Ok, I meant to write this at the beginning of the month, but never got around to it x3. I wanna wish everyone a Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah, Happy Kwanzaa, and a merry other holidays I might have neglected to mention. And If you don't celebrate holidays then have a good day lol.
And even though New Year's perplexes me, I hope everyone has had a great year and even a better new year

Je vous aime

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LzZox_hE4eY

Heya Peoples, it's turkey day lol. I hope everyone has a great day, and I hope everyone is ok. Have a happy and safe holiday. Short journal, but I'll try and do a new journal weekly, just of random things lol, project ideas, etc

Link this week is a little nsfw and might be considered offensive. Just thought I'd warn y'all, it is Thanksgiving related and I found it funny lol

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eLkzqLHxJeQ

Je vouz aime everybody

Ok, so it's been a long while since I've posted a journal or any photos. Idk why exactly, just kinda in a slump. I should have wrote a journal before this impromptu hiatus. I do apologize to the people who have been eagerly waiting months to see something new from me. I'm gonna try to be on here more often, get out of this funk I've been in. To the people who have been patient, I do thank you. I'm gonna try to post up some new things, like might finally post up the long awaited continuation of the zombie story. Hope everyone has a happy Halloween.

Je vouz aime and no song link today lol

So I gots these two peoples doin Iron Artist.  VioletRosethorn and  The_Art_Teams_Gallery Now Violet is doing this because she wants a new tablet and Art team wants to draw more and perfect the style. So go check them out and spend some cash. Update on me will be comin up here soon.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UuIY6ib91S4


Je vous aime everyone ^^

This is late I know, but I wanna wish everyone a happy Saint Patrick's Day. Be safe and I'll have a St Pat's themed photo up here shortly. Short journal is short so soon I'll post a recent updates journal ^^


Today's song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8y6daUp6DAY


Je vous aime ^^

Heya everyone, want your fusona to be zombified? Then you should talk to  lynxeh about makin that possible. She's taking commissions for zombies. They're gonna start off inked, then be colored and collaged together later on. And for a taste of what it would look like, I present: Zombilycus http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5227518 Journal for teh zombies http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2062136/

Now for the stream part. It's sketchfest time!!!!  meaeshana can be found here http://www.livestream.com/sketchfest doing her thing. So stop on bye, chat, maybe order a sketch or two, and enjoy the fun ^^

Heya everybody, how have y'all been. I've been. well pretty meh. Let me start off with the good thing, I finally have my camera back ^^. I got it back Monday and it seems to be back to normal. In the repair report it said they had to repair the optical assembly, and something like that isn't covered by my warranty so they fixed it out of courtesy. So that's pretty badass. Now for the not so good, work's been giving me shit, been sick, and I have to have more repairs done to my truck.
About work, well for one thing apparently I'm too slow of a driver and if I don't speed it up then my hours will get cut. This could be seen as potentially dangerous, but they've been cut when I work my ass off anyway so that doesn't bug me. My solution though, kinda been speeding more than I should lol. First speeding ticket I get I'm sending to my boss >:3 I was sick like a week ago, I mean like puke for three hours and still go to work on four hours of sleep. Which is always scary because it's times like that where I fall asleep behind the wheel @.@ Next time I'm calling off. Last night on my last delivery the brakes went out. Now hopefully no one will worry about that last line, I'm fine and the truck is still in one piece. Due to a prior accident the bearings in the front right wheel and last night they finally went out while driving and it forced the brake caliper off that wheel. Why the other brakes didn't respond I don't know but that's what an emergency brake is for. Today my dad and I went to check it out, I had to leave it at a school parking lot, and eventually had to have it towed. That was actually kinda fun because we had to ride in the Bronco as it was being towed. People were waving and all that so we waved back. Went into work and told the day manager I couldn't work tonight and the new manager didn't want me there if I couldn't drive so I had the day off. What did I do? Sleep all day lol. Also I need to have my landlord look at my waterheater because I has no hot water x3 Anyway, that was a synopsis on the past couple of weeks, in case any of y'all were wonderin how I was doin.

