I am so fucking pissed at my parents right now. Yesterday I went to my shrink, and I left my cellphone there. Well today, my step-dad made me WALK BACK THERE TO GET IT! YEAH, WALK! So it took me an hour to walk there, get my cellphone, and walk back home.

I am in an extremely bad mood. He is the devil of the world. I wish to burn his balls and mail them to his step-sons. I'd rather dance with wild mice than hang out with that bastard.

And, I was also pissed off about yesterday. Yesterday there was no delivery. I was supposed to work TODAY, AND NOT YESTERDAY! I came in anyway. no one called me, and I barely look at the schedules, because I work on the same days and the same times. But my manager said he takes the blame, but from now on Fridays, I'm going to look at the schedules.

All through my weekend, I've been working on my Biology project. My five day weekend started on Thursday, and tomorrow's the last day. I'm almost done with it. All I have to do is to make a book about biochemistry. It's actually kind of easy. But it's due Tuesday, and I have a test that day. DX

Plus, I have other homework due, like a worksheet for Biology and I have to pick an article about economy and write a summary about it in History. now that just fucking sucks. D:

Dananananananana Dananananananana FANFIC UPDATE! (Not Batman):

Community Service Chapter 4 - I started working on it.

Remembered - I started working on it.

New:

Maria's Talk, Shadow's Love - A oneshot about shadow x Maria. Finally, there's going to be a shadow x maria fanfiction. I've been requesting it for a long time, but now I'm making one to do the rule 34. ;o

Mario and Sonic in the Showers - And a Mario x Sonic story. This is a day after the Olympic events, and they talk while taking a shower and maybe other stuff. ;o

Well, the only thing I ever care about now is music. Whenever I'm happy or sad, or any other emotion, I listen to my Ipod. When I'm sad, I have a "Sad Song " playlist to listen. XD

Music is not just my Ipod, but I care about the artists too. My most favorite is Evanescence. Amy Lee rocks. Although Everytime We Touch (Slow) by Cascada is my favorite song in the whole world, Evanescence is my band.

Hannah "Vomitana", Jonas "Humpers", Juliet "Loser", and High School "Poopsicle" are the absolute worst. If I ever listened to them, I would sit on an ice cube while a polar bear bites my arm off

Ya know, Disney Channel is as sick as the Dirty Jobs show. Toon Disney is FTW.

Good things about today: I bought a cinnamon bun, and it was good. And, the retarded person at work had her last day, and now she'll be gone forever! CVS Shall be neat again! 8D

Bad things: My Ipod froze in the morning, and I had to let it die and recharge when I got home. Also, I got my time of the month. But I got home just in time to take my Advil.

I forgot to tell you, that I'm joining my Town's chorus. they're having a yard sale tomorrow, so I'm going to be fucking tired. I hope I don't ache from my time of the month. DX

I'm not really in the mood to write stories. I'm taking...maybe a long term break or something.

Dammit, I've been going to the bathroom all day. Idk why I'm always feeling the need to piss. Either I have a urinary track infection, or imaginary prostate cancer. o3o

I didn't get the candy Isle at work today, bummer. I worked on Food and medicine. D:

Yeah, haven't been here long, too busy with shit.

Anyway, let's start with yesterday. I went outside to go for a walk and to go downtown. I've been trying to find a Wii in stock online, but no good. So I tried the Gamestop in my town. Nope. Nothing.

So I went to the pet store and saw this parrot. I said hello, and it made a sound. I said hello again, and it made the same sound. I laughed, and it laughed with me. then I started to go in a laughing fit, and it was laughing with me. XD

I wanted that bird, but I couldn't because I already have a dog and fish. Speaking of fish, I have a fish that's pregnant. The first signs were the mother putting rocks in her mouth, and shooting the rocks in a different place to make a nest. It's so funny how fish do that. but we might be getting a different tank since the other fish might eat the baby.

My other problem about me is that I hate sports. Hell, I'm even bad at them. During baseball or softball, I always get strikes. Soccer, I sometimes hit the ball to people's body parts. Basketball...yeah, teamwork sucks. I can only shoot hoops. The only sport I'm good at is bowling. e.e

Damn, the afternoon was so epic today.

