Heo guys.

I know I'm still not looking alive but real life and mostly my job is exhausting.

I really understand if you feel like unwatching me. Do so if it helps.

Once there is the time I will get back on drawing.

By the way, it is sort of terrifying how many people forget you even OUTSIDE Furaffinity.
I mean stuff like someones birthday. 😿

Take care everyone. And forget that "or I will" stuff.
I'd hug you anyway! 😋

-Arkanus

Heo FurAffinity

First off: I'm not dead. 2016 was sorta aweful for me and most of my friends (but most of all my bf..).

Hope you guys had a nice christmas and new years eve or at least some quiet and peaceful days.
Spent new years eve at my boyfriend's and his mom. I could relax a little.

Have a great NEW year!

And don't forget...


..to take very good care, be save and stay healthy.


...try not to disappoint me! ...or I will squeezehug the shit out of you

+10000 Pageviews ...yaaay :P
Whatever..

Nice day everyone! <3

As the title says it - Happy New year you guys!

So 2015 is over. Hope it's been a great year for everyone. Many things happend. Way too much for my nerves that is. And especially around me.

I don't have resolutions for this year. Because... live your life and make the best of it! :D


Please you guys take very good care, be save and stay healthy.


And don't ya dare and disappoint me! ...or I will squeezehug you

Just to let you know: I'm still among the living.

Lately and as always work is keeping me busy and this time I try to maintain some sort of a relationship - again. Wish me luck..

I'm still doing various sketches and keep collecting ideas for my next picture(s).

If you feel like unwatching me, please do so. Right now it isn't easy for me to draw stuff while having so little time for everything.

I didn't forget about you guys. Please keep that in mind..

So, take care everyone and...

don't ya dare and disappoint me! ...or I will squeezehug the s... out of you!

...to people I wasn't able to say it in person or atleast via a messaging system or phone call.

Spent new years eve at my sis. And that's actually it.
But damn... never make me watch a movie at three a.m. and talk too much about certain stuff. It ruins my mood. XD

So again guys,
have a great new year
2015!

Don't ya dare and disappoint me! ...or I will squeezehug the joy out of you!

Heo guys

Just to say it again: I'm not online when programs like Skype say I AM. Same counts for WhatsApp. It acts up quite a lot and gives me updates like every two days. WTF?!

- Ark

Heo everyone

Just to let you guys know I don't have much time for chats, drawings or anything.
However, I will eventually finish my stuff like this and will be able to draw more, see some of you ect, once I'm done with my flat.

I did not forget about anyone I really didn't.

So guys
Do your stuff, be save what and where you do it...
and please...
Don't ya dare and disappoint me!

Heo!

I'm back from my wonderful trip to Austria (Österreich). I've been there with my buddy from my home town. We spend the four full days at an online buddy's home who lives there with his girlfriend. I know her since Final Fantasy XI and her boyfriend around one year since Final Fantasy XIV ARR. Later on the girls sister and a good friend of them joined the party.

We all got along really well and had quite some fun. We visited Vienna, went several nice places and once at home watched movies, talked and laughed a lot.

I just don't like to use planes they cause terrible headaches I only could fix with strong medicine. But I've learnt to get along with that problem now. HOWEVER - no need to fly for the next few months I guess! XD

So...


..hope you guys did well...
and please...
Don't ya dare and disappoint me!

Heo everyone!

I'll be away for a few days, just to let you know. I won't be able to reply in any way. Perhaps on Whatsapp, but only if I get some sort of access to the net.
We will see! So see you later! :3

Oh yes and...

Do your stuff, be save what and where you do it...
and please...
Don't ya dare and disappoint me!

The title says it!

Nothing special for new years eve. I went down to my parents found my mother sleeping. My father woke her and and we drove to my sis's place.
Only about twenty minutes of nice fireworks and the new year was here for me. Sending greetings to friends via Whatsapp, Kik and text message.
So for the people I could not reach on time, I made the journal to simply say...


Everyone,
have a wonderful - that means:
peace- and joyful, happy and most of all...
healthy new year!

Don't ya dare and disappoint me! ...or I will squeezehug you

Merry Christmas everyone!

Hope you have/had a nice day with your family and friends. And hopefully most of you a lot of presents too.

For my part I spent dinner (bbq) with my parents and went off without any Christmas gifts. No worries - my family and I said nothing for this year! ^^
I'm happy to know my family and friends are alright, that's what I want most.

Same counts for everyone here on FA and DA too!

- Ark

..my little "brother" Kasimir died. I took him stiff as he was to his grave and burried him bare-handed.

Once more I'm no attention bitch. I just want to warn people in generel since my mood is pretty the same like it was on that dark day.

Laters everyone..

I got me DuckTales Remastered on pc.
I really have to say that it is fun in a sort of old-fashioned way. People who played the NES and GameBoy originals and liked them, have to get a copy of the new game themselves. You won't regret it! :D

Beside that game, I formerly play Final Fantasy XIV (14) online. But that was years ago. Now that FFXIV - A Realm Reborn is in its last beta phase I'll try to get a hang in that game. I like it pretty much.
I gathered a few people on Whatsapp who played FFXI with me before and once again try to enjoy it along with them.

It's a good way to clear my mind. And having the people of FFXIV in voicechats the game is even more fun. XD


Everyone!
Do your stuff, be save what and where you do it...
and please...
Don't ya dare and disappoint me!
Or I will squeezehugs the fun out of you!

I'm sorry.

