So, ive been going through alot of shit lately, no need for details, basically ive suffered alot of abuse sexually , mentally and phsycially in my life and that leaves little to NO room whatsoever to trust people. Recently the person i trust most hurt me deeply to the point of self harm.Ive never thought i was pretty or attractive until i met my current boyfriend who made me feel so special, now its gone and i hate myself so bad right now ive begun cutting, scratching, biting , burning myself with candles and i cant stop, please help

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zvn5.....eature=related Techno dance

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me doing the cha cha slide in cat girl outfit


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ubrr1ElzeEc

Anime stl tornado warning

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XCp-LYQMg4A
Jack the Skeleton Costume

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xOBssnJMWFQ
Sarah belks vid

go ahead and check out my drawings i think there ok but anyway

so you can check it out when I am done :) I cant draw that amazing but I hope youll like it

i feel like all my friends are drifting away from me, can anyone explain it will someone send me a message to cheer me up :::::::::::(

1. What is your character's name?
Anelese chaise

2. What is your character's name in another language?

no clue
3. How old is he/she?
19

4. What is your character's race/species?
Mixture of the eurasian linx and a white fox

5. Do they have a crush?
yup My other charachter his name is Gabriel
6. Do they have many friends?
Yes kind of

7. What planet is your character from?
earth

8. Does your character like to eat?
yup her weakness is chocolate mouse

9. What's his/her favorite food?
she likes ice cream and candy

10. What's his/her favorite drink?
ROOT BEER FLOAT

11. Is your character annoying?
yes shes really hyper
13. Is your character loved?
Yep!

14. Is your character hated?
everyone has at least one hater

15. Is he/she emo/goth?
she is very emotional and cries when she sees her favorite show on the tv , she likes to wear colors that are a mixture of light and dark like LIME GREEN AND BLACK hot pink and black dark brown and light green you get it

16. Is he/she straight, bisexual, or gay?
straight
17. Is he/she a virgin?
nope

18. Name 3 hobbies
hmmmm singing, stalking, and making movies

19. Is your character normal?
yup shes alot like myself

20. Is your character attractive?
i think so

21. How does your character handle emotions?
as i said shes very emotional and she has a fiery temper

22. Does your character have other forms?
no

23. Does your character overreact?
yup

24. Is your character a criminal?
noooooooooooooooo why do you ask

25. Does your character go to school?
graduate
26. What's his/her IQ?
shes smart but doesnt lead others to think so

27. Does your character have a disease/curse?
if you call being a clutz a curse
28. Is your character dead?
nooo

29. Does your character have a family?
anelese kind of lost touch with her parents she doesnt get along with anyone in her family really she has a sister named ky but she rarely talks to her
30. Has he/she encountered any tragic times in life?
she doesnt like to talk about it but she has some pretty dark memories relating to her child hood

31. What's the best time in your character's life?
When anelese met gabriel she was finally happy and now they are exploring together

32. If you could name 1 friend, which would you relate to your character?
i dont know

33. Is your character single?
Nope!

34. Has he/she developed any relationships?
well she has a close friend named des and a few other friends
35. Does she/he have an element?
not sure

36. Do you role-play your character?
heheheh

37. Do you write about your character?
just began writing a story about her

38. Does your character have a bad temper at times?
yup yup yup

39. Does your character get depressed?
somtimes when shes watching animal planet is when it hits her most often

40. What's your characters favorite animal?
KITTENS keeps them all to herself

41. Does your character have any fears?
heights death, suffocation, drowning, driving a car off a bridge............... extc

42. Does your character have any weaknesses?
her self
43. Does your character look up to anyone?
not really
44. Does your character like music?
U KIDDING SHE LIIIIIIIIIIIIIVES IN A MUSICAL

45. What's your character's favorite type of music?
anything but rap

46. Is he/she impatient?
she couldnt sit still for five minutes

47. What's something funny about your character?
well if you throw a ball of yarn or anything she runs after it and is distracted by shiny objects
48. Name 5 nicknames
anne anya dont make any jokes of that one lisa alise