My school bus went to a stop sign, checked if it was ok to go, and went, and this car goes past the bus, and the bus rips off the bumper. And we stopped at a spot, and the police and ambulance (XD) were there. The police checks if we were ok, and yes, we were. They needed our names and phone numbers to call our parents to tell us we're ok.

So, then my mom called, and I answered, and she was like "Thank god." And yeah. o3o

I need a shower. My hair feels terrible, but I can't take a shower every day. House rules. For example, I took a shower yesterday, and then today I can't take a shower, but tomorrow I can. It's to save the water and the water bill.

You should see how my brother showers. He takes a fucking long time, until someone yells at him to get out. He's like...almost a half an hour in there. XD

A Sexy Arrest is now published, and ready to be read. Sadly, I keep getting problems uploading my stories. T.T

Well anyway, today sucked. Wednesdays in Vocational class, it's like elementary school. the "games" we play are fucking sissy. for example, we had to pull on a rope to make shapes. >.>

Seriously, doesn't vocational mean GROWING UP? WTF! Well at least My new teacher who replaced the old one is nicer, but he's still insane with psychoness. Also, this class sucks. Fuck the people with disabilities, Lemme go get laid or something.

There was one teacher in summer school that was good. Mrs. Breeze taught Lifeskills on Mondays during summer school, and she taught things THAT I NEVER LEARNED! Well the only bad thing about her is, we eat at Subway.

Subway is, in my opinion, the absolute worst food place in the world. This sounds weird, but I extremely hate sandwiches, besides hamburgers and ice cream sandwiches. Subway has the worst smell, and the air inside hurts my eyes. The only things I could buy in there were a drink, a cookie, or a bag of chips.

I couldn't write anything in here today because...

1. It was my birthday! 8D

2. I was so tired from work.

3. I wanted to hang out with my parents.

I'm finally 18 years old. I can legally look up sex, scratch lottery tickets, and call those commercials that show stupid products.

I didn't have cake yesterday because during work, I had pizza, and I was so bloated. So my mom and I decided to get a cake today. Oh, and we also went to Papa Gino's for more pizza. I'm eating the cake after dinner. xD

I'm not ready to grow up. I had a very lousy childhood, plus teenagehood. I never accomplished my childhood dream...to go to the zoo. D:

My mom wants me to start driving. DX I'm not ready, I'm afraid.

Friday's my birthday. I'll be 18...yeah.

Well, I prayed for my period to not be on my birthday, and my wish came true.

Good news: My peiord didn't come on my birthday, it came today.

Bad news: It came today, and today I had to go to work, and I was feeling so ill, a supervisor had to take me home. I slept until my parents came home.

My hero was Advil gel caplets. >.>

Furaffinity......I am scarred for life...wanna know why? This afternoon, my step-dad got out of the shower from washing the dog, and I was going to the fridge, until I freaked out and closed my eyes.

I SAW THIS PENIS! DDDDDDDDD:

I fucking freaked out and burst into tears, and did you know what my mom said? She said, "Don't worry, it's normal, part of life."

And I said, "Normal? NORMAL THAT I SEE MY STEP-DAD'S GENITALS? HOW THE HELL IS THAT NORMAL, FUCKTARD!"

"Go to your room."

And I did go. It's the safest room in my house, in my opinion. How in the wolrd can my mom say that? IT'S NOT NORMAL!

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG! FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL! D:

Back to my normal ugly routine: getting up at 5:45 am, take a morning piss, breakfast, morning computer, brush teeth, change clothes, get ready for school, then more computer, then off to school.

I'm a senior! But still, next year, I have to take the missing Sciences and histories.

So during the first day assembly, all the seniors (and me) were running around the gym. most senior had very funny costumes. 2 people were in hotdogs. 1 was Cat in the Hat. and One was Scooby Doo. xD

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG SCHOOL'S TOMORROW! I HATE SCHOOL! D:

I'm going to miss mornings of my precious internet. T.T I'll miss you guys in the morning. D:

Ugh, today was fucking stupid. I put my stuff in my purse, and I thought I wouldn't need my keys anymore because I get a different time schedule during work. So, I lock EVERYTHING, and then was outside. Then...it hit me...I FORGOT MY WORK UNIFORM IN THE HOUSE! DDD:

So, then I got into my nervous mode. Whenever I'm nervous, I instantly break down into tears. I call the manager to see what he can do for me, and he said he'll ask someone from work to pick me up. I was only in my shirt, shorts, and sneakers. My manager would never accept me coming to work into this.

