Its been a while now and sometimes you come back on my mind. There's so much thing i would like to say to you. Not to beg for forgiveness. Just to tell you why. When we first met i was in an harsh period of my life i will never forget. I wasn't myself nor was i ready to face it. I offended you and i am sorry. I never meant to and i had trouble keeping people near me.

It always been weird to get anyone close to me without trying to push them away. Only a few made their way in trought my barriers. This hard shell i had to keep others away so i wouldn't be hurt again. I've hurt many in the process and now i have to live with it.

With time i learned to accept that you won't be there anymore. I had to face it again. You're gone. Today i am myself and proud of it. I don't need a shell to protect me. I am a survivor of sexual abuses, of a brain cancer and i went trough depression and transitioning happily with my partner.
To you i've hurt or simply been a negative person in your life.

I am sincerly sorry.
Ps: Everyone deserve a happy ending. So do you

Greetings you sexy beasts. I'm feeling Artsy annnndddd i'm up to do a group Request Tada!

I will randomly choose the sonas that you will submit.
One sona per person. I will required artistic freedom for the theme.
It will be safe for work. But hey its free!

i hope to have many participant and if i have enough participant i might do a second row.

Good luck sexies!

The holidays never been my favorite period of the year.
In fact it is the saddest for me. with a family who talks to each others.
some that barely accept me or simply pretend to feel a little less guilty.
Last december i was dying from a cancerous tumor. I have been saved.
But i lost my job and couldn't work for a few months. And now i'm still jobless trying to get a merry fucking chrismas. anywho..turning 26 in january blah blah blah..and my girlfriend's family hates me.

Happy Holidays. thanks if you ignored the ranting.

warning ! i'm bored and this can be considered as attention seeking.
wanna chat? i do.. i'm so fucking bored and need a minimum social
..if social is the word. whatever . if you might consider chatting with me.
i'm open minded..anyway..

-Bisoux-
ps: my skype name is Akyrachan

i feel good enough! heh, i will take requests....
But not all of them. i request artistic freedom
but! You can suggest a theme you would like ect..
anyway ..good luck

-XxxX- Aky <3

for once i'm serious!

i might not be too experimented. i'm now open to comissions.


the price range are still undecided yet. i will post the details later.

just check out my gallery and if you're interested please message me ^^

nothing too expensive don't worry i'm not experimented enough!

with love . Aky -xxx-

At first it seems like a big and bad joke and you're waiting for someone to come and give the punch. Soon enough you realise its no joke. You realise that its the bitter truth. Your world is shattering like a glass dropped on the floor. Every single pieces represent a mood and a thought. You try to convince yourself you're fine when you lie to yourself. The fear of anyone treating you differently.
the fact that you have treatements and medecines to help you is the scary part.
Eventually you have two choices; stay in denial or face it. If you stay in denial the more the time passes. the more you will lock yourself inside without any human contact even locking yourself from your significant someone and friends.
If you face it . then you can have a normal life again. sure you get some few restriction during the treatement but afterward you have pauses and even moment to enjoy this precious moment called 'Life'. Now you're ready. you can smile again. you can even see the sunlight on your own and share a laugh and a moment with dear friends again. That's the choice i made concerning my journey in this world.

-Poison Vixen- with love xxx

hey watchers and others. i'm on a new project and i need
4 characters. Female characters for the project.

You'll get credited and such. don't hesitate to post your refs!

hay guyz and Galz!

i'm on such a good mood that i will be doing freebies!

yup. i will choose randomly a secret number of winners amongst those
who will submit theirs.

Off course will credits the owners and choose artistic freedom.

with love,

Poison Vixen

recently due to complications in my life i've been trough dark moments.
and as such i decided to express these moments. which lead to demons and multiple arms creatures. i will scan and post them. sadly its not really anything good and will eventually will have to post my other sketches over the net. self expression is the key. however some of these characters will be at sale if anyone is interested! righhhttt... anyway

love y'all~ PoisonVixen<3

now now, don't flame.


i want to recycle natural fur. Yes taken from a dead animal. ect....


so far i have mostly coyote fur and would like to recycle my coyote scraps into something useful yet beautiful! but finding the needles and other needed stuff gonna be a good challenge and learn how to do it properly!

it is a challenge i want to do! :3 if it gives interesting results would anyone be interested ?

