everyone knew it was bound to happen. that i wouldnt keep with the titling scheme of my journals, well sometimes somthing amazing comes along and you just have to throw logic out the window, say fuck it and go with what your heart tells you, and mine tells me somthing i already know with every fiber of my being, I love  scourgekito-pandowyena and everything about her. Yuvi and i met through some strange circumstances, got together over some weird circumstances, been through a bunch of crap on all sides and are still standing here 1 year later. it may not seem like alot to some people but it is to me. ive never been with anyone over a few months in the past. and that was usually non consecutively, and thats a small part of why i am so happy today, but its less about that past and more about my past with her, i remember a long time ago, being scared to tell her how i felt. everyone else would always push me away, but eventually i did, and she told me she had felt that too, even though she had to say no, because she was already spoken for, it was nice that she could admit that. i knew already before then she wasnt like anyone else id ever fallen for, and even though there was that barrier, and i did my best to respect it, we had become very close friends, much closer than we were, hell, even her boyfriend at the time and i became pretty good friends, even though there were a couple obvious rocky patches, he and i stayed friends. eventually yuvi and i's time in the sun came, and 365 days later that sun aint set yet... it burns IT BURNS!!!

That being said i wish i was able to do somthing more for her than just an fa journal entry, i was gonna comission some art for us, but damn, moneys been bad this month. anyway nuff about that, Lets play the Misfit Rader Drinking game!!!, the rules as always are simple, drink your preferred liquor of choice while reading this article, take a drink every time you see a grammatical error! not too hard , but itl wreck your liver, i havnt met anyone whose completed this game (or even tried it) i myself will be skipping out on it as i promised yuvi i would take it easy on the booze, and on that bombshell its time to end Goodnight!

hawwo, Misfit here, confused and wondering how the hell i have so many page visits. i dont really do all that much here but hey im not about to complain. so lets get onto the updates. looking for work has gone better, job market up here for someone with my skill set is drier than if you were to bake the sahara desert, mix it with cinnamon and try to eat it all with a spoon. yeah a little ketchup would help but enough ketchup to cover the entire Sahara desert? thats a vast undertaking. something like some cheap oneshot supervillan would have done against superman back in the 30's "WOoooOOOoOOooOO i am ketchup man, bang the bottle mofo, its goin down" i dunno im still waking up

now that im done babbling time for things that actually matter  scourgekito-pandowyena has started uploading tons and tons of new monster paws pictures and we finally have pics for some of our newest members, and of course they all look fantastic. if you knew twig, youd know that's likely not a soda can hes holding in the pic, but a big can of lager. which is probably why he looks blitzed outta his gourd. but the real twigs not an alcoholic, he does like drinkin. i think he may have played my game a little tooo much.

Speaking also of the lovely pom, we've been together a touch over 9 months, and as it starts drawing closer i cant wait for my first anniversary with her. the longest ive ever been with anyone been a couple months, they've either gotten bored, annoyed. or they were a complete and total headcase who probobly should have been committed. but none of thats important. that section of the past don't matter, the only thing that matters is her, and the future, and as ours is together its probably be a good one. hell im mad and shes insane, we work great together ^W^. heres to the future, cant wait, but the time we take to get there together will be unforgettable <3

and on that bombshell its time to end, goodnight. (evn though its barely past 12 pm when im writing this) everyone whose still alive keep on playing the Misfit Rader Drinking Game ™ last one standing wins... um i guess i'l sketch somthing on paper bag or somthing. Cause livers are for the weak!!!!

while some things have been winding down and calming down some have been winding up and coming to a head. were gonna be moving soon, just a couple houses down but that doesn't make it any less of a total pain in the ass. but at least things arent quite as dire as they were when we were going to be evicted last month (thaks to the city and some bureaucratic bullshit that could have easilly be solved by me in 20 minutes with a trowell, anywhosits thats not such a problem anymore and to boot itl even be cheaper for a little more room, turns out the landlords been pleased with the work ive been doing around his property. basically ive become a bit of a groundskeeper. but i wont be getting paid saddly, however for my continuing work hes gonna knock about 300 bucks off the rent of the new place. which also has the advantage of being more roomy. hopefully with money being less tight thanks to that we'll all be able to relax and i can finally start saving some money for myself and things i need rather than just keeping the house afloat every month.

