can see and maybe learn, but notes work too if you really don't want to make it public)

Hey

I have added a new option to my Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/user?u=282342

A small sketch every month featuring everyone who chooses the option should be something even I can do in my condition.
You can pledge any amount that is at least 2$, and then select that option if you are interested.
(Make sure you only choose this if you don't have arch nemesis-es or evil exes that might also subscribe and it would be awkward to put you two up together)

Thank you very much if you consider it! It would help out big time!

I also started composing a proper gofundme page. I am slow with writing, especially in english.
And I am thinking about making some easier YCH so I can fund myself a bit better, I will try not to take on more work unless absolutely necessary.

Thank you for the help and support you have given! You really are an amazing community! It motivates me and incredibly lot to start working again and recover!

Also PS: My roomie is still open to commissions! Check his info out: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/20553480/
We can also do collabs if that moves your imagination!

That weirdo next room my beloved landlord uploaded his price-sheet!
Please check it out and consider taking something! Or at least give some feedback to him! Thank you!

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/20553480/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/20553480/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/20553480/

Hi guys

Finally better news! I feel better now! Not out of the dark forest but it's getting more hopeful!
I now started working on commissions again, but I'm still very slow.

To those who didn't follow my journals: since early June I have been suffering from edema, mostly in my lungs and limbs. It held me back from progressing with art, or to do anything really. It caused my ears to inflame badly and I have permanent hearing loss. My muscles are very weak now, and I'm very not used to drawing now. I was on huge amounts of painkillers until recently. I still have edema, but for now it's much better, it mostly affects my ankles only at evenings.

I am now resuming work! However as my work piled up and my savings are completely depleted, I am now accepting donations; even though i'm not someone who does that usually. I have nothing to sell, no one to ask for help, no family, and i cannot possibly take on enough commissions to get back on two legs.

I was considering setting up a gofundme page. please give feedback if you would rather use that! I'm still on meds and I'm having a hard time understanding anything about it; even though i know it's not complicated and with clear head it would surely be no problem. If there is a demand I will poke my roomie to help me set it up.
for now all donations can be sent to shunkawakan.witko[at]gmail.com . every little bit helps!!
Thank you very much for any help you can give! I will work hard to repay your kindness!
without help I don't know how to get my life together. I want to work, but we are running out of food and painkillers, bills are piling up again, I cannot hold out too much longer. I will be forced to take on new commissions, but I'm already over the physical limit I can finish in a reasonable time and I am also over the mental limit on how much I can take on.

Also thank you for the kind comments and notes once again I received! You guys really keep me going on! <3

I have a refund that has been waiting for a while and I'm having trouble even getting living funds at this point; we are now using my roommate's mom's salary but she earns very little in the summers and cannot possibly keep up 4 people's lives.

I'm selling one commission for 80USD for an illustration of one character (full body) simple background). Please note that while I started recovering, I'm still not able to reliably work for a while!! It might take several weeks or even a month before I can restart doing commissions!

It will need to be paid beforehand, at least today.

-

Art slave is still also up, I will accept offers for 4-500 too.
My roomie is likely to start working on a big NSFW YCH, and I will likely collaborate on that! (background art mostly). I will post more info if this happens.

And despite my previous thoughts on the matter, I have to open donations as well. I will post a journal with details in a bit, I need to think it through once more.

Hey~
Just an update on my condition.
Thank you for the lots of kind words and comments! They really helped my mood and healing a lot!

My edema has now went down by a lot, I'm trying to start drawing again; although even If I can I will have to re-learn a lot; my muscles are way weaker than before and it's harder to move my hands accurately for now, so it's gonna take some time getting back to it.
A week ago both my ears inflammed, probably also caused by the edema. I have permanent hearing loss now, and not even equally in my two ears. Today is the first day I could listen to music again at all; but even on max volume it's very quiet :( I have trouble understanding people speaking to me too, and I have a hard time adjusting.
I finally re-gained my appetite too, and I finally don't have to take in extreme amounts of painkillers that made my head feel weird.

