I have been of late thinking of developing a character suited for environments such as water worlds and for a series that is being developed known as The Creatorverse. I of course am rather fond of it and I have been considering creating an Orca herm whom is a cytran with a can do attitude and not only is flirty but just is ever curious from down under to the wild blue yonder.

UPDATE: Here is the basic blueprint I have so far if anyone is interested.

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/32755897/

I was just thinking of some things for a little bit and was thinking of either learning to fly in a introductory course to flying or recreational diving since I have a swimming pool though it is hardly two meters deep. While I do enjoy swimming and trying to stay at the bottom of my pool at times, I think since if I can save up and maintain enough money I can become a sport and maybe someday a commercial pilot low entry. It’s all your choice. Would like to hear what is going on all of ya furry minds. :-P

Someday but not today, I have thought of some sort of advanced nano bot technology that can conceive, alter and eliminate at will plus expand or contract in mass, size, shape or one of the other. Perhaps within our lifetime such technology would have matured to a viable point of fixing material but as far as I know, it is moot. Honestly I really wished this would happen sooner but this as far as it sounds is a work of Star Trek like fiction. Just some ideas, but hey; a kat can dream...

I have decided just about now that I am not welcome in the Chakat community and I would be better off somewhere else. Some may think I have likely came here to use others but as far as I know, I certainly wanted to enjoy what it is here for and wanted to get along with everyone but unfortunately it is not always possible.

Anyway, I thank everyone for their inspiration and pleasant support. Tail high...

I swear I had one of my the most bizarre dreams yet. Just woke up and I was with my family at some tropical river near the coast and suddenly some ridiculous storm swallowed me up along with everyone else. I couldn't grab a hold of anything and found myself falling into an unknown vortex and Q watching me and telling me subconsciously, "You're out of your league. You should have stayed where you belonged..."

So i have heard of a Facebook post regarding some large group of people thinking of raiding Area 51 or more officially known as part of the Edwards Air Force base detachment center. About over 600,000 people have signed up for a large gathering to overwhelm the defenses of the base security and get in to see the “aliens”. I am honestly sure some out there including the USAF would consider if they were them trying to get in, they’d start heading back asap.

I have thought for a couple of minutes about life and why I came here. I have always wanted to be a part of something big and do my best not to cross paths with anyone. However, I was delusioned and I became obsessed over the bad stuff which got the better of me.

If only I had waited longer and developed to come into the fandom, I would perhaps be venting these as much as I have recently. I have to admit to some degree that I have been manipulative and immature and for a while I have been a burden on everyone’s end.

Had I waited, had I waited and worked to better myself with what I needed to know and be a better, more mature being, then all of this would be moot. However, I will always have my doubts on life. I’d rather die somewhere remote and be sweeped up by some pickup truck.

Just venting. You may ignore me as you wish.

After nearly three years here in this good fandom, I have gone through so many new things and I have to admit at times we all have something to lose and gain. I wonder when such a time will come. Does being alive serve any valid arguable point these days or we are just mere beings in flesh waiting to die and be scrapped out of existence and be shammed by the great beyond.

*sighs* Welp, I can always unpack shop and drag my small, little backpack into the desert alone and go unconscious in the hopes of being forgotten and people would happily move on and be living a happy life.

I have been wondering what my next character should be next. The other thing I am unsure what is what should it's species be.

Vote now :3

Tiger morph (Tina) female
Tina the Tiger morph on Chakona: Her personality consists of a spicy attitude and prefers to wear jeans over other things and tends to be easily tempered and is not shy at all of showing that.

Orca anthro (SeaBreeze) herm taur
Seabreeze the orca-taur, offically known as the Banjourians: Hir personality tends to be mischief and humor. Is a bit of an wanderlust of hirself and hir species are commonly gold diggers of celestial worlds mostly with large bodies of water. the species that you mention are gold diggers and are not shy of pulling pranks

Wyrkat version of myself?

Just to see what does everyone think. I am not entirely sure if I would like to pursue or not.

I have thought of starting one of these jet versus jet competition and getting to know who’s preference is what. For this i have decided to talk about the sabre vs mig discussion. They are both even matched aircraft yet have unique quirks and features. I’m a bit on the fence but love the high caliber cannons of the Mig and love the optical computing gun sight of the Sabre. While the Sabre can fly faster and turn better at higher speeds, the Mig can out-climb it and can preserve energy better with a highest thrust to weight ratio.

UPDATE: I have bought the F-86F Sabre and have found it overall more effective in a dogfight and has better overall build quality.

I need to stop being sorry for myself, others and being apologetic.

Because of that and my fear of being critically judged and shunned, I have shot myself in the foot and I blew it up, all sky high.

I seriously have an issue of feeling self empowered and having trouble loving for who I am.

I sincerely hope this will help me and for the next one as well. Lately i have been less stellar than in the past and i can say that my anxiety and obsession of the past has played a large role and has influenced my better judgement. I just want to get better and start being more happy with everyone and enjoying the now than stuck in the past with those horrifying thoughts coming into my head.

