I feel weirdly at peace right now.. When 20 minutes ago I kinda wanted to punch someone but now I don't... Hmm I will never understand crazy female emotions!

I am SO freaking tired but yet my mind is like NO! you stay up! No Sleep for you!

I need to do my laundry tomorrow.. Who wants to do it for me? Any takers? Come on people I have to do laundry at work. Don't make me do my own!

Sometimes I really hate the night. I stay up til about 6 am with no one to talk to and think WAY too much. It kinda sucks. I wish I could sleep like a normal person so then I can you know actually talk to people during the day. Really wish my anxiety wasn't kicking in from hell today. Lucky I'm off tomorrow so maybe it will be nice and I can get out and maybes feel better.
(yes I am full of compliance.)

So I didn't get fired yay! Though I am SO gonna look for another job after FCN just because I am really tired of peoples crap..

So because of a HUGE misunderstanding through text and thinking I was talking to someone else, I may be fired tonight. I called and explained the situation to my supervisor about it and she told me not to worry. But if the lady goes to the administer like I think she will, I am screwed. All because somehow the head of kitchen ended up with my number texted me and I thought it was my friend from kitchen. I've had 3 hours asleep and I really don't think I'll be getting anymore today. God, I am SO worried, it's not cool man.

I should be sleeping but course Im not. Ugh this sucks. I don't why but my sleep has seriously been fucked up for awhile. I can't remember the last time I slept good. crap.

So I've been sick lately, today I decided to take some Nyquil and nap.. The end result? Two of the most fucked up dream I have ever had in a VERY long time. The first one my friend Tig was a bar tender making me and other friends drinks and then a Tsunami hit.... The second one Zombie Wolves were after me so what did I do? I ran into my room put the blankets over me and then called my best friend Aky to come pick me up. I told her zombies wolves were after me and asked to sleep in her bed cause I was scared to sleep alone.

I had a good weekend with my friends! Which I REALLY needed sine work and stuff kicked my ass. So a big THANK YOU to all my luffles! You guys are the best!

i really wish i could turn into an actually kitty. It would be fun.

My body is giving me the middle fingure today....



So yeah FUCK YOU too body!
I hate you!


Okay, that is all.

Sincerely,
Nannie. <3

I have a lot of things to do this week. I really should be sleeping but course Im not.
I have to get up 7 to go to the gym. Because Ashley a fucking drill sergeant!
Find a new car this week.
Clean my room so I can my new bed so then MAYBE I'll sleep.
Finish Tutu for FCN.
Do my own laundry for a change.
Hopefully spend time with my furries on sunday! <3
And I keep feeling like there's more....
Ugh I is tired.
My body hurts!

So everyone is all like I don't like Vday or Singles awareness day.. Well here's what I have to say to this day...Bring Bitch cause I don't FUCKING care! Ive been single on almost everyone vday minus a couple and I really just dont see how this day is different from any other? It's just for single people to bitch or taken people to gloat. Either it doesn't really matter to me. Why? Because dwelling on things I took a different approach this years holiday and got 3 other single people to be my "valentine" lol so really on some level Im just a valentine pimp! lol So far I have aky, claribel, and Mal....any other singles want to join in and make me more of a vday pimp? lol its' not too late Ill still expect you! lol

Im not sure what's up with me but the last couple of days my thought process has been seriously off. I should be sleeping right now but a course Im not. Ugh. I just wish my brain would stop thinking that would be great and help a lot! And if I could stop reading into every little thing that would be great too! Hopefully if I'll fall asleep soon. I think it's bedtime for me.

She WILL chase it!


Yes Brit...I did it again....

That is all.

I should be sleeping but Im not and I can't. It really sucks. I got a lot of stuffs that I want to do since Im actually off the next couple of days. Im hoping that I'll get a lot done but who knows? Kinda wanna wear my tail to work but don't think I could get away with it. And I is cold dammit! it's freezing! I needs warm!