among other things my mate  scourgekito-pandowyena has made another bit of her usual awesomeness ^W^ if you click on that beautiful icon you can go to her page and see a couple of her most recent art pieces, even moreso i'd like to take a moment to plug our youtube channel for MonsterPaws, thats the group that she created that im a part of with  havenchaser and a bunch of our other friends some of them even have pages here, we do youtube lets plays and other assorted things. were trying to branch out but its slow going. we dont exactly have the best equipment or even set up to get everything done. but as we speak i am editing a new video to post up. i want to promise itd be up by the end of this week but with all the moving stuff im not likely to have alot of time to do so. but i will try.

if you wanna checkout our youtube channel you can see it here
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCg.....UMj9DxQ/videos

and if youd like to see the speedpaint for yuvi's halloween picture check it out here
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCg.....UMj9DxQ/videos

thats her personal channel and youl be able to see tons of her previoius speedpaints


and if you want to be in the loop about new video projects or even art streams in the future you can check out yuvi's twitter at yuvipom or my twitter at misfitrader and there is always the monsterpaws official one at monsterpawsyt

i've also noticed there arent many comments on any of my journals, i sincerely hope nobody is playing the official Misfit Rader Drinking Game™. if so it would explain everything. but if your liver isnt flying free with all the other livers playing little liver games with all the other free livers lets liberate it from your oppresive body and make it run in terror. lets play a round, you know the rules, *hears a knock at the door* now the cops are at my door telling me that i cant ask people to play that game cause it falls under cruel and unusual punishment so il probobly be going to jail for a very long time. And on that bombshell its time to end, Good Night!

well sadly not much news to talk about. asside from one awesome thing, as of 10/20/15 ive been with my mates for 3 months. heres to many more moons shared together for the rest of our days and beyond. i'l be moving soon and im also gonna finally be able to pick up a new hobby. Blacksmithing. anywho lets start the show with one of these halloween journal memes

VAMPIRE

[x] You'd Rather Be Pale Than Tan.
[X] You Like To Eat Or Drink Red Things. (Cherries ... yummy)
[X] You're Lustful/Sexual.
[x] When You're Kissing Someone, You Tend To Bite Them.
[ ] You're Dark, Mysterious, And Seductive.
[X] You've Tasted Your Own Blood Before And Liked It.
[x] Being Out In The Sun Too Long Makes You Feel Weak.
[ ] You're graceful, lithe, and can appear threatening or dangerous to others.
[ ] You have incredible charm and can get people to do nearly anything.
[X] You're more active at night

Total: 7


INCUBUS/SUCCUBUS

[ ] You're Incredibly Lustful/Sexual.
[x] Sex Is Almost Always On Your Mind.
[ ] You Could Make Someone Completely In Love With You By Merely Kissing Them.
[o] You're Not A Virgin.
[ ] You Burn Through Lovers Quickly.
[ ] You Can Make Love With Someone And Drop Them In The Same Breath.
[x] If You Don't "Feed" Your Lust, You Go Insane.
[ ] You Have Strong/Long Nails.
[ ] You Could Get Nearly Anyone You Want.

Total: 2 ish, the o one is reeealy up for interpretation...


WEREWOLF

[x] You have a bad temper.
[ ] You're incredibly physically strong and fast.
[x] You Love The Moon.
[X(6.02*10^23)] You're Very Loyal.
[x] If You Love Someone, You'll Do Whatever You Possibly Can To Protect Them.
[XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX] You Would Go On A Devastated Rampage Should Your Loved Ones Be Harmed.
[x] You Like Dogs.
[x] You're fairly Sturdy in stature.
[X] You're Either A Good Leader Or A Solitary Person.
[x] You Have A Hard Time Controlling Yourself Half Of The Time.

