I'm moving to  TaoruPanda
Just so u know ;)

Where are you staying?
Main Hotel Estrell

What day are you getting there?
Tuesday, like many many others

Who will you be with?
Day one is inconclusive, I hope to spot a  Cocowolf and many other fluffs to chill with. Day 2+ will be with my kitten and there is always place for more

Who will you hang out with during the convention?
Mah Boyfriend and anyone whose willing to hang around ^_^

Are there any panels you might be attending?
It will all depend on what is availeble and at what time :)

Will you be suiting?
YUSH!

Do you do free art?
Urhhh Ill do pay what u want art ;)

What is your gender?
Genderfluid but the base is officially female

How tall are you?
1m65

Are you taken? Are you looking for a 'mate'?
Taken by my hubby kitten! So no, sorry not searching, not interested in pets, in trio's or in partner switchez :P

Can I talk to you?
Sure!

Can I touch you?
Uhhhh depends :3 Huggs are 90% of the time okay ;)

How can I find you?
Look for a very bouncy person with flipflops, bermuda guy pants and a panda bag! ;)

Can I visit your room?
Only on invite :)

Can I buy you drinks?
If you really want to, sure, but make sure u also pay something for my company ;)

Can I give you stuff?
I do not mind :P

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Hug yes, snuggle is reserved for people I know

Are you nice?
Most say I am, but it all depends on the view I have/make of u

[b]How long are you going?
uhh Extended stay :)

Do you have an artist table?
Neup

[b]Do you have prints/CDs?
Neup

Will you have art in the Art Show? General or Adult Section?
Neup

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Lure me in with smokes, panda's, bamboo, bubbletea, drinks, fun, laughs?
Or just pat me on the shoulder and say "Hi"!

Where will you be most of the time during the days?
Nobody knows, probably outside in the smokers area :')

What/where will you be eating?
Noms, will 2 or 3x go to the mac, rest will be nommed in the hotel by lack of other places :/

Can I come with you for fun/food/etc.?
Um sure :) But dont hate me when I say "no, sorry"

Will you have a sketchbook?
Yup, will probably not have it on me 24/7

Can I draw in your sketchbook?
Sure! Beware of the horrid anatomy!

