The first good news of 2021:
Ya know how I thought my charger was broken? The one I got less than a year ago?
Turns out I just hadn't taken the time to get to know my charger. I'm pretty sure the old one stayed lit up when it was charging if the tablet was off, though maybe I'm remembering wrong. The new one only lights up if both it is correctly plugged in (already assumed that) and the tablet is on (that's the bit I didnt know)
So...pretty sure the cord works just fine
Yay

2020 was...something. That's for sure. For me personally it actually started out fairly nice. My mom had won a trip to aruba and took me. I got to gallop a horse through the desert. (Dessert? Which ones a place which ones food?)


But like a month later everything went bad. Some of it's obvious, yall were here through 2020 too. Lost the jobs I was doing besides art. They were temo things so doesnt even count as unemployment but that's not what matters anyway.

[i]If you cant handle dark stuff I understand. Skip the next 2 maybe 3 paragraphs[/i]

This is: Somewhere must have been march, just before lockdown my dad ended up in the hospital. What for? Honestly not entirely sure. It was likely covid because he later tested positive for antibodies (long before testing positive for covid in the early summer). We think it was because of his symptoms. Noone tested him then though. When he got out of the hospital it was straight into lockdown (he was at a physical rehab). Then he got covid (again?) In the early summer. He was negative a few weeks later and from then on but it had taken its toll. On December 7th he passed. They new from around midday that day it was likely his last so thankfully they called us and we got to go say goodbye. He wasnt talking and it was hard to tell if he was conscious but he was there. I could barely manage to talk to him I mainly spent the time begging the people there to find a way to help him.

I miss him so much. It still feels like we are waiting for the next visitation day it doesnt feel real. In fact as I type this know a part of me thinks I'm lying and is wondering why I would say such a horrible lie, but it is the truth. He should have been in group 1a to get the vaccine. But he died just days before it started going out. He wasnt even all that old he was 66. (Semi political in parenthesis: I keep thinking if they hadnt made that stupid rule in my state putting recovering covid patients into rehabs and nursing homes I might still have my dad. He was living there because of a stroke years ago. They were required to take in nonresidents with covid, while at the same time being locked down to family visits because might bring covid) Ranting wont change anything though. I've been sharing memories of him with my twin and my mom.

One of my favorites of these memories might be a bit of a shock to some who dont already know this about me. So to those who didnt already know I'm a lesbian. (Panromantic ace heavily leaning lesbian but close enough) I realized this must be like 4 years ago now? Maybe five? I've lost track. I've openly identified as ace since long before but when I realized I was gay as well I had decided to go to pride. Obviously way prepandemic. I told my parents I was going as an ace. Which was part true. My mom joined me to some of the local pride events and I ended up telling her the truth that first night after attending a pride shabbat service with her (Putting this to explain she knew already and how I eased her into the news, oh my twin knew from way earlier) I was terrified about telling my dad. Honestly I'm not sure why. I just was. I continued to attend pride as an ace as far as he knew and in this time gap he had moved into the rehab. Surrounded by older friends at all times. Couldnt tell him now, I felt, what would they think. Would it ruin his friendships there? Clearly I was worried for nothing. On fathers day, the final fathers day before the covid lockdown. Ya fathers day. Me and mom were visiting dad. He was sat in the dining room at his usual spot friends nearby all watching tv. We had brought him food. Maybe chicken? Now that I think about it probably cannoli we brought that for special occasions. One of his favorites. Being june there was something about pride on the news. He motions to it and said something like you go to that right? I gave a quiet yes. I saw nervous how his friends would react. They didnt. I believe he waited until my mom was throwing out the napkins from his food before he asked me if I liked girls. I truthfully and very embarrassedly (it's a word if I make it one) told him that yes I like girls I like boys on occasion too. But usually girls. Though I explained I didnt have a girlfriend and never had. I was so scared how hed react. I dont know why. He watched shows with gay characters, pretty sure he liked ellen degeneres, he never seen to be anti anyone for being who they were, basically I had no reason to think he would have a problem with it. I just had that fear. But his response. I wish I could remember the exact words but basically told me he fully accepted me and didnt care who I was with as long as we were happy. And he hugged me. It was one of the happiest moments of my life and I'm so glad he asked because if he hadnt I dont think I'd ever have been able to tell him. My other favorite memories with my dad mostly all involve water. He taught me to ride the waves by holding me in them, showed me how to walk sideways to fight the waves to get out to the deeper areas easier, spent time with me at waterparks, even once when I was turning 18 (19? I think 18) and asked it be treated as my fifth birthday like the dorky little I was, we went to a water park and I noticed he stayed close alot more and offered to help with something involving getting the food no teenager would have needed that help. Made me feel proper little and I really loved that he did that even though the exacts are lost to time. I really love and miss him. I've told these stories many times this month but I feel like they should be shared so his memory continues on.