Total: 9 (900 bazillionn, im very protective of the ones i love)


NEKO(Cat-Person)/WERECAT

[x] You Like Cats.
[ ] You're lithe and agile.
[ ] You could fall off of anything and always land on your feet.
[ ] You Like Gymnastics.
[x] You Love To Eat Seafood.
[x] You're Affectionate And Cozy.
[ ] If Someone Is Able To Sneak Up On You And Startle You, You Jump Up Or Swat At Them.
[ ] You Like Yarn.
[ ] You Like Chasing Things.
[ ] You're An Excellent Hunter/Fighter.

Total: 3


ZOMBIE

[ ] You're An Outcast.
[x] You Feel As If You're Not Truly Alive.
[ ] You'll Moan When You're Hurt Rather Than Scream Or Cry
[x] You Tend To Zone Out.
[ ] You Don't Feel Very Smart.
[ ] You Like Worms.
[ ] You Like Taking Things Slowly.
[ ] You Like Odd Foods.
[ ] You Prefer To Suffer In Silence.
[x] You Don't Get Much Sleep.

Total: 3


SPIRIT/GHOST

[ ] You're Invisible.
[ ] You Have An Oddly Eerie Presence.
[ ] You Can Send Chills Down A Person's Spine Just By Looking At Them.
[x] You Have Messy Hair That Is Partially/Completely In Your Face.
[x] You're Incredibly Gentle.
[x] You're Very Shy Around Someone You Find Attractive
[ ] You Tend To Simply Disappear When no One's Looking.
[ ] You Enjoy Scaring People.
[ ] You Like The Indoors.
[x(to the billionth, you get the idea)] You Are Deeply Connected To The Ones You Love No Matter What Happens.

Total: 4


GHOUL

[ ] You Will Eat Just About Anything.
[ ] You Like To Attack People Verbally Or Physically.
[ ] You Are Thrilled If You Can Make Someone Bleed.
[ ] You Wouldn't Care If You Hurt Someone As Long As You Can Get What You Want From Them.
[ ] You Like Stalking People.
[ ] You Find It Fun To Crawl Into Tight, Small, Cramped, Dirty Spaces.
[x] You Get Hungry Easily.
[ ] You Like Torture.
[ ] You live to hurt people.
[ ] You Like The Idea Of Being Insane.

Total: 1


WITCH

[x] You're Into Wicca/Paganism.
[x] You Like Magical Objects.
[x] You Believe In Magic.
[x] You Perform Odd Rituals On A Daily Basis. (Not on a daily basis but yeah, sometimes)
[x] People Find You Intolerably Cruel.
[ ] You enjoy manipulating people.
[x] You Feel Deeply In Touch With Nature And Hate Industrialization.
[x] You Love Black Cats/Ravens.
[ ] You Practice Voodoo
[ ] You Tend To Laugh Hysterically While Picking Up On Someone You Find Attractive.

Total: 7


SHAPE-SHIFTER

[ ] You Have Different Personalities.
[ ] Your Style Could Change From Goth To Preppy In The Same Second.
[ish] You Have More Than One Lover.
[x] You're Unpredictable.
[ ] You Would Change Yourself Entirely To Fit In.
[x] You Are Fond Of Many Different Things.
[ ] You Can Easily Get Out Of Trouble By Changing Your Demeanor.
[ ] You often say one thing and mean another.
[x] You Like To Leave Your Clothes On The Floor After Taking Them Off.

Total: 3.5


DEMON

[ ] You Have A Very Bad Temper.
[ ] You're Usually Angry.
[ ] You Have To Make Other People Miserable With Every Breath That You Take.
[ ] You Worship Satan.
[x] You like pentagrams.
[ ] You love to mess with people's heads.
[ ] You Could Do Just About Anything Bad To Someone And Feel Proud.
[ ] You Laugh When Other People Are Hurt.
[ ] Physically Harming Someone Turns You On.
[x] You Respond To An Insult By Viciously Attacking The Other Person.

Total: 2


ANGEL

[ ] You're A Very Good Person.
[ ] You Take Care With Everything You Do.
[x] You Can Be Extremely Serious.
[ ] You're Gentle And Kind To Even Your Worst Enemies.
[ ] You Cannot Hold A Grudge Against Anyone.
[ ] You Would Gladly Endure Anything For The Sake Of The Ones You Love.
[ish] You're A Virgin/Have Never Kissed Anyone Apart From Family.
[ish] People See You As Being Very Pure
[ ] You Are Obedient And Follow Rules Without Question.
[ ] You Love God.

