i was the most popular of my class, but although i was always kind and open to my classmates, most of them tried to avoid me after i started acting different. Most of the kids in my class tried to avoid me and made fun of me because i was different. so i decided to close up into my own little world and separate myself from other humans as much as possible. Since i preferred to keep to myself and had no actual family that cared about me, nobody really noticed when i stopped being social now i prefer to stay on my own. Humans really bug me because they all are selfish and never think about anyone else but themselves. If you are not like them then they hate you. They are loud and obnoxious and not worth the time.

Im an adult now i go to college i have a job and im learning how to do all this new stuff @.@ to much stuffs gunna die!

this guy was disrespecting me and my car and it started to piss me off so i told him to get out of my car and he kept sitting there so i pulled my pencil out with the intent to stab him then he pulls out a knife and almost puts it to my throat and threatens to stab me! if he hadn't left my car i was seriously going to stab him in the throat... ive never felt that certainty that i was going to kill someone before. it was scary yet it felt exciting to..

tomorow i have to go to my new job and ask what i need to do. go to college to get my parking card. go to high school to give my college acceptance paper and talk about another scholarship then get down to the park to smoke weed and get pizza for friends @.@ *faints* to much for my poor brain...

my body has gotten used to no work lately but i did 4 linearts tonight. i dont feel like coloring

http://www.etsy.com/listing/1032310.....-zig-zag-furry

i have an issue with purses i really hate them but since i dont have one i dont have any way of carrying those important things like a wallet or keys i really need a smaller bag to be able to carry like a backpack and this fits really well. i will do a fully colored and shaded commission and a lineart commission for anyone who has the extra money. i really need this bag so i can carry the important stuff to my job. to always have my important info in my wallet by my side and just in general help me with carrying all my shit around >.> anyone who can help thank you very very much

i dont actually have to do the drug test! ug to much water made my tummy hurt

I have a drug test tomorow and i just smoked a ton of weed today >.> uuuggghhhh ive drank 3 water bottles so far my poor tummy T.T i hurt so much

im just at a total blank what i wanna draw or i dont wanna color it im being lazy...

i feel like apple bloom alot... its so hard to find out who you are and you get impatient to find out what you are ment to do... Ive always liked baking but i learned i am horrible at it. jobs that involve people and rules just arent for me. I am ok at art and i do ceramics pretty good but my parents say i wont earn enough money. i want to own a daycare but my parents tell me its not enough money. everything expected of me i cant do. I wish things were as easy as in the mlp world where your cutie mark really does become your job.

i feel ignored lately :( im trying my hardest with my art and i think im improving but im getting NO feedback whatsoever and its making me sad...

I tried putting my front page in better order to help organize better! do you guys like my newer layout?? and if i owe you art of any kind please tell me so i can put it on front i have a horrible memory and i find it would be easier if i could just put everything i need to get done up front! ALSO!!!!!!!! can you help me? i want to make my page pretty seperate and i was thinking of having different spacers between each section how can i find different spacers? I found hearts but they are to tiny

 InvalidSirens she makes really really cool tails o.0 check her out!

do you like Boo as a ferret? or do you like my older fursona? im just not sure what to do... i dont feel happy anymore... nothing seems to make any sense and im tired of it... i dont want to work or study or draw or write or do chores or listen to my parents... i just want to lay around and mope and cry and have my daddyfur care for me and play with blocks and chew on things and be bottle fed and not have to worry about anything anymore...

somethings missing... i dont enjoy drawing/coloring Boo but i cant figure out why??? is it cuz shes to bright or maybe the animal just isnt right for me? can someone help me? should i change her species? or maybe her colors a bit? im going through alot of stress and change right now trying to find who i am... but i need help... its hard doing things on my own

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/art.....rens-eyes.html
could anyone make one of these?

the towel holder in the bathroom broke when i pulled on it T.T i was falling over and i grabbed it i ended up not falling but it broke of and it scratched the top of my hand and stabbed me in the same hand and almost renched my shoulder outa place WAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!

it's sad when people have no lives and all they can do to pass the time is make fun of or harass really good artists who mind their own business and really have no reason to be attacked. If you don't like something why bring attention to it? i don't like vore i just don't but i don't hate people who do and i don't go around commenting this is disgusting your stupid for liking this, or STEALING THERE ART AND CHANGING IT! jeez that's just bad why make fun of good art? just walk away and look at stuff you like. Rant over.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4362109/ sweetsushi is gunna make a custom kigu for whoever wins!!!

http://www.abacom.com/~jkrause/bathory.html

she was a real person and kinda crazy, read about her n3n

http://www.entertainmentearth.com/p.....6#.UTAMFzBwxjk i want him and i wast him now o.0 pease and fankyoo? will trade good arts for him

http://sbioak.org/fun/AMAZING%20THI.....unOnTheNet.htm
these are some creepy mother frickin fishes o.0 i seriously started to shake from looking at them