Furries, the final furtier... These are the voyages of the furry fandom. Their continuing mission, to explore new art trends, to seek out new species and unique civilizations... To Boldly yiff where no furry has been before.

As we leave behind our flawed and corrupt way of humanity, we shall embrace the new and improved lifestyle that the furry fandom offers to us.

Anyway, this is my take on what new comers see as they familiarize themselves with the inside workings and silliness that entails in the fandom.


Also, just me being silly cause why not. :-P Had to let out something funny for once to keep my sanity in check.

I just don't know really what to say anymore...

Why am I constantly getting this horrible, unwanted feeling of being seen as an outcast and no matter how hard I try to drill it out, it keeps coming back. I need to get some sort of help somehow soon. I have even had trouble sleeping for the past few days as I was also a bit sick and down as I tried to distract myself with videos. Hence Insomnia at its worst. The best I can do now is hope that I can sleep on to avoid waking up to seeing the brutal world.

Why am I posting these things?

Update: Sorry for posting these things. As much as I want to break this chain and seek support advice, I also need to see a licensed professional.

I am currently hoping to lose a few pounds, get a job and better rid my crippling depression via therapy. I'd like to hear a few or more.

I certainly hope all is going well and tis the end of this year is rather delightful, so be it and have a ball or perhaps a mistletoe hanging right below. Show me what is your holiday is like and perhaps I'll do just as asked. ;3

The house we are all moving soon will be so much better and it is not rented, fully bought. It will be a little bit smaller but will make up for with a salt water pool, jacuzzi, and rooms that can be converted to bedrooms. Plus we won’t be living on top of a steep hill and being far away from stores and malls to shop at. Soon enough, when we get the keys, good grief! :-D

I have watched about three episodes and I simply found the experience heart warming while leaving my issues back on Earth.

Along with the great humor and jokes, Seth Mcfarlane's series nailed it right where the classic star trek has in terms of plot lines and moral ethical values along with similarities in today's issues.
It is also quite hilarious to watch. I will not introduce spoilers for those uninitiated but go check out the trailer!

It's been about two years to date. I have been thinking, or for some time at least been assessing if I should remain here at all. You see, over time I have met many great people and even have joined them via discord and the likes.

At one point did I feel like them, but I have began to feel awkward in what I do.
It may just be myself or something is getting worse from within.
Thank god however I am seeing a therapist for my anxiety, stress and feeling of being left out.
You can say that i was here to manipulate and betray everyone because i am delusional deep down.
I wish it didn’t have to be like this :P(
Atleast i have a welcoming family and irl people i can speak to.


If anyone is curious about these journals, I’m not trying to pander attention and manipulate everyone but i am feeling that i have reached a low, low point in my emotional and mental health.

Well to sum it up, it was quite a bit hard to open up about how to explain my anxiety and my low self worth to the counselor. I basically even teared up a bit and reached for the napkin.

For some few minutes, I was quiet and just did not know what to say. Quiet I was, but I had to do something. I thought about talking about how to spot what is going on with my cognitive behavior and when to catch me in the midst of it. I should go again next week from now and talk a bit more of it and how to manage it. Plus I received a list of therapists to go to that accept my health insurance.

I haven’t been in the best spirits lately. Hopefully i will get to the counselor this Friday and try to let out as much i feel comfortable.

All of you deserve better and should feel otherwise of my pain from my scarred wounds.

However, this will all later flyby and i will seek for a field with an ever present dayview of the sun and colorful medow. Of course that won’t always be the case, but we must at least try to have an open mind and look at things in a positive way.

Non of us are perfect. Hell, not even the Vulcans or Ferengi of that matter.

I simply think it is only a matter of time unless i do something quick. I am seeking therapy at the moment and will see one this Friday.

The issue is that i am just getting these negative images of myself as some horrible unwanted person and eventually exiled.

I hopefully can rid of this obsession and constant intrusion of fear and rejection

Just earlier I have came across an old iBook G3 snow white online for only about $60. Mostly everything works well and I even manage to use my 16gb flash drive seemingly works across my modern Intel Macbook Pro and of course the vintage iBook. I have loaded it up with some good old games and software and to perhaps someday use it to transfer files to even older macs as a bridge system.