I don't want to say anything too soon, but for now I feel a bit better. It is unknown if I will ever completely heal, but at least it looks like I will be able to work again in a few weeks. Hopefully.
I was planning on sending EF prints on a shared panel, which I have started working on before, but there is no way now I can finish them. Maybe next year? :/

Also, I started playing Furvilla; not much else to do anyway. If anyone is on there, friend me! I'm akitary there too. I like the idea of custom painties at a point in the future too!

The art slave option is still up for anyone interested; even for a lower price range than previously posted, I accept offers. ---storm--- is also considering taking on one, for further details contact him. He doesn't have a backlog like me so it's way less demanding of him.

That's all. Stay strong guys <3

I reluctantly open a slot for an emergency art slave.
Please be aware that the very reason i have to open is because I'm unable to work at the moment.
the paintings will be delivered when I'm in a condition again to progress.

Why do I need it?
A month ago I started feeling intense chest pain followed by edemic swelling and weakness. I has been worsening ever since. I need medical attention; which i can likely get for free soon with governmental support (at least hope so)
However my working abilities dropped greatly; I cannot take on new commissions. I am being requested several refunds because i cant progress with them, that I cannot pay back since I couldn't take on new jobs for a month, and my savings are depleted.
I keep up a household of two people and two cats. ---storm--- has started doing commissions himself lately, but its in baby-shoes still.
I would take on a loan but I'm not eligible, and I don't have anything valuable I own to sell.

In short, I'm very out of options.

I do not know when can I get back to my feet again and work properly again.

If you are interested, please contact me.
My work rate is 15$/h, and I'm looking for 1-2k$, depending on how much you are comfortable with.
My big illustrations with backgrounds are 20-40 hours a piece. of course we would figure out what's best for both of us.
I can do sketches, speed-paints, big illustrations, any combination you would like.
Please note I'm best with anthro characters and fantasy themes; you are likely to get better results of those.
for examples, look in my gallery

As usual, I do not accept NSFW themes.

Hey~
I'm still around.

2 weeks ago all my symptoms came back with full strength. I still wasn't able to get proper medical care; nor does it looks like i will be able to anytime soon, especially with the increased amount of refunds I had to give lately; private doctors are out of the question. It's understandable people are not trusting I can ever finish any project in my current state.
I can barely sleep or do anything anymore, let alone work. I can't really progress with any artwork at the moment. My hands and arms hurt, i have breathing issues and a constant anxiety of what's happening is emotionally crippling me as well; especially because i saw my grandmother and mother have the same problem I do now, and I know where it leads.

I answer to notes in delay, and I often not open them. I'm also less frequent on Skype, and not really check Gmail. I know this in unprofessional, but please forgive me. I absolutely need to avoid stress at any cost until I can adjust to how things are now. I felt like I was better when I closed myself away; then an array of refund requests and bashing from others just put me back - not to say i blame them, they were completely right.

I also needed to get used to my new diet; no salty foods and no more soft drinks; later which was one of my very few source of feeling good anymore, however pathetic that may sound. Now I can't go out, can't eat good food, can't drink, alcohol is out of the question, nothing to distract me. I feel really empty.

I am being pushed to open new commission slots, but I honestly don't think I could mentally take it; meanwhile bills, food and refunds are waiting to be paid. I'm trying to sell everything I own and is of any value for now, but that only lasts for a little while.

For now it would be of great help to commission ---storm---, my roommate if you like his style, who I have a shared budget with. All my commission income went to keep us both up. Now I feel like I failed not just everyone on FA, but him as well.

I won't open donations, because I don't deserve it or could accept it. All I need is patience; although I know it's a lot from me to ask from anyone.

sorry for the very depressed update, and sorry for being inactive for such a long time. I'm trying my best to come back as soon as I can.

First claim first serve; comments on this journal only

SFW only; SFW refs accepted only
Simple poses/themes only
no or very simple background

Example: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19855053/

payment beforehand, 20USD by Paypal


new slots after this will be priced normally on a 10$/h rate (so ~40$ + extras)

Heyo~

I will be returning tomorrow. I will start working on some stuff today, not a lot but some.
Sorry for the mini-hiatus in the past week.