49. Does your character curse?
when shes playing video games stay clear she is like a sailor

50. This test is over, what does your character have to say?
ummmmmmm can i go now

1. Your Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favourite Film:
5. Favourite Song or Album:
6. Favourite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we know each other outside of dA?
10. What's your philosophy on life?
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
13. What is your favourite memory of us?
14. What is your favourite guilty pleasure?
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarkey) - what are they?
17. Can we get together and make a cake?
18. Which country is your spiritual home?
19. What is your big weakness?
20. Do you think I'm a good person?
21. What was your best/favourite subject at school?
22. Describe your accent:
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?
24. What do you wear to sleep?
25. Trousers or skirts?
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?

• × • ALL | ABOUT | ME • × •
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- Name: ashley but I go by anelese
- Single or taken: taken
- Sex: female
- Birthday: 06-26-90
- Sign: cancer
- Hair color: dark brown
- Eye color: greenand yellow in rl and same on fursona
- Height: 5"5
- Are you straight/bisexual/gay?:Bisexual
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• × • F A S H I O N | S T U F F • × •
____________________________________________________________________________

- Favorite place to shop for clothes?: Anywhere I find stuff that looks good on me
- Favorite designer?: none
- What is your sexiest outfit?: my kitty costume
- What is your most comfortable outfit?: nothing
- What do you usually wear?: anything cute
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• × • S P E C I F I C S • × •
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- What kind of shampoo do you use?: strawberries and cream v05
- What are you listening to right now?: lame college study music
- Who is the last person that called you?: Tammy my bfs mom
- How many buddies are online right now?noone I no has any
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• × • F A V O R I T E S • × •
____________________________________________________________________________

- Food: many
- Girls' names: ?anelese leah lexie
- Boys' names gabriel asreal
- Subjects in school: speech and psychology
- Animals:kitties foxes and wolfies
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• × • H A V E | Y O U | E V E R • × •
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- Given anyone a bath?:yes "trevor"
- Smoked?: Hell no
- Bungee jumped?: No
- Made yourself throw up?: NO
- Skinny dipped?: HELL YEAH!
- Ever been in love?: Yes
- Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: mehbeh
- Pictured your crush naked?: when am i not picturing him naked
- Actually seen your crush naked?of course
- Cried when someone died?: yes
- Lied: Yes
- Fallen for your best friend?: yes
- Used someone?: nope
- Done something you regret?: Many things
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• × • C U R R E N T • × •
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- Clothes:white cardigan blue green white red and yellow striped tank top blue jeans breast cancer socks and airforceones
- Desktop picture: the schools
- CD in player: none
- DVD in player: drag me to hell

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• × • L A S T | P E R S O N • × •
____________________________________________________________________________

- You touched:trevor
- Hugged: trevor
- You kissed: trevor
- You IMed: tammy
- Talk to online: tennis ball lover
- You sexed it up with:trevor

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• × • A R E | Y O U • × •
___________________________________________________________________________

- Understanding?: Yes
- Open-minded?: yea
- Arrogant?: i don't think so
- Insecure?: yes my body and personality
- Random?: OOH ITS FLUFFY can i have a chocolate bar
- Hungry?: just ate some waffles
- Smart?: more than i let on
- Moody?: yes:(
- Organized?: Yes
- Shy?: at times
- Difficult?: no
- Bored easily?: ....yes
- Obsessed?: harry potter
- Angry?: i have an irish temper
- Happy?: sometimes
- Hyper?: all the time
-Trusting?: I have very little trust for people dont want to be hurt

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• × • R A N D O M • × •
___________________________________________________________________________

- In the morning I: molest trevor
- Love is: amazing when you mean it
- I dream about: anything from pandas to naked dumbledore i have weird dreams
- Sexual preference: bisexual
- What do you notice first in the sex you're into: eyes
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• × • W H I C H | I S | B E T T E R • ×
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- Coke or Pepsi:rootbeer of course
- Flowers or candy: Candy yay were is it
- Tall or short: tall__________________________________________________________________________