Today is the day i was born. The day i open my eyes and see the sunrise before me. The day i take my first breath and take a glimpse of what is yet to come for me in the coming years. Many wishes and blessings to me and many more will come...

Happy birthday.

I never expected to be here this long already. Time sure went bu fast...

After the time being here and of all things happening to me as I progress to improve myself and try to seek a place to beling towards, i have fallen through some dark holes and climbed outwards with effort. I couldn’t have done these things without the people that helped me through the storms we embraced together.


Update: a thing or two i would like to also bring to the table is some of the issues i have developed in the past couple of years before this place. One some more depression along with some dark thoughts of the past and some hallucinations i get out of nowhere. I have also long thought of a psychologist but i am afraid of the costs and do not have the money for. I am sure that i have some health care with me so i can refer to that. Better yet, i can see the health counselor at the college campus to better manage my over wandering mind.

Alternate beginning timeline of chakat universe

1950's-1960's: counter culture revolution and Vietnam conflict
1969: First man on the Moon
1970's: Group of philosophers, researchers and politicians gather after UN council meeting backroom conceive of plan to improve humanity.
1985-1990: Human genome has been mapped out completely without knowledge of the public and first genetically altered humans were secretly released to be evaluated by scientists of their performance among the general population.
1990's-2020's: The beginning of new genetic research abroad of the western region to create chimera's in embryos.
2029: China unveils their first batch of morphs and creates worldwide outrage to the religious community. The scientific community is stunned and cannot study them due to strict laws in China forbidding research export. Russia eventually comes up with their own morphs and China is angered by the fact they had stole their intellectual research by Russian spies disguised as Chinese Nationals.
2030's-present: Mass breeding of morphs to be utilized for sex trade, fighters and servants by other countries such as Japan, India, Afghanistan and especially as well in the US eventually. Morphs did become a commonplace being within homes as either family or otherwise lesser beings such as pets and slaves. (2090: sex trade, fighters, etc have been phased out and morphs have been granted equal rights in most nations on Terra)
2050: Gene Wars: I believe we already know how this will play out

say what you like and I can add further information

Oddly, I found out I wasn't meant to be on Earth, but on Chakona as a chakat. In a bizarre dream I had last night, I was doing my usual business and went to the bank to deposit some cash, then a security guard approached me and ordered me to come with him into the bank. Afterwards, I was in an underground basement all by myself and I heard whispering in the dark and saw three black robed individuals which resembled the members of Organization XIII. They walked up to me slowly and then, offered me either a blue or red pill. I chose the blue one but realized I have just sealed my fluffy fate. I started to experience dizziness and became unconscious for some time till about 4 1/2 hours.

I later woke up at a covert air base and was being blind folded and sitting in a chair, then being freed of the blindfolds and seeing the shadowy figures once again. Before me, I saw a group of men gathering and whispering to each other of what to do with me and what is going to happen should I not be removed or left. Had I stayed, they said the world will be in grave danger and Earth will perish by a disaster we can not control ourselves as humanity. If I left, order and peace will be restored and I will embark on an adventure I will never forget and will be forbidden to return home. They then summoned a alien looking figure to take me and drag me away down a long hallway. I was thrown in an elevator of some sort and the figure left and closed the doors and the car moved upwards with no lights on but the buttons lit up. After a few minutes, the doors opened and a group of furry beings, known as chakats greeted me with hugs and told me I have to come with them cause Earth is in danger. I then followed the group and then boarded some plane which really was a space plane. I sat in the business compartment with the whole group. The door closed and there was no going back now.

The space plane was towing itself and slowly backed away from the terminal as it prepared to taxi to the large runway. I looked by as before we took off, there was nothing but desert surrounded and just a dry, dead land this base was sitting in. After given the clearance for takeoff, the engines began to rumble quite loudly and could even hear it coming into the cabin as it revved up thrust. The brakes were released and slowly it moved forward but it then got faster to the point we all were pushed hard to our seats. I then felt a sensation of being airborne along with the rest of the party as everything below from the window shrank like micro machines. Shortly after, the plane went supersonic and we proceeded with heading out of Earth as soon as the system switches to rockets.