Stolen from Bryan-Gab

1. First thing you wash in the shower?
-My hair

2. What color is your favourite hoodie?
-black

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
-yup i'd kiss her everyday

4. Do you plan outfits?
-d'uh , one do not simply walk out without making any sense-

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
-herr....exhausted

6. What's the closest thing to you that's red?
-my pants

7. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
-Herr......a nightmare or something

8. Did you meet anybody new today?
-new customers..nothing interesting-

9. What are you craving right now?
-a gravol and other meds to cure my sore throat

10. Do you floss?
-Sometimes, but not everyday-

11. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
-fuck no

12. Are you emotional?
-emotional ? ....sadly i am

13. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
-probly did

14. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
-lick:P

15. Do you like your hair?
-my precious

16. Do you like yourself?
-herr.....i'm trying to

17. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
-nah..

18. What are you listening to right now?
-Blutengel - Krieger

19. Are your parents strict?
-not really, one of them is dead and the other one live's away

20. Would you go sky diving?
-heck no-

21. Do you like cottage cheese?
-yup

22. Have you ever met a celebrity?
-a few local ones ~

23. Do you rent movies often?
-Rent? nawh

24. Is there anything sparkly in the room you're in?
-my fox pendant

25. How many countries have you visited?
-none

26. Have you made a prank phone call?
-d'uh..

27. Ever been on a train?
-a few times

28. Brown or white eggs?
-i don't mind

29. Do you have a cell-phone?
-who dosen't?

30. Do you use chap stick?
-Nyet-

31. Do you own a gun?
-Nawh

32. Can you use chop sticks?
-from both hands-

33. Who are you going to be with tonight?
-no one(-

34. Are you too forgiving?
-herrr...nope.

35. Ever been in love?
-i am-

36. What is your best friend(s) doing tomorrow (or the next soonest week day)?
-he's working?-

37. Ever have cream puffs?
-herr nope-

38. Last time you cried?
-i don't honestly remember -

39. What was the last question you asked?
-Can you imagine me dressed like a priest in the subway?-

40. Favorite time of the year?
-Spring, Falls, Summer-

41. Do you have any tattoos?
-Two so far-

42. Are you sarcastic?
-not at all and no spiteful either ..

43. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
-ja a while ago-

44. Ever walked into a wall?
-herr...-

45. Favorite color?
-Red & black-

46. Have you ever slapped someone?
-Herr...too often-

47. Is your hair curly?
-it happens to..-

48. What was the last CD you bought?
-Shakira deluxe edition

49. Do looks matter?
-always at some point-

50. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
-Never.-

51. Is your phone bill sky high?
-Nyet-

52. Do you like your life right now?
-could use some improvements

53. Do you sleep with the TV on?
-yep-

54. Can you handle the truth?
-bring it bitch-

55. Do you have good vision?
-Decent-

56. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
-herr....way more than that

57. How often do you talk on the phone?
-can be up for hours with my sis-

58. The last person you held hands with?
-herrr.....people yesterday?

59. What are you wearing?
-a towel-

60.What is your favorite animal?
-Vulpines & felines-

61. Where was your favorite picture taken at?
-herr...-

62. Can you hula hoop?
-haven't in years-

63. Do you have a job?
-ja, in a restaurant-

64. What was the most recent thing you bought?
-a bottle of pepsi-

65. Have you ever crawled through a window?
-herr....i guess i did

when your friends like and or watch your stuffs, they just support you.

if they use a back handed compliment its just to cheer you up.
Most of the time i feel like i'm just begging for attention trying to display
any form of ''Art'' i do.

to be honest i don't like what i do, i can only see the flaws and other imperfections. its like looking at myself in the mirror, i can only see those things. if your loved one love what you did, either she's trying to support you, or there's a slight chance what you did might be good. at the moment , i'm just ranting ..why? because once in a while it helps feels better inside i guess... or am i just begging for attention again ..? seems like i have some time on my own to rant ..Tch'


well, i have more ease to draw humans now a days. i still hate what i do , but at least there's more ''support'' toward those, and blargh.....hey...felt good ranting
anyway....peace out.