Je vous aime

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mHxnpF61JCE

I finally sent my camera in for repairs. What's wrong with it you might ask? Well nothing serious, but in some photos with low lighting a vertical line appears in the photo. This could be caused by a flaw in the lens I'm told. Thankfully it's still under warranty and should see it again within 7 business days after the repair. So I figure at least two weeks altogether. I also plan on buying me another camera, a DSLR this time. I have a ton of photos to go through to upload, a video to compile, writings to finish, stuff to post, resisting the urge to kill, etc. I guess that's it x3, je vous aime everyone ^^





http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YPyRb3dAjdU

I want to wish everyone Happy Holidays and a very Merry Christmas. And for all teh mated peoples, a very Murry Yiffmas lol. I know I've been lazy lately and will be posting more stuff soon. I even took a bunch of photos and video of the lunar eclipse and will be putting together a vid about it. To the people I owe writing to, it's gonna be a little bit longer. Sorry X3. Well, Je vous aime.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BGR4.....eature=related

It is now after midnight in my region which means it's officially December 12th. The significance? *sighs* It's my birthday. I try to treat it like a normal day, but it's only fair for my friends and loved ones know that it's today. So if y'all wanna wish me a happy birthday feel free to. On a side note,  meaeshana is throwing another  sketchfest And to celebrate it's one year anniversary, all sketches, half off. So starting price is $2.50. Check it out and show her some much deserved love. Je vous aime. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8npI0Xe2wi4

Heya everyone, I just want to wish everyone a happy Thanksgiving. Everyone have a fun and great day. Whether you celebrate or not Je vous aime.

Well, 100 views inna week, that's awesome :P Thank y'all for digging my work and the work of the people I've commissioned.
As far as updates go, I got my camera back, on one piece thankfully. And those who've seen my recent spider pics have seen that my camera has a really good macro mode on it. It's got me interested in macro photography. Prolly my best example and favorite piece is this one http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4562035/ Not a spider one, but amazing altogether. Seeing as winter is approaching, insects and arachnids are gonna be kinda hard to find, so I'll prolly post up photos of action figures in my scraps XD Work has been alright, but I need to replace an axle bracket for my truck, but that won't cost too much. Also, kinda looking for an artist to draw refs for my front and back markings of my fursona. Why? For a project I wanna get started and y'all would find out in time/ So if anyone here can do it free or cheap I'd appreciate it ^^ I think that'll do it for this one. Je vous aime everyone and now for some musics :P http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UkXzo-CMFRA

Yes, I'm plugging  sketchfest here too lol. Show up and support this awesome artist. http://www.livestream.com/sketchfest

3500, not a bad number at all ^^ and all thanks to y'all.

Now to another thing; Happy Halloween to all my friends, watchers, and loved ones. Personally, Halloween is one of the three days I don't really do anything on or celebrate. But I know a lot of y'all do so I am saying happy halloween to you guys anyway.

I've been a driver for work for a little over a month now and after the first week of getting lost I'm getting the hang of it. I'm posting this now because this is one of the busiest days of the year and I don't expect to be on later.

Umm... oh yeah. November starts Monday and y'all know what the first weekend of each month is;  sketchfest Yes it's that time again ^^. I'll be posting a price listing  meaeshana has issued for the sketches. Make sure y'all stop by and send your love, she really is a great artist and a really fun person ^^. You'll be seeing a new sketch or two that I'll be purchasing this weekend.

Okay, this journal is kinda scattered and all over x3 Sorry, been a long week at work. Which is why I've been offline, been sleeping X3. It's due to this hectic work week that I have to postpone certain projects and such. Don't have my camera atm, I think it got broken or stolen. But don't fret, I still have a shit ton of photos from my month hiatus to post.