2021 cannot be fully better for me because my dad will not be joining us but I really hope it can be a good year otherwise. I know it's just a changing of number but with the vaccine coming its hope.

I really hope everyone will get the vaccine. I understand the hesitation, but I don't want to lose anyone else. I care alot about you all. Especially furfamily and close friends. I love you all so so much.

Of course I mean getting the vaccine when it's your turn. I do not advocate line skipping.

Other news my tablet cord broke again. I've been hoarding art so alot will still be posted but after that I really need a new cord or I wont be able to draw more. As currently that's both my only job and one of my major stress relief I definately need to get a tablet cord fast. (The list of current stress reliefs is roleplay, binging: I'm almost out of shows, drawing, food: about to start a diet, walking: to cold,..so ya I need that cord soon)

As for new years resolutions two years ago I had these: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8996489/ (last year I was in an anxiety spiral and too scared to post journals)

Let's see
1: nope I'm about the same weight (171.6 I think it was)
2: hang out with friends...this was 2020..no
Imma stop listing numbers..the only one I did was travel.

Let's make new resolutions and make them easy

1: get vaccinated

2: be kind to others

3: get a new tablet cord

4: lose weight (hardest one but this year I'll count it as a win if next new years im even half a pound lighter)


I dont have last year to compare but have art I'm currently proud of list

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/37869396/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/37141666/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/39927849/


So...ya hope everyone is staying home staying safe and having a fun and happy new year
Tell me your safe plans and resolutions.

Will be gone for about a week sitting shiva (mourning period) for my dad


Update: technically the week of shiva begins with the burial, so today dec 11th

I'm not sure when I will reopen. But I will. I just need to close them at this moment.

Sketches are 2 dollars per character today only. Sketch backgrounds are 50 percent off.

Example: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/39404076/


(Usually 6 dollars plus 3 per additional character, backgrounds ranging from 0 to 7)


This sale applies to sketches only but I may post another one today or on cyber monday for other art.


These will not likely be drawn today but must be claimed today for the sale.

Any other artists get this? Where you have art block..but you don't really. Like you can do one stage of your art no problems but the next stage you can't even get yourself to pick up the tablet for.
Like the second I think I gotta ink, art block hits can't draw. But I'm having no problem with sketching. (Except for being lazy about uploading. I've got a few stashed) I may do more sketches tomorrow..but I doubt I'll be inking anything.
Sorry to anyone wanting to see inked art
(At the moment the only ink owed is the last one planned so far of my many trades with yosh and hes said I can take my time. It's actually half inked)
And sorta half owed is the picture I promised donny for his birthday (Its on the list dont worry) )
But theres been mention that I've only been sketching lately so I wanted to explain it

I dug up a picture from 2016 or before (file says last saved in april of 2016)
...I still cant post it because its spoilers. Actually have 3 pictures in the spoiler stash atleast but that ones the funniest cause its soooo old. Aside from drawing ponies way too tall though and being bad at shading..I kinda still like it. I'll post it someday maybe lol.