But then 5 minutes after that call, my step-dad comes home! Omfg, I was so lucky! He unlocked everything and then I got my uniform, then the car comes and I get dropped off to work. 8D

Guys, today was my official last day of summer. Tomorrow is working at CVS, then on Wednesday is the first day of my senior year.

And next week is my birthday, on the 5th. ~sighs~ I don't want to be 18 yet...I had a fucking lousy childhood, and I never accomplished my childhood dream: To go to the zoo.

I never went to the zoo...sad isn't it. I always kept asking my mom to take me, but she's like, "I'll take you there someday." But she never will.

The Voc. Program would've put a field trip to go there, but it's expensive for each person...

I even hated my teenagehood. I never gotten a date. I regretted my first kiss. My step-dad kept torturing me. I never gotten a sweet 16 party...actually, I haven't had a birthday party ever since 3rd grade. It's sad...Maybe next week during work, I'll have a party...I don't know.

I hate my life...I don't ever want to turn into a strict unworthy adult. I want to be Peter Pan. 8D...but still be a girl.

A Sexy Arrest - too lazy to finish?

Remembered - Too lazy to finish.

Community Service Ch. 4- Too lazy to start. XD

New Stories waiting to start:

Mario And Sonic At the Showers - Yeah...you read the title. For the very first time, there will be a Mario x Sonic fanfic! 8D
It's about when the Olympic games finish, and after the games, Mario and sonic head to the locker room to take a nice shower......and other good stuff, that I will not tell. >.>

The channels on the TV changed, so I had to find where Cartoon Network and and my other shitty channels were.

I also got my school schedule......

My heart broke...for the 600th time in my life. There was no chorus in the schedule. But, maybe my teacher, my counselor and I will be able to fix it. I don't care what will happen. I want to celebrate the last year of chorus.

Well, I'm finally done with math. In my school, you only have to take 3 years of math in high school, and then during Senior year, you're done, if you get good grades.

~sighs~ Voc. for 2 periods, AGAIN. Dammit. And I'm fucking tired and sick of having P.E. in period 7! Dammit, it's been like this ever since sophomore year.

Hey um...I was wondering if you people that read my journal can keep a secret, and maybe give me some adivce.
Well, ever since I was 16 years old, I've been...uhm...I've been getting this awful sex drive every single day. I don't get it the times when I'm on my period. But still, it kills me. I'm even on my horny side RIGHT NOW! DX I can't control it. Even masturbating won't help me, because In 5 minutes or less I can't get close to an orgasm. So that doesn't help. So I look at porn, but that just makes it worse (well duh xD). I can't take it anymore. I'm not a slut, but I just need to get laid. But I can't. No one in school is interested in me.

I know I'm shy and all, but I just can't get anyone to like me. I take showers, I brush my teeth, I wear clean clothes. So wtf? and I so totally NOT going to date someone from the voc. They're too damn stupid.

OMFG! YES! YEEEESSSSS!

I WON SECOND PLACE IN THE AVATAR ARENA IN GAIA ONLINE!. I was cosplaying a car hitting a pedestrian. xDDD And I got 30,000 gold for winning 2nd place.

Guys...I had the absolute weirdest dream last night.

I was walking across my town, until I saw a candy shop that I never seen before. I walk in, and it was only a bar. But there was candy at the checkout counter. I walk to the counter, and I saw a cool bag of M&Ms. I wanted to buy it. So I picked it up, and gave it to...Rambo. Yeah...Rambo was the cashier. xD

So he price checked it, and he said that I need to pay $30 with a pack of Juicy Fruit, or else I don't get to buy M&Ms. So I said, "Fuck you! I'm suing this store!"

So I stormed out, and then I saw my cooking teacher from school, sitting on a table, eating ramen. We said hi and she said how are you and stuff. But then I went back in the candy store, and Rambo, and all the other customers, were at war! I sat at a corner, while everyone was getting blown away. A little girl came to me and said, "Where's the bathroom?" I pointed to where it was, and she went. So, Then I found out that there was a secret door behind the candy shop.