My job sucks. My body hurts and all I wanna do it curl up in a ball and snuggle!
But the good news is Im so going to FNC in April!



Ok that is all.

So here is what I vaguely remember of tonight.



Laying on the ground outside of an unfunny comedy club.
Having to pee like 10 times.
Chewing on a cig.
Wearing SEEJAYs head.
Having to hold SEEJAYS hand alot.
Going down the steps of SEEJAYs on my butt.
Getting into a fight with the lightswitch. (ONLY because of the marks on my arm)
Random lady telling my glasses are beautiful and awesome.
Eating like 3 slices of pizza.


I feel like there was so much more... but I don't Remember! Feel free to fill in the blanks...


P.S. Why the FUCK was I allowed to do this shit yo!?! lol


Oh the pizza lady made me think of Aky and I wanted to hug her because of it!

001. Real name- Nancy
002. Nickname(s)-Nannie
004. Male or female- Female
005. Age- 21
006. Dream Job- Pin Up
007. Eyes- Green
008. Hair color- Blond
009. Long or short- Long
010. Loud or Quiet- Quite
011. Sweats or Jeans- Black jeans
012. Phone or Camera- Phone
013. Health freak- Not really.
015. Do you have a crush on someone?- Not at the moment.
016. Eat or Drink- Drink
017. Piercings- Ears move to come soon.
018. Tattoos- 3

HAVE YOU EVER?
019. Been in an airplane- No
020. Had sex with someone you just met- No
021. Been in a car accident - Yes
022. Been in a fist fight - No

FIRSTS:
023. First piercing - I was 13 in the ears
024. First best friend- Maggie
025. First award -I was in kinder garden
026. First crush- Alex I think...
027. First time- I was 18
028. First big vacation- Indiana Beach

029. Last person you talked to- Seejay
030. Last person you texted- Ashley
031. Last person you watched a movie with- Aky
034. Last song you listened to- Your the only hope for me.
035. Last thing you bought- Soda
036. Last person you hugged- Seejay like a few days ago.

FAVES:
037. Food- Italian
038. Drinks- Water and Dr. Pepper
039. Clothing- Jeans and T-shirts
040. Flower- Black roses
041. Books- Any thing by Richard Laymond
043. Movies- Horror
044. Subjects- Phyic, Art, and History

In 2010, I...

045. Kissed someone- Yes
046. Celebrated Halloween- Yes
047. Had your heart broken- Nope
048. Went over the minutes on your cell phone- Nope
049. Questioned someone's sexual orientation- Yes
050. Came out of the closet- Never been in there.
051. Got pregnant - Thank god no.
052. Had an abortion - Nope
053. Did something you regretted- Yes
054. Broke a promise- Yes
055. Hid a secret- Yes
056. Pretended to be happy- Yes
057. Met someone who changed your life- Not really.
058. Pretended to be sick - No
059. Left the country - No
060. Tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it - No
061. Cried over the silliest thing - Yes
062. Ran a mile - No
063. Went to the beach with your best friend(s) - No
064. Got into an argument with your friends- Yes
065. Hated someone - Yes
066. Done something good for someone else- Maybe

CURRENTLY:
067. Eating - Nothing
068. Drinking- Nothing.
069. I'm about to- Sleep
070. Listening to- MCR
071. Plans for today- Cleaning.
072. Waiting for- Taes

YOUR FUTURE:
073. Want kids? - Yes
074. Want to get married? - Yes
075. Careers in mind- Something Medical.