A couple hours later, while somewhere in high orbit, a star ship comes about in massive size as we approach it slowly. The leader of the chakats in the group informed we needed to enter the transporter room to get aboard it. The plane had no docking mechanism of such sort but it could land inside. One by one, then a few after the other we were all inside the transporter room of a star corps exploration class vessel greeted by the commander of the transporter room, who too is a chakat. The rest of the story is for those to guess what happens next.

After more than two years here, and nearly two years as a chakat and a year on one of the chakat servers, I have to many came a long way. However, somewhere in my mind is begging me to ask myself this question, why am I even here in the first place?

I kinda almost forgot. I’m sorry, but where is the worth these days? I’ve had enough sour grapes and plenty of things gone haywire, what else is next for me planned? I might as well get ready to be swept up by next morning by the skeleton crew. Also, sorry if I have been chewing on more than I can chew. I think I might have been disrespectful in some way and I just didn’t see it coming.

Why be here if I can’t love myself for who I am?

UPDATE: I have thought of a few things but I just need not forget the people who made being here and with them together a better time. Of all the darkness I have seen, I have yet seen so much light coming in from the very people I have met. Thank you for your understanding.

Whoever is reading the direct above, that means you. Thanks for being here sincerely...

Why should I ever care to say a word in the name of expressing my feelings to help relieve pain from within?

Why should I ever look to people for help when I’ll inevitably be silenced in such a vacuum we call the real world, when the elite have complete control and have free reign over everything?!

*sighs* what’s the point? Well, I just don’t know. It all started all warm and peachy but then ended up sour in my mouth. So much for the excitement and happiness I was initially seeking.

However on the bright side, there will always be people who will stand along with me and look after my back.

Heyo everyone, I have had this thought for a bit some time and was thinking if any of ya all had an artist in mind and what other ideas would work better.

Here is my proposed idea. A pyramid of chakats standing in front of the Cat's Eye Pub and at the very top is the team leader.

Over the period of time being here, I have seen things and met people whom are more or less friendly. Unfortunately, my poor self esteem and confidence has plummeted downwards due to my fear, ignorance and superstition. My old, jolly self somewhere died.

Indeed I am quite a dark age, but it’s not all black and white. Sometimes time is on all of our side but alas, we only have so much time on the planet to make our stand and limited chances to show our true colors.

If anyone reads this, take this if you will with a grain of salt. I am just venting out my feelings and get in better touch with what is going inside my head. *sighs*

I don’t know why I got myself into this in the first place. Maybe I just leaned too far into the rabbit hole and bit more than I could chew. I know this sounds rather pessimistic of me but for those who care nonetheless, thank you for your noble gesture and understanding. These feelings and memories are not too easy to evade and must be dealt with by a clinical professional.


*update:* Though I felt I needed this to be addressed, I had some fears that a few will judge me which would have stopped me right in my tracks from speaking to people in a support group.

I Have thought of some things overtime and felt I need to open up a little bit. I have had these horrible feelings come into my head and I am trying to sort them out. I have been diagnosed with autism when I was four years of age. A I have grown up and soak my head with knowledge all around other people from alternate walks of life.

I realize I may be depressed from the wounds I have sustained from my past and I need to see therapy. However, I think eventually I will push through and improve my inner self.

All friends and fellow people, I would like some input of what would you like to see from me in the future. Let me know in the comments please, I’ll speak to ya shortly! :3

Tail high!

-Chakat Avocado

She has passed away at about 8-9 months old and will be forever with us. She has been a welcoming asset to the family and has provided love and affection while with us.

She has passed away at about 8-9 months old and will be forever with us. She has been a welcoming asset to the family and has provided love and affection while with us.

Just a few hours ago, I have decided to commission the legendary Kacy. Here's hoping, or should I say she will certainly deliver admirable results and develop new connections. Quite a pricy take, but worthwhile as this is the big deal!

Hello there all, I am currently in bed and unfortunately this kitteh is quite sick. Slowly getting better but not in best spirits. It has been raining crazily for the past few days now and outside the weather appears to be deviating towards a rather sunny one. Wish to all a great day and tail high! ^.^