Mandatory yearly journal entry.

My last journal entry was a year ago. Heh.

Conceived was I
From Chaos and hate
Of malice, deceit and blood
And how would they know
My fate is to rise
Against the Asagods
My being is full, full of a rage
An evil that can't be tamed
It darkens my soul
And blackens the blood
A fire that fills my veins

So how
Did I ever end up here?
Humiliated, broken and weak
I've waited
For a thousand years
To break these chains apart and
To finally break myself free

I bit the hand, off the mighty Tyr
When I couldn't, tare my ties
Now banished I dwell
A sword in my jaw
Awaiting the end of time
In darkness I drown
Consumed by my hate
Longing for revenge
All father will pay
For his deceit
At the battle
Of Ragnarok

A Beast Am I
So vicious and grim
They fear my mean
Grinning teeth
I bide my time
My sweet revenge
Soon my ties will fall
And finally I will be free

So when you hear me howling
You'll know that I have come for you
When you hear me call your name
Your life will end in nameless pain

Conceived was I
From Chaos and hate
Of malice, deceit and blood
And how would they know
My fate is to rise
Against the Asagods
My being is full, full of a rage
An evil that can't be tamed
It darkens my soul
And blackens the blood
A fire that fills my veins

A Beast Am I
So vicious and grim
They fear my mean
Grinning teeth
I bide my time
My sweet revenge
Soon my ties will fall
And Finally I will be
Finally break myself!
Finally I will be free!

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That song deserves some sort of visual homage. Once I can wrap my head around all the stuff I have to do at the moment (and there's plenty) I'm SO going to do that.

\m/ Fenrisúlfr \m/

Song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pZGdHtNUOkA

For people that don't fancy black metal as a part of their musical diet, head right over to the instrumental part here http://youtu.be/pZGdHtNUOkA?t=3m38s - no screaming, no smashing drums - just awesomeness! Promised. Click it, you know you want to.

Read the lyrics first, then 'try' to listen to the song, becuase none of ya will like it.. :b
This song reflects about 99.8% of my believes. Hot damn wow awesome omg holy shit amazing fuck wtf holy cow man holy crap crazy yay sexy lluvia de chanes oh snap stip liquor gosh what cool a ...

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Everyone is doing their best to destroy it
Simplicity's forgotten
And we all drill the ground
I stand free
I refuse to be surrounded
The stones and dust bite hostile
devours flesh and bone
The weakest lost in hatred
Consequence is upon my door
Responsible for my own life
I'm reborn again and again

Driven to increase my own power
by creation the purest choice
Destined to rule my life
and go the way of all flesh
Nature is my only master
I will bow to no one
The ground is dry like rock
without any hope left
But now I decide to grab my life
with my hands
Crave for freedom build my own life
Adoration for none

Reaction is a weakness the strong cannot afford
My path is not determined by actions of others
They fill themselves with hate
Covering their faces blackened
the wolves are back and crave to kill
Slip on stones and break their legs
Try to hide from termination
But the time has come
You will have to pay the debt of nature

And now you are the one
To change the face of the world
You wield the sword the pain is left aside
And I have left my tears behind me
So I refind the way I that I know
So bright to me
And I only adore the fact that we are the
creators
of our own lives
Lust for power is the master disease of our time
This force alone devours the weak
and rules the strongest

So mired in convolution
It chokes the life from your throat
Break the chains of complication
I breathe the air of freedom

There is no room for your judgment
My life is mine alone
I purge myself of resentment
I breathe the air of freedom
Breathe...


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4_jQmYiUh-g

Static noise

For now. Horribly busy with essays, a CD cover commission
(alas it has nothing to do with anything furry, but it's still a
very cool concept and one I can absolutely work with).

Here's the link however. You gotta love the symmetry and
the line work.

This.

Meh.. what a sad month. It will take almost another year till next halloween. And as this wasn't frustrating enough, no, it will take me another year until I can use the printmaking facility of my college on the weekends. I have some nifty ideas concerning furry art, especially with some of the print techniques (lithography/screen printing and etching) but by no means the will to do it while the workshop is crowded with students and teachers.

I just couldn't give a rats ass to explain people the fandom. Especially with that cute girl in my class who I really don't want to scare away. Yet.

On the upside: another year to practice the techniques / another year to work on those ideas.

There are two things in life, which carry an uttermost brilliant certainty.
Death. And the moon. I am quite sure the first one crossed your mind
at one point in your life, although we are masters in not taking notice of
it until someone close passes away.

But how many of you have realized, that from the day you were born
till the day you will die, the moon was and will always be there?

She has kissed the landscape with her bluish lips while your ancestors
roamed this planet and will continue to do so long after your bones are
nothing but dust, again.

A comforting thought, is it not?

No clouds will taint her brilliant shine this night.
The Galway Bay is illuminated and beckons.
Enjoy the full moon. I certainly will.

The_Song_You_Hate

these are the dark days painted in greys
we only give a fuck if we don't get paid
we'll suck cock on long walks to the beach
with an amway sunset
the cute boys, cute girls walk this line
with a real big smile
stop bringing me back to this place
and get that cold smile off of your face
you're too weak, too strong, too dumb, too blond,
too old, too young, too right, too wrong,
too broke to get rich, too rich to give a shit,
too fucking lazy, a real fucking crazy,
using all the bad drugs, should be on these drugs,
not informed to vote, get a 401k
stop bringing me back to this place
and get that cold smile off of your face...
these are the dark days painted in greys...
stop bringing me back to this place
and get that cold smile off of your face...

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Fading words in a dying world. Inspiring, nonetheless.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vaA8PkkqHIM

And now on the 21st Century, it's time to stand up and realize, that we should NOT allow ourselves to be crammed into this rat maze. We should not SUBMIT to dehumanization. I don't know about you, but I'm concerned with what's happening in this world. I'm concerned with the structure. I'm concerned with the systems of control. Those that control my life, and those that seek to control it EVEN MORE! I want FREEDOM! That's what I want, and that's what YOU should want! It's up to each and every one of us to turn loose of just some of the greed, the hatred, the envy, and yes, the insecurities, because that is the central mode of control, make us feel pathetic, small, so we'll willingly give up our sovereignty, our liberty, our destiny. We have GOT to realize we're being conditioned on a mass scale. Start challenging this corporate slave state!

The 21st Century's gonna be a new century! Not the century of slavery, not the century of lies and issues of no significance, of classism and statism, and all the rest of the modes of control... it's gonna be the age of humankind, standing up for something PURE and something RIGHT! What a bunch of garbage, liberal, Democratic, conservative, Republican, it's all there to control you, two sides of the same coin! Two management teams, bidding for control of the CEO job of Slavery Incorporated! The TRUTH is out there in front of you, but they lay out this buffet of LIES! I'm SICK of it, and I'M NOT GONNA TAKE A BITE OUT OF IT! DO YA GOT ME? Resistance is NOT futile, we're gonna win this thing, humankind is too good, WE'RE NOT A BUNCH OF UNDERACHIEVERS, WE'RE GONNA STAND UP, AND WE'RE GONNA BE HUMAN BEINGS! WE'RE GONNA GET FIRED UP ABOUT THE REAL THINGS, THE THINGS THAT MATTER - CREATIVITY, AND THE *DYNAMIC* *HUMAN* *SPIRIT* THAT REFUSES TO *SUBMIT*! WELL THAT'S IT, that's all I've got to say. It's in your court now.

Alex Jones - Waking Life