Anything else I should know?
~~~~~ NOPE ~~~~~~~

Mauw!

Hey guys!

I'm doing another IAC without school intervening this time! :D I want to improve on my digital art cuz I seem to be better traditionally but for certain things thats not handy :3
So I'm thinking of doing this once again, but this time with a twist! :D I want one keyword from you and around that im going to make the commission ;) So no whole idea, but just ur character and one word! Just so I can challenge myself even more ;)

Whats an IAC

It means Im going to draw 100 pics in exactly 3months, which roughly means 1 commission a day. It will make sure ill keep busy with drawing and getting skilled in drawing usually means allot of ours behind the actual paper.
Since this will mainly be about learning for me It will mean there will be reduced prices, so hopefully more of you would like to have a picture made by me :3

What are the prices?

Also this is rather funny, or actually for you guys.
You can have a picture for the low price of 5USD. Every additional character will be + 2 USD.

What will I get?

A fully shaded, bust - full body (can be somewhere in between), pic WITHOUT BACKGROUND.
Since this will mean i will have to make a little more than one picture aday I can't afford to do backgrounds.
If you really want to I can make you one, for an additional payment of 3USD, but i'll do it in the end of (or after) the IAC ;)

Do you have some examples?

Ofcourse :) Ill give you a couple *grabs Ipad and shows u some*

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12473837/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13586560/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13426687/ [NSFW; boobies]

I heard something about a free tail?!

Yep! For the people who sign up for a IAC slot (or more than one)! They get the chance on a free tail!
There is nothing you have to do. After the 3 months ill go to a random nr. generator. and link the numbers in my excel sheet to the numbers of the generator.

You are not abliged to accept this offer and you can have me make a tail for your friend aswell ;)

*free = excl shipping
** Only for regular tails, small fee for extensive markings, scalies or other "Abnormalities"

Oeh awesome! Where do I sign up

Well this time ive made this rather easy, by making a questionaire through google :)
So Ill get an email, you'll easily receive a thank you email back, some extra updates and finally your commission through you mail.
You will be sure of receiving a spot, and ill be less of a retard <3 :D

Please fill in this form for every seperate commission

Link: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/10F.....?usp=send_form

~ Finish my schoolwork [MOST IMPORTANT]

Badges:

~  serpenttao / - Payed -

Fursuit

~  Survion / - Payed - Dragontail - Making Scalies

Other:

~ Define more creatures to draw for IAC

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5832513/

Read this and sign up ^_^

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5832513/

Read this and sign up ^_^

Hey guys!

ill be doing another stream of which the profit will be going to charity for 50%!
We're already on 60 euros after 2 streams! :D

Hopefully some of you will join in!

https://www.facebook.com/events/1441165322807045
Facebook event

Enjoy <3

Well hey guys!

For a school project I have to make a short movie, and what is more fun than have a ton of fluffbutts shaking their tail on some nice music? Well maybe if we add a big pool, some sun, some beach and some nice temperatures? Oh well... Never mind

Anyways... I need to film this sooooon, like not blizard soon, but just soon!

I'll give u some info first:

The idea is to make a music video on this http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H7jtC8vjXw8 "song"; its a mashup of all kinds of "popular" songs of 2013, since (if the video gets a 7+ it will be used at the Visitation days at my school)
I am a 1th year student Graphic Design and a newb in filming so please! Don't expect a shitton of awesome stuffs x'3 Cuz well... then I'll have to dissapoint you.

Anyways~!
I'm going to set up a google-enquete thingy where u can tell me you wanna join or not.
I still have to make a storyboard but hey! U get a chance to enter a Harlem Shake :')

More info will be provided between 28-01 and 30-01

So 5 days ago I started my Iron Artist Challenge!
Already made 10 pieces, so that's going swell :)

But!

I still have 70 spots free... which is... allot... like OMG ALLOTTTTTTTT

So Im actually just bumping this *bump* see the pricelist below <3

Note! The more u order, the more discount u get!!!!!


Price list (all prices are in EUR):

3,-

Headshot sketches (tr),
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6315768/ (OLD)

4,-

Headshot lineart (tr)
Bust sketches (tr)
Icons (di),
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11938068/

5,-

Badges (tr)
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11936158/
Colored headshot (tr)
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11936158/ (Sortha)
Full body sketch (tr)
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6233161/ (OLD)
Bust lineart (tr)
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11807032/ (little bit more than bust though)

6,-

Colored bust (tr)
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11936224/ (Left)
Full body lineart (tr)

7,-

Full body full color(tr)
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11877079/

Poke me below/skype/note/email :)

Well erm... where to start

At EF20 I started something... Something different. Most of u know me as Sean, that trans-dude whose on hormones and shit.