Umm.... I think that's it. Here's some music for y'all to dig. Imma go sleep now, me needs it for work tomorrow, I'll be working pretty much most of the day. Je vous aime everybody

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jU6iP0WLsU8

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rve7Po5aKFw

Yeah, I'm sitting at 3396 as I write this so might as well knock out two birds with one stone. Thanks all for getting me up to this point ^^

Now for the main reason I'm writing the journal.
Some of y'all might have noticed I haven't really been active for the past month, month and a half. I haven't posted any photos or commissions I've paid for. I have a bunch of photos and a couple of commissions to put up, but just haven't yet. I don't know why exactly, but I have been down. Although, I did acquire my license and a vehicle, I have been a little down. And the worse thing is I haven't been online with my messengers or real active here. I haven't given y'all any updates. And for that, I am deeply sorry. I know I have worried a few of you and that is not fair. Unfortunately, It happens around this time of year. Now don't get me wrong, I love the fall and winter, but there are some days where I'm a little bummed. I don't know why or reason, just happens. Now, unfortunately I don't have a twitter or facebook so I can't give y'all updates there. I am not active on myspace or furspace. Next time it happens, I'll try to keep y'all updated through here. I am deeply sorry if I caused any worry. *hugs all*

Now for a little overview for the past month.
As stated I got my license and a vehicle, and quite a few photographs. I've started two of my photo projects and still write kinda. I'll prolly try writing back stories to things I have commissioned, yiff and all, and try to continue my other writing projects. I'll be posting photos all week and the things I've commissioned. Work hasn't been better. In this month or so, I was only working three days and only 13 hours, which really hurt me financial wise. I am barely getting by and have entertained the thoughts of opening commissions, but decided against it because I really can't find a way to do that and am nowhere near the level to set prices. This week I'm starting a five day workweek again, being a delivery driver half the week. I have acquired the new albums that Disturbed, Avenged Sevenfold, Linkin Park, and Serj Tankian. All great musicians and all great albums. I'm also gonna try to enter a contest Serj is holding. I'm not gonna go into detail, but I will show progress and maybe even film the work in progress when I get it started.

I think that'll do for this journal and I'll leave y'all with one of Serj's new songs, Electron.

Je vous aime everybody, I'll try to be more active, or at least let y'all know if I disappear again.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9IwdjgI3BBE

My top 20 most heard songs on my mp3 player, postin for the pure hell of it.

1.Addicted To Chaos-Megadeth 261 times played http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Et5-P1iFqp8
2Dread And The Fugitive Mind-Megadeth 255 times played http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RVN9_v9NHMQ
3.The Scorpion-Megadeth 246 times played http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H_SDn4rVxTk
4.Prodigal Son-Bad Religion 228 times played http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JmwkZvgVHOo
5.Overburdened-Disturbed 224 times played http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L66U.....p;feature=fvst
6.Parabola-Tool 206 times http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fxiFoYMsIJw
7.Sleep Apnea-Chevelle 196 times http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FeH3zbet3Ig
8.Sad Statue- System of a Down 185 times http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZqOFZ1jHX0Q
9. Breathe-Disturbed 172 times http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HBplUtRmixk
10.Trust-Megadeth 161 times http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rHjWJJrwqNc
11.Awaken-Disturbed 151 times http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eShcj0Y2Ngc
12.Stricken-Disturbed 147 times http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cOWSNHwph7k
13.Bad Company-Five Finger Death Punch 141 times http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pNHlVo0cPa8
14.Devour-Disturbed 129 times http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FAzfk-Hqju8
15.Something That I'm Not-Megadeth 129 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rRfxMnPF-ZE
16.Little Motel-Modest Mouse 124 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NZhHcyKg0io
17.Parabol-Tool 121 times http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W18O.....eature=related
18.Before The Damned-All That Remains 117 times http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8ucyCT9Q-tM
19.Deceiver-Disturbed 116 times http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UGUlHyoOVPY
20.Mistress-Disturbed 116 times. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f1YhZ4cAinE

Out of 1246 different songs on my player, those are the top 20.