I know many see this as a cheap excuse and many things I did late just cannot be forgiven.

There is no time for me breathe. I was able to play some games with me buddy in the late evenings.
And I'm damn happy that he tries to give me encouragement.

I too cannot focus on drawing stuff and many times I overeact when there are little inconsistences.
Beside all that I already scared away somebody with my behavior.

If all goes well I'll change my mood around late september when things cooled down at work.
For real, it once again is work which asks too much of me.

And yeah.. I should stop my whining, still I only wanted to mention before people who don't know me start wondering..


Thanks if you read that.
Love you guys

150 Watchers!

I know its not much after four years. However I'm happy about it ^^

For the update:
Once again I got stuck on drawing stuff since reallife got in the way lately (work and health issues). But nothing to discuss any further.

Hope you guys are doing well?

And that's it.
Oh yes...


Everyone!
Do your stuff, be save what and where you do it...
and please...
Don't ya dare and disappoint me!

How to draw proper cracks in floors?

I've been trying to use other artists pictures as reference. However, the details won't look the same.

I will delete this journal once it's done.

Only aksing because of my next picture: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10267227/
Which is still in WIP state. ^^

To all of you.

But most of all... to my boyfriend.

Love you my Wolfie!

Even thou not mated, try to be happy everyone!


Don't ya dare and disappoint me! ...or I will squeezehug the happiness out of you

So, the old year passed by.

And once again, things turned out sad. My grand aunt died a few weeks ago and I wasn't able to spend christmas and new years eve with my boyfriend.

However, I've been at my sister and her boyfriend's place and played PS3 and Wii games. After that we had a nice meal. I also could see my sis's cats and play with them. I'm happy they're both doing well.
Right when the fireworks started, our parents came to celebrate with us.

I didn't think about that much resolutions. Um.. well yes, I'll try to workout more once I get behind my digestive problem. I only get more power but no muscles.
And most of all, I want to draw more. A lot of sketches but no real picture. ><#

Now that my vacation is over, I'll got to get ready for work. Next vacation will be around Easter.

Alright! Hope this new year will be a wonderful one. Especially for you guys!


Everyone,
stay strong and be save, wherever you go!

Don't ya dare and disappoint me! ...or I will squeezehug you

As the title says ;3

Love you guys! Hope you have/had a peaceful one!

- Ark

...at 5000 pageviews.

Well that's it! Thank you everyone


Everyone!
Do your stuff, be save what and where you do it...
and please...
Don't ya dare and disappoint me!

(since monday) Three weeks of vacation and quite some stuff to do. That's it.

And like always...


Do your stuff, be save what and where you do it...
and please...
Don't ya dare and disappoint me!

...for my next vacation =__= Which apparently will be around 2nd week of october. IF - all goes well.

I feel groggy for every little thing I wanna do. I often find myself falling asleep while spending like one hour infront of my pc. And even for my workout sessions I rather stay at home and take a break whenever needed.
Not mention drawing.. I have so many ideas..

All because my workmate will be sick for the rest of the month.

I'm still shouldn't drive myself until november. So I cannot go to the gym when I want to. Bus driving is all good and shit. But when it's about flexibility and being somewhere on time things get rather frustrating.

Well, ranting and breakfast/lunch over. So..


Everyone!
Do your stuff, be save what and where you do it...
and please...
Don't ya dare and disappoint me!

I've been quite stressed.. Everyone, please forgive me for my misbehavior.

Seriously it's just about work. Defective machines and missing job data. I cannot keep my deadlines and makes me overworking a lot. I even cannot keep my breakfast and lunch times - like now: I've been interruped three times while having breakfast XDD

Yeah I have to take it easy. I know and I do.

This all renders me exhausted. I too cannot rely on the busses I have to use (which is normal...I know).
Everytime and really EVERYTIME there is something that keeps interfering with every sort of plan. (like telling me: Oh no! Don't do it!)

And again: NO! I do not have the energy to the gym "just go at another time" (it too counts for shopping). I cannot go there at the evening (7-9pm). Then I rather do my workout at home. Which is much more fun anyway ^^

I'm a bit stressed and if I act mad or sad and say something wrong, just ignore me.

No really I'm no attention bitch. I just wanted to let you know why I'm acting weird lately.
I too know alot of you got more serious problems. Don't judge me for that.


Everyone!
Do your stuff, be save with what and where you do it...
and please...
Don't ya dare and disappoint me!

The point of that one is:
I gotta take more medicine than before. AND I'm not allowed to drive for the next five months.

The office woman now called me yesterday. She threatened me that if I wouldn't show up on june 20th our company would go down. I said "threaten" for a really good reason here. I'm not kidding.
It's understandable that someone has to do the job of my workmate. He will probably be missing for next six weeks after his spinal disk surgery. So work must not stop.
But that b**** is telling me to watch my mouth... Oh please...

So, I'll have to take the bus to work. Not a problem to me, but my company will have to agree with me to use the reintegration program. Which means: I won't work for the full 8 hours each day.

In addition, my parents will be on their well-earned vacaction for two weeks starting on june 15st. And since I gotta work again my sister, who has to watch my grand aunt is really mad at me..
But I understand her too... She can't work right now either since she had something like a stomach surgery lately.

I really wanna drive on my own again.. I'm so fucking pissed.

That's why I keep saying:
Damned if you do, damned if you don't.


Everyone!
Do your stuff, be save with what and where you do it...
and please...
Do your best!