Peace to all of you.

UPDATE:

Just came back from the therapist and initially it was a bit difficult opening up. Slowly i started expressing what I remembered and started talking to the psychiatrist.

Just venting; Nothing to see here. I honestly wish I never came here in the first place. I'm just a chump looking to create problems for no good reason. I just wish to cease existing. I'm not worthy of continuing to be around here if I'm unwanted by the cool guys. It's probably all in my head and I need to get help soon.

I swear in my dreams last night i was at home just cleaning up some old things till I was knocked out by some drugs and found myself inside a government facility where the secretary of Defense told me i have to board some starship and become a Chakat like the luckily picked selectees. They then forcibly dumped me into some liquid and I came out as my Chakat self. They then took me to the ocean and had us board some submarine and the ship just launched from the sea towards space. Elon Musk even admitted he was responsible for this secret project to colonize space.

I am finally going to be building my own gaming PC and once i get the case today, I’ll power my baby and once i get vga to hdmi cord, i shall begin installing good old windows 10.

Wish me luck ^.^

I just want to thank everyone who has tried to help me feel better of myself and the troubles I have gone through.
even though sometimes I also end up tumbling and blowing things out of proportion than it needs to be. I admit I am rather socially awkward as you have seen in the past instance
all of you have contributed to enriching my life indirectly and I cannot thank you all enough. This place has been a community I have never experienced before.

UPDATE: Just earlier I have been feeling a little icky at looking at some really icky tweets. You are not obligated to read about this.

*sighs* There is a saying that the road to hell is paved with good intentions while the road to heaven is paved with good work.

I wish to those a safe and peaceful passage out of the mess carried out by a few rotten apples. Hopefully in time it will all go back to peace, but we don't know for sure. Please, be safe out there.

*gives a warm close hug to everyone*

Have thought for a while and with a new job, i am ambitious and i want to play more games like Space engineers, DCS and the likes.

Here is my build list for those curious:

https://pcpartpicker.com/user/Avoca.....o/saved/Hq7kdC

Feel free to add input

EDIT: I have done a bit of some refinements as you can see over on this link; https://pcpartpicker.com/user/Avoca.....o/saved/XMBNQ7

I just woke up and had a another chakat dream but this time i became one and surgeons took my brain out of my head and cybernetically transfused my memories and transferred it to a new brain in the chakat that resembled me.

I also saw Dr. Syzgy with them giving the orders to take me out of my human body and into the kat.

So I guess i am a chakat and all of this reality is a simulation observing us all and i could eake up any moment in a facility with chakat doctors.

As i woke up, I recall witnessing honey bees literally coming out of the ground by the grass, getting sucked away into a dark water tunnel, going to some odd school that every little thing is unconventional and Goldfur taking me by the hand with care to the shuttle craft. Just weird...

At least the last part was rather lovely 😊

EDIT: Some more detail:

I have saw hundreds and hundreds of bees coming out to get me and they were everywhere
They took me while stinging me and threw me into some hole that sucked me underwater towards an abyss
I then was woken up by a talking cat and noticed there was a unusual school which supposedly was an institution of magic
As hours passed of my presence at the facility, i saw a taur figure far down the tunnel with light at the end. Goldfur and Forestwalker showed up and asked me to follow them to the Federations shuttle craft

As i just woke up, i recall the memories of being outside of my old house and taking out the trash cans as the garbage truck was waiting outside and suddenly, everything went black and i was hearing subtle creepy music. I looked completely shallow and i lacked my memories and own personality as I slowly floated awayinto darkness towards a deathlike being.

I had to write this down, just why?

Why do they always just have to be there suddenly. They keep popping up and it all seems a breeze till you get stuck with these damn near impossible pictures you have to verify to them that you are "Not a robot" .

There must be a better way than this, seriously.

I have been thinking for some time about these two particular aircraft and their functionalities. They technically both are built to take out aircraft but each possess a different origin. The first one, which is the Phantom II is built to take down Soviet bombers from a distance without a gun and instead using radar guided Sparrows. The latter is really a dog fighter and labeled as "The Last Gun fighter" with it's four Mk 12 Colt 20mm cannons .

I know over the few years and moments that have gone by have been rather rough and hurting on me and all else, I think I might see some sort of light at the end of the tunnel. All of you have made my moment fans and friends.

Lately he hasn’t been eating the food he has been fed, plus he has gotten a bump on his nose and a red mark underneath his belly. So today we took him to the vet to hopefully remedy this dilemma and wish to Mino he is back to his old self.

UPDATE: Our cat has started eating again and is returning back to his old playful self. The doctors and vet were of little to no help and we were almost about to pay upwards of $700 just to attempt to diagnose our cat. Why bother seeking help nowadays if the goal of healthcare these days is taking money out of our wallets?