Ok, I'm gonna try to be more punctual with these, pretty much another hundred down. All thanks to y'all. Nothing new with me, besides me getting a nephew anyway. My sister gave birth to her third child today and she and her husband couldn't be happier. It's their first son and the heaviest one at 9 lbs. and 4oz. They're gonna name him Antonious Ignacious (last name here).

Yeah, um the last time I did an actual journal was St Pats Day. Now I did do a meme before this but I mean actual journals. First off, I'm at 3000 pageviews because of y'all and I am deeply grateful. Nothing new really, I'm not a very exciting person lol. I did manage to get a mini amp and that's helping in the guitar practice. Bought me a tuner too. Some of y'all might notice my house looks cleaner in some recent photos, that's because my friend  Tashikizu_Akanari help me clean it. We put nine hours in it and he walked away with a big hunk of change. I ain't kidding, he found $53.05 all in coins. O.O Plus I snuck 25 bucks in his back pack so he walked away with a nice little bit of cash and some goodies. I still feel I owe ya bud. Got a new comp, that's pretty fun :D. We found out my dad had a pretty bad infection on his foot and unfortunately they had to remove his big toe. I have a pic of the open wound, that is not something for the squeamish x3. He also found out he's diabetic. So he's had to change his diet quite significantly, and he's doing better.

Now for some plugging

If you want an awesome digital piece done, example http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3834917/ , Then see  violetrosethorn A piece like that is ten bucks.

Speaking of awesome,  meaeshana is gonna be doing another  SketchFest in August. She is the artist who has the record for drawing my fursona most, her sketches are cheap and it's fun to watch. An example of her work is here http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4106114

 KaitoFenikkusu Is interested in drawing so if you want free art, go here and follow his rules http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1549996/

 KuroKitten87 Wants to try their paw at sculpting, go here and follow what the journal says http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1545805/

Now for the music links

I've been on a Disturbed trip recently so here's some great songs

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eShcj0Y2Ngc

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SfMmi4YFVlY

As taken from  skandian and  FoxxLegend


t h e l e t t e r : A

- - Are you available?: Yep
- - What annoys you?: Idiots

t h e l e t t e r : B

- - Do you know anyone named Billy? Only the Bad Religion song. "And Billy was a lunatic just barking at the moon, his mind was totally wasted"
- -When is your birthday?: A day in a month of the year

t h e l e t t e r : C

- - What's your favorite candy?: As long as it doesn't have peanuts I'm good
- - When was the last time you cried?: Like, a year ago.
t h e l e t t e r: D

- - Do you daydream?: Constantly
- - What's your favorite kind of dog?: Huskies and German Shepherds are cool, but mutts are awesome too.

t h e l e t t e r : E

- - How do you like your eggs?: Sunny side up with a runny yolk
- - Have you ever been in the emergency room?: A long time ago
t h e l e t t e r: F

- - Have you ever flown in a plane?: Yes, unfortunately I was asleep x3
- - Do you use fly swatters?: No, I don't kill flies.
- - Have you ever used a foghorn?: Nope

t h e l e t t e r: G

- - Do you chew gum?: If someone gives me gum
- - Do you like gummy candy?: It's not bad

t h e l e t t e r : H

- - What's your height?: 6'2"
- - What color is your hair?: Brown, but turning red

t h e l e t t e r : I

- - What's your favorite ice cream: As long as it's not peanut butter related it's all good
- - Have you ever ice skated?: Yeah, but that was a helluva long time ago

t h e l e t t e r : J

- - What's your favorite jelly bean?: Whatever green is
- - Have you ever heard a really hilarious joke?: Here and there
- - Do you wear jewelry?: Nope, I do have a pretty cool spider ring lying around my house somewhere

t h e l e t t e r : K

- - Who do you want to kill?: No one atm, my urge to kill is pretty low.

t h e l e t t e r : L

- - Are you laid back?: I am totally laid back mostly

t h e l e t t e r : M

- - What's your favorite movie when you were little?: It's still one of my favorite movies: Batman Returns.