Apparently doing some free sketches got me inspired and i am glad it works! i will probly do more than expected with Coon Butt and the Drago Equine , well tlak about a challenge xDD Yippie ~! the more i feel like doing the more the inspiration comes and so the practice !

i need to practice and i'm quite inspired now a days , so if someone would like a free sketch ? just contact me but beware. i am a crappy artist to be honest and i'm only doing traditional arts. black, white& grey. pencil and paper ect... if you're interested just tell me ! i will take Four slots post me a ref sheet and i will try it out!

1.Vema

2.Zorie ( a friend of mine out of FA)

3.

4.

if the results are good enough and i feel generous i might take a few more . well see ya folks!

now a days i'm admiting and facing a few facts, and my moods aren't much cheerful. at least i have music to inspire me , i took a break from drawing because i don't like what i do as many artists. the following draws i might do will involve violence and sensitive content i suppose. its not like facing the dark corner of your own past and psyche was the easiest thing to do. i will someday move on and will bloom like a flower again i suppose and even like myself , but its not for tomorrow i guess. i have faced a few things , i still feel like crying everytime i think about it and i know i am strong enough , someday i'll let go of the pain and will finally have taken a new step in the right way.

why can't i just break the glass, destroy that terrible reflection. why can't i simply slip of these chains and be at peace with myself again..? at least there's a flame that keeps burning inside, and there's an angel by my side ~

on this new year eve i will be celebrating with a good friend i haven't seen in a while and around my drink will be wishing everyone from the net, and those i know in real life a happy new year~<3 French or English ~ canadian , american and everyone else ~

i have a resolution i would like to take, but knowing myself i won't respect it ~ *chuckles* well, a few reso i know i won't follow so instead i will just try to make an effort and be nicer to the people around of me ~ <3 i will also try to work on my arts more often if i can say so , anywho i gotta go ~ love you all those who support me <3

here i am on a new inspiration it seems, for how long i can't say now a days music is my muse when it comes to create, that and the pathfinder game i'll be running, but my last artwork came out fine honestly and well, good night

et oui j'ai décider d'écrire en français cette fois ci,
pourquoi? parce que c'est la vie, c'est temps ci je ne dessine pas beaucoup car plusieurs truc me tienne préoccupé sans compter le manque d'inspiration et de motivation. mais miracle! sa reviens doucement, si vous avez des idées et ou suggestion je les prendrais bien ! et de temps en temps je fait des comission à ceux qui demande. x_x je me charge rien , évidement sinon sa serais de la vrai arnaque les gens paierais pour ça? mes dessins ne le valent pas vraiment x_X

bon, mon ipod est en train de me décédé dans les mains, sans musique je deviens dingue e-e et j'ai rencontré quelques personnes sympathiques ces temps ci ! Joie~ oh j'ai sut récemment que je ferais de l'arthrite yay...heureusement ce n'est qu'au poignet gauche fiou! oh ;3 un show de l'un de mes bands préféré arrive, et j'aimerais encore continuer à profité de l'été que je m'en souvienne pour les bonne raisons. Disont qu'avec mon horaire on oublis les grandeurs natures._. fait chier hein? bon je crois que j'ai assez poluer mon journal comme ça je crois. à plus tous et si vous avez des idées à me soumettre pour le plaisir de la chose hésité pas je ne mord pas! menfin... pas toujours xD

since i wasn't much drawing , a new inspiration came and new draws are upcoming soon ! my inspiration came back!

hey guyz, its been a while since my last post on here, guess what i did a new draw! yessss! my dear friend who's fur is Janushka and mine Aky always shared some special friendship , looking like a romance and also best friends for ever type. hmm sounds like to womens having a close friendships , eh? anyway i did a sweet draw where those two are dancing ! >;3 its sooo cute , and i'll post it sunday ! see you then!

its been a while , since kitty and i scanned my arts, and i bought her Shin Megami Games so i guess she's too busy xD