WHICH IS BETTER WITH OTHER GENDER?
076. Lips or eyes - Eyes
077. Shorter or taller? -Taller
078. Romantic or spontaneous-Both
079. Nice arse or tits- Arse!
080. Sensitive or loud- Sensitive
081. Hook-up or relationship- Relationship would be nice.
082. Trouble-maker or hesitant- Hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER:
083. Lost glasses/contacts lense- Glasses
084. Ran away from home- No
085. Hold a gun/knife for self defense - Nope
086. Killed somebody - Not yet.
087. Broken someone's heart- Not that Im aware of.
088. Rejected someone's call on purpose- Yes
089. Cried when someone died- Yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
090. Yourself - Sometimes.
091. Miracles- Yes
092. Love at first sight- Yes
093. Heaven - Yes
094. Santa Claus- Hell no
095. Sex on the first date- No
096. Kiss on the first date- Maybe

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now? - Not at the moment
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life?- Working on it.
099. Do you believe in God? - Yes
100. In Love? No, haven't been in forever.

JUST so you know I am ALIVE! I havent been on here and forevers!

So being a grown up with responisblities is really starting to suck. I am sad to say that I have to miss out on MFF this year because of work. My friends keep telling me to find another job but unfortantly that is easier said then done since I have to have certain days off to go to class and have to keep a certain amount of hours without being overloaded to be able to pay for things. The whole situation really sucks but eh.. at least I have a job I guess. It really just stinks always having to miss out on things and not being able to hang out with friends and go out when I want to.When I do get a night off I have class so then I can't really do anything. I don't weekends off anymore so yeah that doesn't help either. GAH...growning up sucks! >=(

Ok.. So Halloween is almost among us now...and if anyone really knows me well, they know that I LOVE halloween to death! But year after year there I always have one little problem with the holiday...Finding a costume that I can fit, like, doesn't cost an arm and a leg, or make me look like a whore. Now granted I understand that Halloween is the one day of the year that its ok to look like a lady of the night but yeah I don't feel everyone in the WORLD needs to know what my naughty parts look like! LOL! XD And since it I dont' really have time for a social I cant' really make it myself plus my sewing skills are not really up to par. I think a certain Midget should take this a hint to take a friday off of working and help her bestie find a costume! Just sayin....

So the last couple of months I have been giving my brother shit about his scar he got under his eye from his girlfriend. It reminds me of Scar off of The Lion King.. .and well then the other day it hit me... His girlfriend the one who clawed him in the face sounds like a hyena off of lion king when she's giggles... hmmmm.... meant to be? Maybe. But it is fun to give them shit about it.

So I have been working like a slave for the past couple of months and it's about to finally pay off. My up coming pay check will be starting my big savings for MFF along more monies out of the others since my boss doesn't think she needs to hire anyone else as long as she works me to death like a dog. ( Me and her may have words soon... not nice ones) But I am still working on getting the another and better paying job. Just my options are kinda limited due to school. oh and I gets to actaully see and spends times with my bestie aky on sunday! tis been ways too longs! <3

1. Tell you something I'll learn about you by looking at your FA page for 13 seconds.
2. Tell you which color you remind me of.
3. Tell you my first memory of you.
4. Tell you what pokemon you remind me of.
5. Ask you something I've always wondered about you, and your answer has to be as vague as possible to keep the suspense.
6. Tell you my favorite thing about you.
7. Give you a weird nickname.
8. Tell you what's on my shirt right now.
9. Challenge you to post this on your journal.

Ugh... been really stressed out lately and it's really turning me into a bitch at work and I don't like it. I had a co-worker call me about a possible solution so I just got to hope that it works out and my boss isnt be a bitch about it.If all works out I will have a lot more free time and still be making decent monies! So Ima just gonna hope. I am kinda considering changing shifts. But I don't want to have to get up at 3 am when I am used to just getting ready for bed about that time. Also I am still trying to fill out other apps. so maybe something will come up. It would be nice.
On a happier note.. I am legal to buy booze on friday! yays.. just wish all of my friends would stop having to work late that night! You guys are not to work late that night and you knows it dammits! Yes Aky I am refering to your tiny ass you better get that fixed it's bad enough Jared has to close that night and I dont think he's gonna get out of it! So yeah you fix that dammit! (makes impatient face) LOL. and the rest of you bitches are to try not to work late cause I said so...lol