t h e l e t t e r : N

- - Do you have a nickname?: Auto, Lycus, Wolfdaddy
- - Whats your favorite number?: I like the number 7
- - Do you prefer night over day?: Most of the time

t h e l e t t e r : O

- - What's your one wish?: I have no idea
- - Are you an only child?: I'm number four x3

t h e l e t t e r : P

- - What are you most paranoid about?: If I tell y'all then exploitation will ensue

t h e l e t t e r: Q

- - Are you quick to judge people?: Nope, I don't judge no one

t h e l e t t e r : R

- - Do you watch reality tv?: I hardly watch tv

t h e l e t t e r: S

- - Do you prefer sun or rain?: Rain is awesome
- - Do you like snow?: Yeah, kind of a pain in the ass when I'm working though lol

t h e l e t t e r : T

- - What time is it?: 1:43 AM
- - What time did you wake up?: I have no idea
- - When was the last time you slept in a tent?: Umm... more than five years ago
t h e l e t t e r: U

- - Can you ride a unicycle?: No but I bet it's funny

t h e l e t t e r : V

- - What's the worst veggie?: Brussels sprouts are the veggies I can tolerate least but will eat them if there is few in number

t h e l e t t e r : W

- - What's your worst habit?: Being too nice
- - where do you live?: A little blue ball called Earth

t h e l e t t e r : X

- - Have you ever had an x-ray?: Been awhile but yeah

t h e l e t t e r: Y
- - Do you like the color Yellow?: It's not a bad color at all.
- - What year were you born in?: 1987

t h e l e t t e r : Z

- - Do you believe in the zodiac?: Some days it can be eerily right or completely wrong
- - What's your sign?: Sagittarius

Seeing as I missed another pageview journal, I'll wait until the next pageview to write one. Two birds with one stone. Anyhow, I wanna wish all of my honorary Irish clan a Happy Saint Patrick's day. I took a few photos today and will be posting them shortly. Here are some awesome songs to groove to. Y'all make sure you drink responsibly

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1GyGy9aao9A

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pDwlGbEcJ6Y

First off: 2200! Awesome .

Second: I've been real out of it lately. I've hardly been on MSN and Skype because work wears me out so much. Been in a slight funk, burnt out from work, etc. I am apparently the only person there who can't call off, even though I do it like once every three or four months. Just when I feel sick. I tried calling off last week and my boss flipped out and I went in anyway. Other people around me got to call off but not this lycus. I cannot tell y'all how many times I felt like passing out or throwing up but I stayed strong. My boss gets on my ass for being one minute late most of the time, but I figure fuck 'em. I bust ass when I'm there and don't ask to go home early. He passed giving me a raise and gave it to one of the employees who bitches the most. I'm getting sick of the injustice and being real sick of being a nice guy. It doesn't help me out at all. All it does is get people to take advantage of me being nice and I can't take it anymore. I'm on the verge of snapping. I haven't felt stress like this at all. I would kill for a vacation but don't qualify for one. While my boss goes home early, like some of my other co-workers, and gets a vacation next week. Which should be nice not seeing that asshole. My boss expects me to do things that aren't easy but he and the day shift can. The fucking day shift pisses me off. A bunch of lazy assholes. Sitting on their fat asses all day, using up the supplies on my cut table, and don't get it ready when I get there. One of my co-workers thinks it's real fucking funny making my job harder. For those of you who don't know, I'm a cutter at a pizza joint. There are two cooks and one me. So I'm doing the work of two people while the cooks bend me over the friggin table. I tell people not to sell like barbecue wings because it takes too long for me to do them during a rush, and what do they do. Sell the fuckers. So there I am, cussing up a storm and moving as fast as I can to prevent everything from burning. The fucking drivers stand right behind me to see if the ticket I'm working on is their delivery. Hell, that place gets so damned crowded I have to tell people to get out of my fucking way. A few days ago one of the drivers asks me "How can I help you?" when I wasn't that bad so I responded "You wanna help me? Then stay out of my way" I'm becoming more assertive and not as nice to some people. As far as my funk goes, and for those who don't know again I call a mild depression a funk. I don't like the word "depression", I think work is a major factor in that. I've been stressed, my sleeping patterns are fucked up, most of the time I crash when I get home, as stated before, and I'll prolly crash a little after I write this journal. I'm sick and tired. My immune system is shot atm. Earlier tonight, it was getting difficult for me to breathe and after I did I felt sick again. I feel sick now. I bruised a knuckle earlier this week from punching stuff at work. I find myself enraged a lot, or just funky. I also feel bad because I'm hardly online anymore. I can't stress this enough, I love y'all and I don't want y'all to think I'm avoiding y'all or anything. I've been too tired to be online. Like I say "I may be a bastard, but I'm not a fucking bastard" I'm an exhausted lycus, and hopefully I can be online for y'all more. Tonight I plan on resting again and I apologize to do this to my friends here. But I want y'all to know what's up. I'll leave y'all with three links this time.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D2W1Y5hxR40 Been listening to this one a lot.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NDHNCNl3MQ0 This one too