Let's see how long it takes someone to care about a journal with that for a name lol.
First to comment a sfw ref, a pose and outfit (all of which I have to aprove) gets a free sketch but only if thier comment contains the title of this journal

This is my annual yom kipper journal asking for forgiveness for anything I've done to any of you (and if not possibly ways to make it up to you) and saying I forgive anything that has been done to me.
Any bad stuff is now a clean slate.

https://twitter.com/Grodiechan/stat.....994396160?s=20

Check it out my friend is doing an art raffle over on twitter she makes seriously amazing stuff

It will be 10 years on fa for me on the fourteenth of October.
I want to sort of copy gems idea of doing a freebie aniversary stream
I wont do it day of because its middle of the week. I'll likely do it on the Friday or Saturday after but not guaranteeing a date.
So I'll be holding raffle to be drawn. Raffle can be entered up until the last winner is picked. Now read carefully because there are rules. My normal rules of what I will and wont draw apply. If your unsure just ask. Sfw refs only as usual.
If you enter a friend you must be completely certain they would consent to the image (so no entering friends characters in a role they arent comfortable with or dressed in clothes they wouldnt wear, or at all if they are picky about what artist draws them and wouldnt want me to) include the word neigh to show you read this.
These will be sketches.



Pictures may contain up to 1 character of yours, 1 of a friends and 1 of mine (if I aprove of them in the scene if not I'll let you know) (that's up to 3 total. If you give up your own you may ask for 2 friends) they dont have to be all 3 they can contain 1 or 2 as well.


Edit: of my ocs ari is now off limits (so are amythest and kira they should have been from the start) to many entries including ari and honestly shes my least favorite to draw of mine. My ponies can be drawn anthro.

Heres the form to fill out:

Ref/s:
Name/s:
Age/s:
Pose idea/s:
Why you watch me:

I have a large number of pictures to post. The majority are pony sketches so prepare for that lol a couple colored pictures among them

Also what I still owe that's not finished includes a trade with kofilokiI sketched but still need to ink and color

Trades with yosh 5 down 1 to go on the pokemon team (2 unposted. Expect them in the art dump)

And a commision for a pony on discord (waiting on info to start)

If I owe you something not listed let me know

My ponies are open for questions and I really hope you will asks some.
Answers will be given in text, sketch or kindergarten doodle. Whichever seems best fitting of the question

Any pony except saphy or ammy is open for questions.

Ponies can be found here https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....der/83566/Refs


Any sfw questions accepted :3

I keep getting comments on my kindergarten doodles that they are blurry. They are made with an airbrush. It's supposed to be blurry. Its drawn in a few minutes it's not a proper art piece. While I love getting comments I dont love those ones. Thank you for your comments but I would really appreciate if the ones about the kindergarten doodles being blurry stop thanks

Woops I deleted the journal by accident. So I ended up drawing everyone who entered, amd a bunch of in stream bonuses..and the person who entered an hour after the stream. A bunch of kindergarten doodles and sketches incoming. 15 total (well 14 I just posted the first)

Birthday was yesterday but it's easier to celebrate on the weekend. And my favorite way to celebrate is with peoples. So I'll be streaming. Those with my discord can poke me and audio with me in the stream cause talking aloud is better.
I'm not setting a day. Could be friday or sunday. Probably not Saturday.

I wanna do some freebie raffles. You can pick sketch or kindergarten doodle (the airbrush doodles I do)
Read carefully cause theres rules and they matter.
My normal rules or what I will and wont draw apply. If your not sure if its something in willing to dont worry I'll tell you if it's not and it can be altered to fit what I do. (Major examples are I dont draw nsfw, or fetish art.)
It will be done by raffle. Filling out the info bellow you get one number but only if your post contains the word meow. If what you are asking for is for a friend instead of yourself you get two numbers but only if your post contains the word potato. No not Meow. I'm making sure your reading. (Please be certain they would consent to everything in the picture, example no having me put a dress or diaper on a cub who doesnt wear them).
If you are in the stream at the time of the raffle I will give you a second (or third if for a friend) number for that raffle spin. Because I want people there so bonus points for being there. That set of numbers will reset with each spin. If you won one for a friend and you are in the stream, your 2 numbers will be gone but with the stream bonus number you can win one for yourself (or another friend)
Up to two characters per sketch or doodle, if one is yours it counts as asking for yourself rather than a friend.