Total: 1 i guess


Fairy/Elf

[ ] You Enchant People.
[ ] You Like Organic Things.
[ ] You're Almost Always Smiling.
[ ] You Love The World Around You.
[x] You Get Attached To Animals Easily.
[ ] You're A Walking-Talking Chick-Flick/Prince-Charming.
[ ] You Fall In Love Easily.
[ ] You Don't HATE Anyone.
[ish] You Have A Very Bright/Bubbly/Friendly Personality.
[x] You like long hair

Total:2


i'm a werewolf vampire/warlock (i prefer warlock to witch or wizard, suits me better) i've never been good at simplifying things down to a simple yes or no. some things theres just so much to say. black and white just wont do. i live in gray.

i'l take this oppertunity to tag a couple people, My wonderful mates  scourgekito-pandowyena and  Havenchaser my brother  havokpaintedwolf and friends  azriandra  kaylaprower  yukonsilvermoon and

just plop an X on what suits you and leave what dosnt blank, or do like i did and make up your own rules

as always lets play the Misfit rader drinking game. if your livers arent cirhotic by the end of this journal then youre not trying hard enough.

Hiyo Misfit here once again and finally back on the computer. thanks to alot of weird shit thats been happening lately we have been so broke i actually had to pawn my laptop just to make sure wed have fuel to actually get down to cash our checks this month. seriously poverty is nothing short of a real pain in the ass. anyway on to the fun stuff, you may have seen my terrible pizza box scribble right? well when i did that i also did another picture of myself but this time with my mates Yuvi  scourgekito-pandowyena &  Havenchaser together holding hands. it was a really cute picture that they both kinda liked. admittedly it could have been better but they both thought it was cute and sweet, and that made me really happy. better yet yuvi is willing to help me out and sort of go over it in her style, il finally be able to see it how i imagined it. I used to be a pretty decent artist around 10 ish years ago, but i just sort of lost the spark and fell horribly out of practice, its now just somthing i do strictly to get a laugh sometimes or to give some people ideas like when i helped a couple friends design a website and helped another on making album art. but thats pretty easy. editing is alot easier than creating somthing from literally nothing. anyway hopefully we'll be able to do that soon and get it up for everyone to see. and of course the original, just for a sort of before and after thing.

sadly project pom in a box is sort of being dropped and shifted around a little bit, basically she found somone down near where she lives who actually makes fursuits, i wont say the exact price half beause i dont remember but im gonna be helping her save for that instead. cause for nearly the same as it would cost to get her mats for the head and equipment and ship it, she can have a head, paws and tail for maybe $40 more XD and i like the sound of that. so iil help her with saving, cause later on i may want to comission the person to make misfit for me, cause ive seen some of her work and its really good.

anyroad, iv'e gotta get going in a minute, no rest for the wicked.

as always lets play the Misfit drinking game, for any mispellings or grammatical errors take a drink, i recommend somthing light just in case, leave down in the comments below how badly ive blown out your livers. have fun ^^

anybody noticing a trend. so right now simple updates. project pineapple is still in the works. as always semi on hiatus till I can get the spare cash. though it maybe put off to the side for a wile cause ive gotta lot of stuff to cough up cash for, some I want to do some I don't. first and foremost basically bills have been piling up due to the cost of getting a vehicle for the house again so we ended up having to pawn a bunch of crap this month just to eat so weve gotta get all that stuff back. including my laptop ^^", yeah thankfully il have it back by tomorrow or this coming Tuesday. then weve still gotta pay bills, on the plus we'll be better off this month than last. next up is elite dangerous, im planning on getting it ive already got the money lined up so it wont be a problem. next is gym membership. because yeah im kind of fat but that's not the problem, problem is ive been losing weight and that means (urk) loose skin. so im gonna pt some muscle back in its place to fill the floppy gaps. but ive also gotta get some new shoes, workout clothes and some new headphones. earbuds cause full headphones would just get in the way. and I need my workout musix. def leppard. odd choice maybe but theres a story behind it that I will tell in a future journal when I get everything set up. then theres Project: Pom-in-a-box. aka monsterpaws care package. this one ive been workin on little by little. basically as a sort of birthday gift since the stuff she needs is scarce in her town. im putting together a package with everything my mate Yuvi will need to construct her own fursuit head much like im trying to do (she has prior experience doing similar things and is an amazing artist so I wouldn't be surprised if its like OFA quality or better) anyway that's one thing im really happy to do and cant wait till I send it her way. then ive also got some tings ive promised to friends that they've been waiting on so I really neeed to get that to them. but yeah. fun. some good some bad.
hey new plan. Misfit Rader's drinking game (I have a last name now ^w^ thanks hun) everytime I misspell something take a drink and tell me how your livers doing. or better yet don't torture it, unless you could drink uncle kage under the table. I think your liver will thnk you not to play. Cheers ^^