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e8X3ACToii0 And ditto for this one too.

Je vous aime everybody

Like the title says, this is an account of my day and none of it has been altered or embellished. I am about to write about a topic I usually do not like talking about, mainly due to controversy.

I woke up today, after about four to five hours of sleep. I had closed at work the night before and eventually fell asleep with boots and all on. After letting Luke out to do his morning business I decided to go down to a lake and park I used to bike down to frequently. I wanted to take photos of the surrounding area, scouting the area out so I can keep up on my end of a trade with  Meaeshana I went to my parent's house and talked to them for a bit. I brought with me my camera, phone, Mp3 player, and a book I am currently reading. The book is an important catalyst of the day's event. This book was written by Greg Graffin and Preston Jones entitled Is Belief In God Good, Bad, Or Irrelevant? A Professor And A Punk Rocker Discuss Science, Religion, Naturalism, & Christianity.. After departing my parent's house I climbed on a bus and rode it toward my destination. When I got off the bus an elderly man rode by me on a bicycle as I walked toward the lake. When I got there I found out the batteries in my camera were dead x3. Just my luck. However, a gas station was somewhat nearby, so I decided to walk and get some batteries and walk back to the lake. After ten to fifteen minutes of walking I arrived at a Loaf N' Jug to find the same elderly man walking out. He wanted to talk to me about my book and explain how he saw religion. Around this gas station were stones, both large and small, and he wanted me to follow him to these stones. First thing that came to my mind was this man is trying to bash my head in with a large rock. My paranoid thoughts didn't come true, instead he used smaller rocks to symbolize Carbon, Oxygen, so on and so forth. Saying he doesn't believe God created everything, but he made everything. He explained everything through chemical formulas and such. He explained he attended and graduated from Berkley. He was an engineer at one point. He's a Vietnam vet and has been out of work for the past forty years. After awhile we exchanged formalities. I introduced myself, and he introduced himself as Jesus Christ O.O. He asked me "How does it feel meeting Jesus?" I simply replied "Pretty normal" He smiled and laughed eventually saying "Exactly, that shouldn't be abnormal" We walked into the gas station and he wrote down notes, what the bible would look like through an engineer's point of view, and so on. He thinks that all the soldiers in Afghanistan should lay their weapons down and help the farmers and nomads with their cattle and such. He says if we go on with our lifestyle the Earth will be a very bad place and eventually die off. Then again who doesn't say that. After our conversation he asked if I could spare any change and I gave him a few bucks. He told me I made his day, no one wants to listen to him and was glad to find an open minded person up for discussion. The lesson for today: Don't read in public x3

I did manage to take a photo of the man named Jesus, after buying batteries at the gas station of course. I gotta say, I didn't get anything accomplished I wanted to today, but I will sometime this week.