I went in, and it was a Lazer Tag battle field. I'm like "...wow. So this is why they're on war." So I found the nearest exit, but...I was walking very slow. I wanted to walk fast to the door, but my legs kept walking slow. i'm like, "COME ON! I CAN'T MOVE!"

And then I woke up. o3o

Well, I found out how to change batteries for a digital camera. I'm going to do that tomorrow (if I ever find where the batteries are). And maybe I'll take pictures of myself. Maybe I'll take pictures of my room (with all my penguins around xD). And maybe my dog. and maybe my videogames, my DVDs, my manga. xD Bonus points if you met me before, maybe we go to the same school. o3o;

Nothing really went on today, except I saw Hoodwinked on Cartoon Network. It was actually good. I'd want Red in bed (lawl rhymage).......I have the weirdest turn ons.

Ok, enough of that, right now, I am in REQUEST MODE! When I am in request mode, I want pictures that I never seen before, and want people to draw them. Certain pairings, or characters in a position I want, yeah. But for today, I want certain pairings:

First i'll say what I want about the straight pairings:

SonElise. Fanfiction or pictures (Mostly pictures). We never get anough of her. I only saw 3 pics, and they weren't that great.

TailsCosmo: We don't have enough Cosmo. Forget that Cream bitch (sorry Cream fans), Tails loves Cosmo...although she died. MAKE THEM ANYWAY!

Regular Sonamy: It's my favorite straight pairing.

Alright, time for the yaoi:

The first request is weird. I want Sonic x Erazor Djinn pictures. Yes, I have the hots for him. After reading a fanfic, I've grown a turn on for him.

Sonic x a crossover: This is Rockgaara's fault, but in a good way. After seeing those Sonic x Link and Sonic x Mario pictures, I want more from other people. xDDD

More Sonadow. It's common, but it's my favorite yaoi pairing.

Shaduckles, with Shadow as the uke. We have too many Uke-knuckles. I like it, but I don't like it if there's too much.

I'd request more yaoi, but there are too many yaoi requests, I'll save the others for later. Now we're going to head on to the yuri requests:

Amy and Rouge. we don't have enough.

Here's something that never exists: Elise x Shahra. Two Sonic human girls in bed. Hmm...maybe I should make a story of it. Or if someone could draw a picture for me. ;o

Ok, this is a really big request for me. I want someone to draw my fancharacter, Amethyst the Bat (Not Amethyst Tuberculosis xD). I've only seen her with my own eyes with my horrible edits.

Today, I bought a new Jewelry box. My old one is too small, and I keep getting more Jewelry. =P

Omfg, it was like...over $60.00. DXXX Well, the reason is, that it's big, and it plays "Music box" music.

Well, I had to carry it all the way home in a bag. Well, I put it down on the floor a few times when looking in the pet store, McDonalds, and the park. When I went back home, I had a small bubble blister on my left ring finger. DDD:

It's been a long time since I done this. STORY UPDATES!:

Community Service: I'm on to Chapter 4, but not right now.

Remembered: I started on Chapter 1. A SonElise fic. DAMMIT, I CALL RULE 34 FOR SONELISE!

A Sexy Arrest: I'm almost done! D:

Finally......I have been waiting...for a month...TO GET BACK ON HERE! 8D

Omfg, there has been A LOT of stuff that I need to tell you in this entry.

First off, I missed you all! n.n

2. While Furaffinity was down, I started to type more stories and chapters.

3. Step-dad is still verbally abusing me. DDD:

4. This week is the last week of my summer vocational program. But, you know what? I don't want it to end. I hate staying home. If I stay home, then I have to do chores. D:

Ok, THIS HAS GONE TOO FAR!

every fuckign day...it's work this, and work that. Laundry, clean the fridge, microwave, CVS, walk dog, yard work, Voc Program. 2 things I cannot handle AT ALL!

1. The summer Voc Program> It starts tomorrow. I'm going to be hanging out with "Syndrome of A Down" until August 8th.

Monday: Lifeskills lessons
Tuesday: CVS
Wednesday: Feild trip(yay...sort of)
Thursday: Hanging out with 5th graders >.>
Friday: CVS

2. I HATE MY FAMILY EVEN MORE! My mom is making me work with her trail mix business. I...I just can't fucking take it anymore. If it gets any worse than all this, I'm going to suicide (sarcasm).

