I've grown increasingly skeptical and distasteful towards the holiday season. As much as I want to enjoy them, I never can anymore. Between the general public being full of idiots who are too obsessed with their inability to drive let alone their OCD with shopping, and the constant infighting among my immediate family, I can't even approach the holidays without being emotionally drained.

Today marks the beginning of another stressful holiday for me, full of bickering and disrespect in my family. I wish I could just start working at the job I aquired, because I would have asked to work both today and tomorrow.

Bah humbug. =\

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GO SEE IT PLEASE.

I'm going to see it tonight!

That is all!

Oh, and I'm REALLY, REALLY EXCITED.

So two things!

First of all, I'm pleased to announce that as of this evening, I will have officially completed my five year journey through college and have obtained my diploma. Yep, that's right! I'm done with college. So I can finally works towards getting on with my life and doing the things I need to do for myself to live functionally and contently. It's been a long, hard road. Especially with having to deal with living at home with the nutjobs in my house. But, overall, I'm glad to finally be done with college.

As for my graduation, nothing spectacular will be going on. I have a few guests, my family not included (only my mother). Originally they had all told me they weren't going to attend. I wasn't good enough. But my mother decided to come along anyway. Then everyone changed their minds. But, yesterday, a really bad fight broke out and it almost got physical. So the people who did that are officially uninvited anyway.

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In other news, it's been a year with my loving, supporting, and extremely stress out boyfriend. We've hit some rough bumps in the road but we're still trucking, and I couldn't be happier with him. I'm really looking forward to the day we can unite together and get settled!

So I've been hanging out on Sofurry since most of my primary chats I go to have been down, stopping me from chatting with my friends. In my time of being there, I've decided to start up a Monster Girl (and boy) group that has it's own dedicated chatrooms.

Please check it out if you're a fan of the extraspecies peeps! https://www.sofurry.com/groups/view?id=4571

Yesterday was a really rough day on me. Both me and my boyfriend.

All I'm going to say is that, I'm tired of living lies and having to protect myself the way I have to in order to survive where I live in real life. And because of these things, and me forgetting them, I almost ruined what I have worked so hard to build up and everything. And I'm so tired of having to live this way.

I just want to be me, who I am, all the time, with the people I love. The people I REALLY love. and the people I REALLY know. Not the mask I have to wear every day just to get by, or the persona I have to put on because of reputations or ideas I have to present in order to protect myself.

It makes me really sad. It's contributed to my depression heavily. And I beat myself up about it all the time. It's part of the reason I'm always so miserable, or have long bouts of silence or just "bleh"ness.

IF I could just leave tomorrow, and disappear from the life I have to live right now so that I could start my new life and live comfortably, I'd give anything for it.

I just want to be me, and be happy.

I've been dealing with a lot of stress lately and I guess it was just too built up and I didn't even know it.

Today I had another anxiety attack that required me to seek medical attention, while I was at college. Unfortunately, the college nurses' office wouldn't let me back until "later" even though I was explaining that it was an emergency and I needed to see the nurse. So I ended up having to make a 20 minute drive to the doctor's office while my symptoms progressively got worse.

After a couple hours in the office, the attack finally hit me and they were able to rule out any other ailments. Unfortunately though, it means I still have an issue with these anxiety attacks. I'll have to closely monitor myself and my stress levels as I get closer and closer to graduation this semester among other things.

Sigh.

It is the shit! I really want to get this game now.

The only thing I don't like is not being able to play strictly Imp.

So I seem to be unable to leave the furry fandom without even more drama being caused.

So I'm back, I guess. Just please, stop being dramatic around me. I have a really bad attitude to people who get on my bad side.

It's been brought to my attention that my character, Amber the Giraffe, has been spotted being used outside of my use or the use of the artists who I commissioned to draw her.

Please refrain from using my property or the commissioned work. If you notice somebody using them, please direct them to me so they can at least ASK about it before using it. Even though I will always say NO. Also, depending on which piece of art they are using, please inform the artist who created the piece.

Thank you.

At some point I'm going to phase out of the furry fandom. Some of the drama I've experienced in it is starting to just rub me the wrong way. I'll be around in some form or fashion, but I might delete my FA account and I might just disappear from the furry fandom entirely. I'll retain the rights to my characters in some way though. Particularly Amber the Giraffe, whom is my fursona.

Sorry for the inconvenience.

This is my last college semester, EVER!

I'm so excited.

So yeah...that is all. XD

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16148195/

Asking Price: $350
Shipping included in flat price.

This is a Saberforge Exalted lightsaber, Champion Tier in 12w Red. It has the Crimson Soundboard. I've owned this saber for a few months and I've decided that it's just not for me, as much as I love the aesthetics of it. I also sort of need the money right now, especially with the final semester of my college career coming up soon among other things.