ello ello, long time no talk. so ive got a few updates on project pineapple. ive got the vaster majority of the painting done on him, a few touchups are needed. il have a pic uploaded soon, ive really gotta get around to making his eyes but moneys been tight lately and i havnt had the spare cash but eventually il need to get more fur, paint and foam to get started on my paws and my tail. eventually il have the extra money, ive got a couple jobs lined up. but of course i aint holding my breath, job market where im at has been lacking for people with mere entry level expirience. Anyway, back to project pineapple. i also have his ears finished up mostly all he needs is a little trim with fur to make a neck and i need to get my hands on some cheap fleece to line it, probobly gonna go with velcro so i can make this thing easy to clean, especially with summer on the horizon. and hopefully i can get it finished up most of the way so i can go in character to one of the millions of furmeets up in the local are. within about 30 miles and so lol. so yeah, thanks for taking the time to read this if ya did.

Project Pineapple is a go. thats what ive been nicknaming the project ive been working on, actually i started on it over a week ago. Project Pineapple is my attempt at constructing a fursuit head, my own of Misfit, my fursona. half just to see if i can do it. i watched as many tutorials as i could find for months and studied studied studied. but eventually it was time to pit it to test. i have his head almost completely furred, though, i went on the cheap and bought just plain white faux fur, cause it was the easiest to find in any large enough quantity. but i figured itd be easier and save alot of sewing if i just airbrush the details in later. fortunately i do have expirience in that. course till i can get a kit hes gonna just be white for a while. and sadly thanks to a few things i didnt account for, a little bit mousy XD. either way, even if it turns out horrible and falls apart quickly. il still be pround because these hands actually made it. il post some pics eventually

Well lookie here, two journals. wow if i keep this up i might have to come up with actual titles for these things. so recently i got to take a trip down to Roanoke VA to see my mom and her family. (hadnt seen her since i was around 1) in other news i finally did some art, theyre not the greatest but im not much an artist either so it all balances out. i plan on digitizing em but that may be a while off, till then il upload the snapshots i took as a bit of a teaser. BREAKING NEWS!!! im gonna start a new project just to try my hand at it. details forthcoming till i actually start it. il put them in my next journal which i shall title "Misfit Coydog: or how i quit worrying and became a furry"

Woo, i finally figured out what to write about. my apologies if it takes me forever to do anything on my page, i keep forgetting my password and my login XD. lets see, i still need to update my info and such on here. still trying to figure this site out. anywho i may upload some "art" soon, regardless of what it says on my profile im not much of an artist, i dabble in music, art, photo editing and a bit of web design. hows that old saying go again, jack of all trades master of none? so my name, Antox, its one of my generic names i was gonna use for a sonic persona, that kinda evolved into a full on fursona who became named Misfit, my eternal thanks to Scourgekito Pandowyena for the original design and the name. i guess it kinda was part of me "coming out" as a furry, call it cliche but i knew i was a furry for a long time, but unfortunately i have alot of friends and family that believe alot of the negative stereotypes about us.

Misfit, me is part of a group called monster paws. also created by SK, and someday we plan on going to cons in fursuit... well when we can afford them that is #monsterpawsAC2020 lol. actually i hope itl be alot sooner than that. so yeah, thats my first journal post, more to come sometime, thanks