I can't say anything for sure yet until the medical examinations are over.
But basically working too much, having too much stress on me and not caring about myself didn't do me good.
It is very likely that I have serious heart problems; I will need a doctor's final word on that.

The bad thing about that is I would have to avoid stress at all cost; I'm a very stressing person always on the edge in life; never really I have had stress-less days; it became the norm to me very long ago. It comes with the lifestyle I'm living I guess.

The past days I had limb and lung edema; super dangerous condition; and often a side effect of heart problems as well. I was blown up like a water balloon. It would have been funny if it didn't hurt so much ^^"
I'm still not in the clear, but it started to go down nicely, and my chest doesn't hurt so much unless i lay down. That's a good start.

Absolute worst case I get a pacemaker; I'm definitely young and strong enough to not be affected by it too much as long as I don't run marathons.
I will only need some days off occasionally to take it easier.

Also I have been told so many times that if I worked less I could progress faster. If you work 90 hours a week you just slow down so much it will worth half. So I will try to balance it so I don't slow down with images to what I produced so far. I really hope it works and I can really be faster in smaller amounts of time.
If it doesn't, I will have to start refunding; I would feel terrible about that. I will try everything before I let that happen.


This is it for this update.
I will open notes later today if I still feel better, tomorrow morning the latest.

Thank you for the patience and support in the previous journal! (I know I didn't reply but I read all of them and they made my cry. You guys are too sweet.)

Due to health reasons I'm on time off until June of 8th.

Please stop sending me notes about any issues. I needed to take time off to get rid off stress; that is essential to me.
Believe me when I say I hate to be so unprofessional as to block communication.
I'm not opening notes that have ominous or no subjects for a few more days; I'm deeply sorry but I cannot afford that.

I can NOT work and more importantly I MUST NOT take in any stress or it will lead to serious consequences. Please understand.

I really don't want to disable notes as last time it led to even more stress as people tried to contact me on alternate channels; but if it doesn't stop I will have to.

It is also very likely that I will soon be hospitalized for an unknown amount of time too; I will do my best to update what's happening when.

Hi guys

due to some health reasons I'm taking off a bit of time!
I may do some personal works in the meanwhile! Or just sleep through all haha
Sorry for any inconvenience it may mean. I will get back working as soon as my strength comes back!

Love you all! <3

This my roomie! He makes horse art and stuffs. Mostly pervy stuffs. Go check it out!

https://beta.furrynetwork.com/storm-engineer/
https://beta.furrynetwork.com/storm-engineer/
https://beta.furrynetwork.com/storm-engineer/

his FA is ---storm---, he's active on both sites!

Hey guys! ^^

I'm now rid of pleurisy; I can still feel stiff in my chest and I shouldn't go around running marathons, but other than that, I'm fine! ^^ I was able to eat again after 3 days, even if just half a focaccia and some eggplant spread. Best meal ever though! (you don't know my love for eggplant foods)

And even though FA is back I will stay active over at FurryNetwork; it has some major issues still, and it's similarity to Artstation is a bit uncanny (especially for being an artistic community "unlike any other"... just a side-note)
but I'm still quite pleased with it so far. And it's about time I started building my presence in more than one place.
If you missed in my last journal, my FN gallery is https://beta.furrynetwork.com/akitary/
It has very good ideas, neat design, and they work on it very frequently. The upload is wonky and doesn't always work; and I hate you can't edit your submission files. There is a con for every pro there so far. But hey, that's a fairly OK ratio for a beta.

Also; who came up with the idea of Sausage party movie... I want to congratulate them for their vivid fantasy and then shoot them so they don't use it ever again.
And don't tell me it's not soft-core porn with that title, and a talking vag-bun in love with a sausage. To me that's more disturbing than anything else in the wholeness of it ಠ_ಠ

Ans shout-out to pogostix and hardrockangel who cannot access their accounts in the meanwhile, it must be super frustrating; they are both very nice artists who need access to their fans and commissioners asap. I hope you guys get your accounts back very soon!