This saber has a few "love bites" on the hilt but is otherwise very well taken care of. I'll even go as far as to shine it up for you if you purchase it. The soundboard functions just like it's supposed to, and it features the Crimson's unique Force Lightning/Lockup auxiliary effect. I will include the saber's charger with purchase.

I'll include a 36" blade with it!

I will accept Money Order, Check, or Paypal as payment. I expect payment before shipping the saber. I will ship the saber within a week of receiving payment. I cannot ship outside of the US without tacking on a hefty shipping fee, so I would much prefer US shipping only.

Please note me or post here if you're interested! I can show you pictures of its current condition privately.

I may be on hiatus contact wise for a few days.

The first reason is due to client work that I need to focus on a bit more.

The second reason is that I learned from my boyfriend that his grandmother is not doing so well due to cancer....so he is going to see her and I will be focusing my energy on supporting him if possible.

I'm just looking for somebody to doodle my Saiyan character, Nasu.

You can check her out here:

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17248211/

So my boyfriend  RangertheShark is having some issues with his computer.

He recently upgraded to Windows 10, like today, and has been suffering from a computer error since then whenever he tries to play Dragon Ball Xenoverse.

avgui.exe "The program can't start because MSVCR110.dll is missing from your computer"

I have been working with him for about the past two hours trying to lead him on how to reinstall his dll and uninstalling/reinstalling things such as AVG. He is still suffering problems.

Any advice is welcome.


EDIT: We fixed it!

NASA announced that we could be seeing an intense period of Solar Flare activity soon. Possibly by the end of this week or a bit later.

http://www.weather.com/science/spac.....ruption-impact

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It's important to understand that this is not fake. Solar Flares happen commonly, but we have a complicated classification system for them, and sometimes much stronger flares happen that can affect our planet and the people on it.

In the 1800's, a similar flare resulted in a variety of electrical problems such as telegraphs combustion or shocking their operators. This flare, happening in our current modern setting, could possibly cause a variety of problems ranging from power outages, GPS failure, grid system failure, internet downtime, and other tech related issues. These things are basically giant naturally occuring EMPs of Mass Distruction.

Please be aware of this, and monitor NASA's statements, as well as weather sources. There are a variety of reputable space-related resources online that you can look into to keep up to date.

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http://www.spaceweather.com/
http://www.nasa.gov/
http://www.weather.com/

So! I just got a client job from the most unexpected group of people that I would never have imagined that I'd end up working for!

My most recent freelance job, which will involve the designing of a new logo as well as several website icons, is coming from non-other than the owners of VADER'S VAULT and the other lightsabersmith community members.

That's right. I'm working freelance for my biggest geek toy company fandom ever. OMG.

The community is moving a popular website where you can buy soundfonts for your lightsaber props on to another website, and they need a new logo.

I'll be working on this over the course of the next month! I hope to get it all finished sooner than that. They even want it animated!

Oh my gosh I'm so stoked. I can't believe this!

I got my custom Sith Robes in today! They fit so nice and are made of linen, so they are movie-quality goodness!

I can't wait to wear them at events and stuff!

Fantastic! The Supreme Court ruled that gay marriage is LEGAL in ALL 50 States of the United States of America.

Progress! Love! Support! I want to give a huge shoutout to all of my LGBT friends that can get or will be married soon, that I am very happy for you. And it makes me look forward to certain events in my life that I am patiently approaching myself.

I want to give another Shout Out to the Supreme Court, for recognizing that as humans we have the right to love, and that denying legal contracts to those that love each other that want them is an inhumane privilege.

Let's watch the Religious Right squirm as they react to this.

This game is great. I am obsessed with it.

Went to the doctor today to check up on some bloodwork I had done a few days ago. Last week rather.

Apparently my cholesterol levels are a bit higher than they should be. I'm not unhealthy, but he does want me to start eating better. I explained to my doctor the situation at home though, so he agree with me on how things are going here and that I should try my best to get better food in my system while I live in an unhealthy environment for my mental and physical health. Hopefully my immediate family will take heed that they are slowly killing me and I have the doctor's words on this.

I also explained to him the issues I've been having physically and emotionally. And how my family has been, and how my anxiety and depression have been off the charts lately due to these things. He's linked all of my symptoms to stress induced anxiety and has prescribed me Prozac to help manage both my anxiety and depression.

Lets see how this goes.

So Nintendo's E3 Presentation wasn't all that great. The Muppets were pretty funny though. BUT...

STAR FOX ZERO!

It's basically a reimagined Star Fox 64, and they brought back elements from the unreleased Star Fox 2! OMG I CAN'T WAIT.

I love Star Fox. It's like, the Furry version of Star Wars.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R63TI2a5fM0

That is all I have to say.

I am literally vibrating from excitement.