Sketch or kindergarten doodle:
Character ref/s:
Character age/s:
Who's character/s:
Pose idea:
Outfit idea:
Tell me something about ya:



(I may ask for another pose or outfit if it's too complicated for a freebie or not something I draw)

Yee... I have no idea what I'm doing for it this year might do a discord call or binge watch something..debating a livestream within a day or two of the day..havent decided yet
I think me and mom are gonna try and make a cake but might get lazy and pick up a premade one and just decorate it ourselves...I want to make it look like harry potters cake from hagrid.
Gonna be a strange birthday this year.

So...when I find some free drawing time I'm thinking about ponifying more ouat (once upon a time) characters I did this one three years ago so...not regina https://www.furaffinity.net/view/25073298/
But otherwise what once characters would yall like to see as ponies and do you have any ideas what thier cutiemarks would be?

Not sure I'll do any but want some ideas in case I do

Please ask my story characters questions (story characters only. This means not ari. Not amai. Not leilani shes just for doodles. And if you ask saphy you will get the story saphy not the self representative one.)

Some questions will be answered regularly, some will get the answer spoilers, others will be sketched answers or drawn kid style.

If you dont specifically state a characters age I'll pick it (if you do it's one I havent written them at I'll let you know)


https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....der/83566/Refs a bunch of my refs can be found here if you dont know my characters or forgot em

Please ask lots of questions no limit on the number only limit is sfw only

Hey you guys know those stories I post, the fallen angel series, well all of the best ones (everything but sunset that's posted so far) are turned into those amazing stories by yosh from the heap of stuff I send him. It's a team effort and the plots and many characters are mine but the beautifull writing part is all yosh and hes also awesome at turning a tiny bit of info into a wonderful character. Softy, rawhide and candy are major examples of this I had written maybe a sentance or two each and he evolved them into such great characters. And hes absolutely wonderful to work with.
Do you want a short story by that same author? He specializes in cute babyfur stuff too! Not just ponies. And cartoony stuff. Hes got a great range. Right now hes doing a great deal for some short stories.
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9558174/
Yall should check him out. If not getting one just reading the stories other people get is gonna be tons of fun. I know I cant wait to read em.

Okay there is one thing still on my queue but that's not exactly owed art I put it there.

But an empty queue means three things

1 I'm open to fill it again if anyone was waiting for my queue to empty for trades or such..I feel like someone had wanted a trade I had to put off but cant remember who

2 if I owe you art I have forgotten clearly soo please please tell me!

3 I'm mostly out of stuff to draw but I wanna draw later this week let fix that with ponies. Bellow is a list of some of my pony ocs. Of that list (one or multiple splash may be included as well though hes dog not pony) if you have any ideas of what youd like me to draw of them let me know (sfw, no diapers, I will decide if I do or dont. The more in character the more likely to be picked. If it breaks time lines I'll let you know. Multiple ideas are great too)

Fall
Pint
Bucky
Tally
Fae
Trinket
Billy
Pearly
Scruff
Dessy
Daley
Bramble
Coral
Note
Honey (ref isnt posted yet)
Softy
Brights
Blissy
Lacey (not with anypony else listed)

(Refs can be found here https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....der/83566/Refs)

Posting a bunch of old art today. Itll all be old unless it says otherwise

Sorry for so many at a time

Me and a friend are looking for cute (preferably gay) wholesome/sfw anime to watch anyone got recomendations?

Edit: closed as it's close to fathers day




I've had so little time for art I almost forgot that I promised a father's day sale. Due to time I'm only opening one slot at a time (copy paste from last year but still accurate). This year however I cannot garuntee it will be done by the day of fathers day as I'm a bit overwhelmed time timewise with non art things but I will try.

25 percent off all art with a father's day theme! First come first serve. You may claim a slot before deciding exactly what you want that's fine.
Feel free to ask whatever you like about what I do and don't draw and pricing normal prices are linked on my page.
Slots
1:





Any paternal figure counts as fathers day theme. Agender and gender fluid parental figures totally count.

I swear I've been drawing alot but it's mostly anthrocon badges and other half drawn convention pictures. Do yall think I should post the badges now or closer to the convention?(fourth of july weekend)