~be good everyone!

Just a notice that until I'm through the hardest part I simply cannot work, no matter how much I would like to. I can't sit up straight, and I can't feel my hands at all (my blood circulation is absolutely screwed, I don't know how much it's related), I can't draw, which is very frustrating to me :/
I feel constant chest pain, can barely breathe, and doesn't matter how much painkillers I stuff in myself it doesn't go away. This has been going on for nearly 2 days now, and it likely will for a while more.

It shouldn't be too dangerous on me, I just need to rest, so please don't expect any updates on anything for a little while.

And don't worry, bad penny don't get lost, so I will stay around~

Hey~

I like how that new site Furrynetwork looks, I will be making my presence there as well now that it has opened publicly!
please follow me there too if you are on there

https://beta.furrynetwork.com/akitary/

(no I'm not leaving FA)

Also I lost about 30 watchers and a submission with all its comments in the last week, which saddens me a lot. I really hope this won't happen again :/

Hey guys ~

Yesterday while we were out getting groceries I had a tiny accident. Someone managed to kick my hand in a way what felt like pushing my finger bones back inside my wrist (that was what just it felt like). Nothing is broken, but I have bruises and a swollen hand.
A guy dropped a can of energy drink when he tried to carry too many, which I instinctively reached to catch, and he tried to kick into out of reflex. He did apologize and was very sorry.

It's not my main drawing hand, but it's hard to use keyboard and shortcuts, so it is somewhat of a problem while working :|
I can also not use A; not being able to turn left ever isn't very optimal :"3

Due to this I can't open new slots while I'm not fully healed T^T

Be good guys and don't try to catch flying Monster drinks! They are not good for your health!

there will only be a very few slots for this low price!
(the normal price for these will average around 50USD later.)

also this time I'm requesting beforehand payment due to a mini-emergency

Claim in comment, first come first serve!

Something like this: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19824716/
or this: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19838495/

You can provide me a theme and an idea, or leave it to wing-it; in that case provide me with a vague theme (such as fantasy, gamer, sci-fi, goth, etc.)
I draw furs in clothes; if you don't have any, give me a style direction (medieval armor, prom dress, etc)

Anthro only! No humans, taurs or ferals, I cannot do them confidently enough for this type of image yet!
I'm still experimenting, so quality will be somewhere on the examples level; it may be better or worse.

Any gender/no babyfur/no hyper-anyting (except hyper-awesome, which you obviously are! hahaaaa! ;3 )

Wings, tiny pets and props are fine. Anything too complex will be simplified.

Pay beforeI'm done! Paypal only!

I ONLY ACCEPT SFW REFERENCES - no nude, no artistic nude, no "just a nip". NOTHING. This is very important to me, please respect it.

Note: I may use 3D elements in these; if that poses a issue to you wait for my regular speed-paints. The linked two examples used as well, if you can't even tell where, then you can ignore this anyway.
Note 2: I am very strict on not drawing any copyrighted content; this includes no exact armors, pets or props from games/movies, and no pokemon characters!

Claim in comment, first come first serve!

Only so cheap because it's experimental. Price will change in the future.

Something like this: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19824716/
or this: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19838495/

You can provide me a theme and an idea, or leave it to wing-it; in that case provide me with a vague theme (such as fantasy, gamer, sci-fi, goth, etc.)
I draw furs in clothes; if you don't have any, give me a style direction (medieval armor, prom dress, etc)

Anthro only! No humans, taurs or ferals, I cannot do them confidently enough for this type of image yet!
I'm still experimenting, so quality will be somewhere on the examples level; it may be better or worse.

Any gender/no babyfur/no hyper-anyting (except hyper-awesome, which you obviously are! hahaaaa! ;3 )

Wings, tiny pets and props are fine. Anything too complex will be simplified.

Pay after I'm done! Paypal only!

I ONLY ACCEPT SFW REFERENCES - no nude, no artistic nude, no "just a nip". NOTHING. This is very important to me, please respect it.