Well, I celebrated my last day of summer by doing nothing at all. =D

Why the last day? Because Tomorrow is work, and then Wednesday, my Vocational program starts. D: My summer is going to be fucked up again, until august 8th. August 9th, my summer starts again. D:

And be aware that I'm making a one-shot, A Sexy Arrest (the yaoi ;D).

I didn't really have much, because I'm unpopular.

My first boyfriend was...very short. In 3rd grade, I saw this chubby boy named Harry. I said I liked him. Then I don't know why, we kind of broke up. XD

My mom said I couldn't date anyone until I was 14, because of how I always act around people. D:

Then when I turned 14...I STILL HAD NO ONE! what a piece of shit. e.e Well actually in 7th grade, after I stayed back......oh, I never told you about that, didn't I?

Well, just in one paragraph: I stayed back in 7th grade because of two reasons: 1. I was too lazy to do my homework. And 2, the far worst reason: I was one age short. I started 7th grade when I was 11 (12 in September), and the school just don't like young people. e.e

So anyway, after the first time in 7th grade, I met this guy that was my age at my apartment in Massachusetts. His name was Justin. We were at the swimming pool. Suddenly, we started hanging out, and then the next day, we were at the park, cuddling. c: Then after December...I don't know what the fuck happened. We suddenly grew apart. I don't know why. XD

Then during 10th grade in Math, we were in the same class. Then in the beginning my junior year (which I just finished =D), my brother started to be friends with him. Most days, they always went in my brother's (stinky) room and play video games, and sometimes I would watch them.

One day, Justin wanted to go to my house to not see my bro, but to see me. when we were watching TV, we started cuddling again. Then next week. It was a Monday, and he came to see me again. Our faces were really close and...I got my first kiss. c:

We were in a relationship...well, we didn't go out dates yet. D:<

During school, when I leaned my head on his shoulder, he would look at me funny, and I would sit up and say, "Sorry."

On Valentines Day, I gave him a bag of Chocolate kisses and a Valentine card for "someone special". He thanked me. One problem: He didn't give me anything.

I fell in love with him. I didn't know how he felt......until next week...

Next week, on a Thursday, I signed onto Gaia Online. My avatar says that I have a message. It was from Justin. He goes on Gaia too. I thought he would want to meet me in the Towns, but...it wasn't that.

Justin broke up with me in a message......in a god damn mother fucking message. This is my advice: Never ever EVER dump someone in an Email. That, my dear friend, is the ABSOLUTE WORST POSSIBLE WAY to dump someone. When you're dumping someone in person, face to face, it shows that you really care about the person, but you want the relationship to be over.

But in a god damn Email, you just send a message, with no feelings what so ever. That was it. It was over. The end. Zippo.

I fucking cried my ass off after reading the message. My mom comforted me. And that's when my heart began to turn into a refrigerator.

The next day, I never said a word. At all. At work, I had to talk, I didn't mind that. My two best friends came to visit me, and I told them about what happened, and they comforted me as well.

From this day forward, my depression has gotten worse. I will never get a lover, and I will never see happiness in the future. My heart turned into Antarctica, where the penguins, my favorite animal live. I don't care about anything anymore. I don't care about who's president, or if I'm going to turn homeless.

The only way to cure me, is to find the love of my life, which will never happen at all. I'm not special. I'm not popular. None of the other people in my grade notices me. And when I get my diploma...

After senior year, I have to be in school for 2 more years, because in 9 - 11, I never took a Science. From 10 - 11, I never took a history. Senior year, I have no clue what's going on, so bull shit.

~sighs~ Even if I get my diploma, I'll never be good for College. I want to go to college to learn more about music...but I always think to myself that my voice is terrible.

i'm actually crying while typing this. excuse me...

OH YEAH! SUMMER VACATION! W00T...........SUMMER VOC. PROGRAM! WAHHHHHHHHHHHHH DX

Ok, so, Monday was the last day of school. then on Tuesday was the first day of Summer vacation. But on that day, I had work. Well, at least I had the candy Isle. =D.........and the food. e.e

And today, my step-dad made me clean the fridge. Damn bastard. D:<