• × • W H O • × •
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- Makes you laugh the most: my friends
- Makes you smile: trevor
- Gives you a funny feeling when you see him/her: trevor
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• × • D O | Y O U | E V E R • × •
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- Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?:no
- Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: nope
- Wish you were younger?: always
- Cry because someone said something to you?: yes I am very emotional
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• × • N U M B E R • × •
___________________________________________________________________________

- Of times I have had my heart broken?: many
- Of guys I've kissed: um no comment too many to count
- Of girls I've kissed:5
- Of Cd's I own: 5
- Of scars on my body 1

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1ashley
2. anelese
3. pippyt

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU'VE HAD:
1.legolaslover232000
2. blondebunny1616(when i was blonde)
3. kikimwow
THREE THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 33 MINUTES (Of the last day)
1.went to school
2. been bitched at by trevor
3. saw an ambulance and a firetruck
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1.my eyese
2. that trevor loves me
3. my religion

THREE THINGS YOU DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My weight
2. my face
3. my past

THREE PARTS OF YOUR ORIGINS:
1. puertorican
2.irish
3. french

THREE THINGS YOU'RE AFRAID OF:
1. losing trevor
2. death
3. I wont go to heaven
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. pink jacket
2. yellow shirt
3. jeans

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. kissing trevor
2. petting any sort of animal
3. internet:)

THREE IMPORTANT OBJECTS:
1. trevor hehe
2. computer
3. cell phone

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS:
1. my chemical romance
2. secondhand serenade
3. three days grace

THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
1. meeting new people
2. Hanging out with my friends
3. Kissing and or being around or talking to trevor in any way

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. fall for you second hand serenade
2. kelly pickler I wonder
3. As always in my daughters eyes by martina mcbride

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. Marriage
2. xrated
3.birth
THREE THINGS YOU REGRET:
1. my past
2.hurting trevor in anyway
3. losing my virginity

THREE IMPORTANT THINGS YOU'VE GIVEN TO THE WORLD:
1. nothing
2. saving trevors butt when we got jumped
3. saving a girl from drowning

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE:
1. I was born in ny
2.ive been marrried
3. I like the color brown

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX:
1. eyes
2.hair
3. how they dress

THREE EMOTIONAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX:
1. additude (nice)
2. be funny
3. playful

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. not hate condisending people
2. act like im better than someone
3. not kiss or talk to trevor in a day

THREE THINGS YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST:
1. my sister
2. old friends
3. buster rip

THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
1. money!!!
2. KITTENS:)
3. my own house with no bills

THREE REASONS WHY YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE:
1. neglect
2. childabuse
3. TREVOR

THREE OF YOU YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. singing
2. photography
3. writing

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. x-rated
2. hug trevor
3. not be late to class by wriitng this thing

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. vet tech
2. physical therapist assistant
3. actress

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR HOLIDAY:
1. anywhere but here
2.hawaii
3. Italy

THREE CARTOON CHARACTERS:
1. SPONGEBOB
2. pikachu!
3. batman

THREE BOY’S NAMES:
1. asreal
2. gabriel
3. dante

THREE GIRL'S NAMES:
1. anelese
2.annie
3.april

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. have a baby
2. seek vengence on certain people
3. get married to trevor

I am going to a wedding today for someone close to me its going to be amazing and if you like my photography, there will be photos:)

Despite this last week being very tiring, i prevailed and at the end it turned out to be wonderful. I talked to my friend des a lot this weekend and she still hasn't named her ferret. ITS NAME SHALL BE LEMON. That is if she doesn't pick out a name in time. THIS IS TO YOU DES NAME THE FERRET or its name is Lemon.

I went to a four part haunted house called creepy word and screamed my head off. IT WAS AMAZING. After standing in line for three hours for it we decided to fast pass and go for the front. It was worth the thirty bucks it cost.


OK gbfn


Annie