Well I took my 3ed and last shot at EF, cuz loads has happened

I came to the conclusion that hormones didnt make me happier, even more insecure maybe. There were always some doubts inside my head, which got more ground after the hormones

"Did I really need this?"
"Is this really what I want my life to look like?; every 2weeks hormone shots, operations?"
"Do I really feel like a genuine dude?"

Well... I came to the conclusion I didnt really like the changes i was going through. It happened to quickly, too soon, too fast. Made the promise to my mate to try out the other option; going back to female-me or atleast... me with boobs and all the stuff.
So... for the past 4 or 5months I've been testing it out and it came out that I don't really care

I'm pretty a-gendered; so no male, no female. I don;t really see my friends as male or female but just as the package "person's-name-and-features". No real sense of gender was programmed into this panda *shrug* oh well

The reason why I decided to go "back" to female:

At first I wanted to stay 50-50, so parttime male, with some female days. But I found out by trying it, it's really hard to do so, since when im with le boyfriend I am pretty much female 99,9% of the time, which is great. But it's really hard to mix things up... Like when i bring my boyfriend to school... sure... but they know me as male whilst my boyfriend... well U probably get the point.
So I had to make a decision, since social life is really hard to do 50-50.
I've put things into perspective;
Im not going to be happy, with me as male, nor as female. Cuz i dont get the whole gender-role thing and dont fit into neither one of them.
So I can choose not really happy with le boobs, maybe longer hair, occasionally shirts with view into le boobs and sometimes some make up (which i dont mind doing)
Or I can choose not really happy (or even unhappier) with chest hair, belly hair (frankly hair everywhere since after 6weeks of hormones hair spawned EVERYWHERE...), lower voice, shitload of medicine costs, hospital hassle and operations and not turning out as a 100% male (cuz no weener)

So yeah I chose the first one; Female it is.
So name is changing back to Saskia, female pronounce and such.

Don't worry; Im still me ;D

I'm a perfectionist, and think people have too high expectations for me... Which I will never get to fulfil

It scares me... I am watching a program about annorexia, where I am so much alike the girls who have that, the only thing that differs is that I dont controll my food in a way of eating too less.

I am a person who wants to be good at stuff, or atleast not suck, and it scares me when people will think I suck at something. That's usually the reason I don't do things you can be "good" at with other people, or atleast when I know I probably wont be good at it.

It scares me that i've become so insecure that I control things that supposed to be fun, that I rather shy away from it then just do it and see what happens.
As far as I know it started when I was really young though.

But also I start to feel guilty when im having fun. It's stupid, yes I know... but cant help feeling it in a way

Now a days it gets better, cuz I've been really looking and getting to know myself, and not shy away from it. I know im scared, I know i love to have control, I know I don't like "me" or dont even know what I like to do.
And that last thing sucks. I don't know what makes me happy, I don't know what i can call a "Hobby" anymore. Yes working out is fun, yes I like to draw, but when someone asks me if we can do something fun i tend to let them make the choice.

But it's getting better. My boyfriend already got me as far to get me to like pool and bowling. Things I werent good at and still just... did... Yes Bowling was harder than pooling, since he was way better at it, but him complimenting me helped allot.

It's so weird and in someway painfull to acknowledge my anxiety, that im crying while writing this. But oh well...
Scardycat I is *nods*

Where are you staying?

Maritime Hotel :3

What day are you getting there?

Somewhere during the early arrival day :3

How are you traveling?

Im driving up with  Rexythewhite

Who are you rooming with?

 Garfang

Who will you hang out with during the convention?

Loads of friends, and my boyfriend, and new friends, old friends, just *shrugs* Idk

How is the best way to find you?

Find a hyperactive kidlike dude outside, with a panda bag, a trucker cap with "Aysel" on it who is usually outside ;3

Are there any panels you might be attending?

Nah, Panels dont involve my conexperience

What do you look like?

https://fbcdn-sphotos-f-a.akamaihd......78250911_n.jpg

Will you be suiting?

Probably :)

Do you do free art?

Probably when I have nothing to do :3

Do you do trades?

Usually no

Do you do badges?

Yush

Do you do commissions?

Not at EF itself

What is your gender?

FtMALE trans. but please... PLEASE call me he x_x

How tall are you?

1,70m

Can I talk to you?

Of course!

Can I touch you?

Hugging me is fine, but suddenly start booping my nose....? Nah

How can I find you?

Outside smoking or otherwise try to poke me at Twittarh; ayselblackpaw

Can I visit your room?

Uhh dont know why u would want that, but okay!

Can I buy you drinks?

If u insist :)

Can I give you stuff?

When u really want to

Are you nice?

I'm usually a bastard, but a nice one ;)

Will you be going to parties?

Except for the normal dances? Nah probably not

If I see you, how should I get your attention?

Walk up, wave, say hi and smile ;D

Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?

Outside in the front knowing myself

What/where will you be eating?

Probably loads of chinese and midnight snacking at the mc donalds :') Owh and subway!!! :D

Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?

The more the merrier :D

Can I take your picture?

Sure.

What's your goal(s) for the con this year?

Just have fun :3

Confuzzled
Eurofurence

Where are you staying?
Main hotel
Maritime!

What day are you getting there?
Wednesday or something
Tuesday probably

Who will you be with?
 Rexythewhite  masada4 and other dutchies or alone, but fine with that :)
 Garfang and maaaaany others i hope :D

What suit(s) will you have with you?
Taoru v1.0
Hopefully Taoru V2.0, if not V1.0


Can I dance with you?
Sure :3

What is your gender?
FtM transgender

How old are you?
21

How tall are you?
1,70 meter

Are you mated? in a relationship?
nope :)

Can I touch you?
Probably ill cuddle u first

Can I talk to you?
Sure! I like talks, talks are goooood

Can I hug you?
EEEEEYUP

Can I take photos of you/with you?
Sure, not sure why u want to though ;P

Can I buy you lots of drinks?
If u want to, that's always good :)

Do you drink Alcohol/Smoke?
alcohol: yes
smoking: sometimes @ conventions

Can I give you lots of money?
If u want to... sure O_o

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
mrrr depending on my mood

Can we hang out?
Sure :) No problem with that :)

Are you nice?
Im horrible, but with a funny twist

Where will you be most of the time during the con?
EVERYWHERE

Other cons you may go to?
Furry weekend holland :)

Who are you rooming with?
Confuzzled with  MorbiusMonster
Eurofurence with  Garfang

Attending any events?
Fursuitwalks I guess

How can I find you at the con?
Just look for a cap with Aysel on there ;)

I haz mah new laptop! :D

In other words: probably monday ill post something to show im back, and tuesday (hopefully ill start working on some commissions ;)

So hiya guys Im back from EF
which means; I work on all my all my belated commissions, like tails etc. etc.

I had an amazing amount of fun and met lots of awesome new friends!
Hope to see most of them next year or earlier!

So from now on it's my last 26,5hours here in Rainy holland, cuz Ill head of to  Garfang in Greece for 16 days.

What does that mean?

- I wont be online as much as usual
- I will not upload allot
- When u note or comment, im not always able to comment back
- I will not be on Twitter as much

What I can do:

- I can still draw (mostly traditional)
- I will try to finish some commitions; especially badges ;)
- I will be able to check FA (Don't worry fluffies)
- I will try to give u tons of love, but maybe not as much as usually <3

So sorry but  Garfang gets 95% of my attention ;3

Where are you staying?
Intercity Hotel?

What day are you getting there?
wednesday :3

Who will you be with?
??

What suit(s) will you have?
Aysel V3.0 and Taoru (both WIP)

Can I dance with you?
Sure

What is your gender?
Im a FTM so officially Fem

How old are you?
20

How tall are you?
ehm...1,70m

Are you mated? in a relationship?
Nope nope :)

Can I touch you?
Don't grope please :/

Can I talk to you?
Sure you can talk to me

Can I hug you?
Yes you can :3

Can I take photos of you/with you?
Ofcourse <3 :D Aslong as u give me ur name so i can find them back *wags

Can I buy you lots of drinks?
Sure :3

Do you drink Alcohol/Smoke?
Yes i do

Can I give you lots of money?
If u want to... I guess... but not preffered

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Hug is okay, snuggle is only for friends

Can we hang out?
Sure ^__^

Are you nice?
I try to be nice :) so will u be that too?

Where will you be most of the time during the con?
Still not sure

Other cons you may go to?
Only smaller cons like FoF and FWH

Who are you rooming with?
??

Attending any events?
I think so

How can I find you at the con?
Just find the hat with Aysel on it ;3

So yeah in Holland it's queensday, a special day where we cellebrate the bday of our royal highness and just have general lots of booze while the kids try to sell old toys (and junk of their parents) to others.

Fun fun fun!

So I thought: Fuck this shit :D Im going to fursuit since a American fur is here in Holland so he came allong and  mifoakanoodles ofcourse.

It was a bit hot but i suited for aprox 3,5hours.
Lot's of kids took pictures (we took like 200 pics aswell) and some mental disabled loved me too :3

Soon there will be some pictures up ^__^ of an Aysel wearing allot of orange ^__^

Omg Omg Omg Omg

My first con/big meeting, and it's so much fun Like I talked with so many of you, sleepless night(s) but not feeling tired. Im just so happy to be part of this community cuz you're all so awesome ^__^

The first couple of hours it felt really weird. Im used to conventions. Much bigger ones even but still every con is different. So i found my room, unpacked and jumped into my suit for some more reinsurence, but actually it made me more shy O.o since... myeah im not really happy with how the head turned out while it's pretty good concidering it's the first time I actually made something like this.

So after a (short) while i took it off. The day passed and I began to feel more at ease. Talked with some people but somehow I didn't feel really, really happy since I missed someone here. Someone special and from far, far away and he wasn't able to make it due some shitty rules in his country.

The night came and I had much fun with Iron and Wikke and that was great fun. Thank you guys!

To night there will be a furdance so JOY!! <3<3

SQUEE I've payed it :3 <3 :D \o/