For those of you who don't know Greg Graffin is the lead singer for a punk band known as Bad Religion. The links are some Bad Religion songs that rock, then again I haven't heard one that didn't

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sTMkKBOifyY My highest viewed vid on youtube starring me,  Furry_Fighter and my little brother.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r7Hb4bxF12E

My 2100 page view journal. You guys really do rock. Nothing really new to report here. One thing that bugs me a little is being a magnet for security guards and cops. It seems like after my oldest brother shot the second oldest that cops and security keep an eye on me. I've been accused of shoplifting once already, and after I told security I had a receipt they looked at it and let me go. I haven't bought a DVD from Walmart since then because of that incident. Just today for example after getting my ID re-newed I was taking photos of the surrounding area and a security guard told me not to take photos of a certain public building. Oh well, that shit just happens I suppose.

Onto my music theory. In my last journal I mention a theory I'm working on. I find myself listening to a band or even a song from the band for days. Now, me being me and can't accept that I just like the tune, question myself why I listen to it so frequently. It then donned on me that these songs I listen to could be an emotional output. On a sub-conscious level I could be feeling angry and would have to listen to a song that reflects that emotion. One song in particular was Sulfur by SlipKnot. The only music that really influences my emotions would be instrumental or classical music. The Finale Part One is one of Danny Elfman's best work to me, it's such a sad song.

That is the Emotional Output of my theory. The other part is Deficiency. I would have to listen to a band because I have an urge to. Like, if I haven't listened to a band inna while and all of a sudden find myself listening to nothing but them. Some people can't grasp this part so I'll try to explain it as best as possible if y'all have any questions. The only constant is System of a Down. I could listen to that band for the longest time and not get tired of them.

Now today for the link is a song I have to listen to and can't figure out what part of the theory it fits into. Oh, and by the way the theory is Emotional Output vs. Deficiency.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E_pw9vyilI4 This song is a tad long so it's cut at the end. There are vids that have both parts available and if y'all wanna listen to in in it's entirety it's on youtube.

Ok to all of my Skype and MSN, this includes the Yahoo contacts on my MSN list, I do not think I'll be online tonight. Work was hell again and I am exhausted. I am not really in a good mood and do not feel like conversing atm. It's nothing against y'all. I just need a little rest. Many of y'all know that even if I am up for conversation and even if I'm pissed off y'all offer pick me ups. Tonight however I am tired and would most likely crash on y'all. I hate doing that. To prevent it I'll remain offline. If I get some rest and feel like talking I'll be online, but for now I just wanna lay back and prolly watch a movie. I really hope I am not offending anyone by my absence, but I just don't have the heart for it tonight. Y'all rock, y'all really do. I appreciate the love and support I receive from my friends and am more than happy to return the kind gestures. A tout le monde, a tout mes amis, je vous aime, je dois partir.

Was referencing the song there but I really do mean it.

I'll be back tomorrow, looking forward to talking to all of ya

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bbfoo19Cy5Y

Ok this is my 2000th page view journal and I am currently at *checks* 2067. Yeah way late here x3. I don't know why either. I have been way behind in responding to submissions and journals. I want the people who I'm watching who'll read this that I am not doing this intentionally. Just feelin lazy lately I guess x3. For those of you who noticed, I have acquired a new camera. It is pretty badass. I understand that some of the image quality might be a little below average, but I am still learning the cam. It has a shit ton of features. For those who have started watching me because of my writing, Just letting y'all know I know I haven't put up anything new inna while. Last thing I posted was a shitty poem, and that was posted like a week before my birthday. I have started writing my zombie story again, and the origin one will follow soon. I have had two other ideas, but might save one of those for this years Nanowrimo, if I actually enter this year. Anyhow I guess that does it for this journal, I'll be leaving two links after this one. For some reason I've had to listen to Mudvayne, I don't know why. Most of y'all don't know about my little theory about music so I'll explain it in my ext journal.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gMABVwJpeZs Truthfully I put this one together. I'm not telling y'all to subscribe or anything, I just wanted y'all to hear the tune and it's getting rare to find a music vid that's not associated with vevo

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9uuZgB74quc