Note: I may use 3D elements in these; if that poses a issue to you wait for my regular speed-paints. The linked two examples used as well, if you can't even tell where, then you can ignore this anyway.
Note 2: I am very strict on not drawing any copyrighted content; this includes no exact armors, pets or props from games/movies, and no pokemon characters!

WINTER IS COMING in 17 hours!

One zombie/wight portrait is opened!
- Will have blue/silvery eyes
- Will be mildly zombified - feel free to give preference on how far it should go!
- I plan to add a snowy/cold simple background


Will heavily reference on Game of Thrones; however it will not use any actual IP; ghouls and such are not exclusive to them.

First to claim in comment gets the slot.

Examples: http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/.....6967/Portraits
Portrait goes from head to waist: https://dl.dropboxusercontent.com/u.....ingcropref.jpg

I only accept SFW references!!

Anthro/human/any gender are accepted!

65 USD
Pay full price after I'm finished! (USD, Paypal only)
Will start working on it immediately!

First to claim in comment gets the slot.

Example: http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/.....6967/Portraits
Atmosphere and mood may vastly differ

Portrait goes from head to waist: https://dl.dropboxusercontent.com/u.....ingcropref.jpg

I only accept SFW references

Anthro/human/any gender

(Props can be requested. Super difficult stuff will be extra.
Request mood/expression or give me free hand.
I prefer drawing furs in clothes, so feel free to attach clothing/armor refs as well.)

Pay full price after I'm finished! (USD, Paypal only)
Will start working on it next morning!

Hi guys

It has been a very long time since I last could have say I was feeling not depressed (precisely 8 months ago, I uploaded a before-after image in my scraps then)
You see, I have major depression; which while does have waves, it never really goes away. I don't have "feeling good" and "feeling bad" phases rather than feeling "utter disaster" or "meh" every few weeks.


I was very very under the last few weeks; which did cause me to not be online, be slow with responses, don't stream and generally be much slower with everything. Just the constant feeling of being a failure and hating myself to the point where I couldn't go outside without being ashamed of my sole existence, just wearing a hoodie to cover my face even if I get nauseous from overheating. The constant migraine, headache and panic attacks. Stuffing myself with painkillers to the point I get dizzy. Not nice things. And the worst part is that I couldn't progress with commissions as well as I should have in that much time.

There is that weird phenomenon which I have noticed before;

When you jump into water, the higher you drop from, the deeper you go.
And somewhat similarly, the more miserable I feel at a time, the better I get afterwards; before I slowly start floating back into depression.


Now I don't want to be negative, but since this has been going on for over 20 years, I know I will slump back soon enough, and this random burst of energy is just temporary. I will try my best to make the most of it.

I'm currently compiling all artworks I have been stuck with, and bringing them to a level where I will only have to deal with mindless rendering afterwards. This means I will completely ignore how old a commission is; I will only focus in getting done what I have temporary advantage over right now.

Other than that, I would like to extend this "happy" time as much as I can. I will order some commissions for myself, buy some new games and just try to make this last as long as possible. I ask you please don't judge me if I make a few personal works, or see me spending money over minimum expenses while I'm still not finished with your commission. Or well, judge me, I deserve that, but don't scold me for now.


that is all I had to say.
I love you all <3

Hoi

As some things happened over the last week that didn't let me work, I need today and possibly all weekend to catch up, therefore I won't be able to open any new slots as I usually do on Fridays, I'm very sorry.
I'm hoping I can progress good enough to have something during next week! I will try my hardest!

After about an hour I regained my sight, then a few more hours later only the explainable and uncontrollable depression stayed (effect of the migraine, nothing bad actually happened)

I will answer to notes and comments tomorrow, I'm dead tired now and my head is still not 100% okay.

Sorry if I made anyone worry, I just wanted to let people know why I didn't respond.

Thank you for the kind comments!

Stress and migraine caused blindness happens with me, it should go away, followed by headacheses ans nausea later today
I can't really read notes ot draw at al in this condition however


wiritng journal because i know i have some unread notes and promised some updaes to some people
i will gett o you asap
(sorry for any typos i made)