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Feb 2024
Posted a year ago╔══════════════════════════════════════════════════════╗
:O
Busy n stuff
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CURRENT COMISSIONS:
Cassandra St. Claire - Ref
CURRENT PROJECTS:
Telegram Stickers
Growing Art Skills
Animation exploration - CSP EX
3D Modeling - Blender
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:O
Busy n stuff
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CURRENT COMISSIONS:
Cassandra St. Claire - Ref
CURRENT PROJECTS:
Telegram Stickers
Growing Art Skills
Animation exploration - CSP EX
3D Modeling - Blender
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DECEMBER 2023
Posted 2 years ago╔══════════════════════════════════════════════════════╗
Slow going, but steady progress.
I've been happier lately, working on being kinder, but also setting my boundaries.
Found that if I just push a little, I get a lot out of it.
Some days my sketches flow like water, and others it can stay muddy. Been more
creative as I've swapped between several servers and characters lately before I
settled to go back to playing Ayshe.
Not sure why, but Ayshe seems to be the fan favorite, despite the numerous
characters and stories I have. Ayshe has well over a decade of lore ( Original reason
this FA even exists hence the name ) and yet she still seems to have stories to give.
I am happy for it, fighting the hypocricity of the common art enthusiast to find a
design to be quite possibly 'timeless' but I wonder if the rest of my art suffers for
leaning so much on Ayshe to get page views.
She is living, her design changes with time, her stories push her forward and builds
her history.
Curious what she'll be getting into now... the little troublemaker.
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CURRENT COMISSIONS:
Commissions Open
CURRENT PROJECTS:
Ayshe Animated Profile
Telegram Stickers
Growing Art Skills
Animation exploration - CSP EX
3D Modeling - Blender
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Slow going, but steady progress.
I've been happier lately, working on being kinder, but also setting my boundaries.
Found that if I just push a little, I get a lot out of it.
Some days my sketches flow like water, and others it can stay muddy. Been more
creative as I've swapped between several servers and characters lately before I
settled to go back to playing Ayshe.
Not sure why, but Ayshe seems to be the fan favorite, despite the numerous
characters and stories I have. Ayshe has well over a decade of lore ( Original reason
this FA even exists hence the name ) and yet she still seems to have stories to give.
I am happy for it, fighting the hypocricity of the common art enthusiast to find a
design to be quite possibly 'timeless' but I wonder if the rest of my art suffers for
leaning so much on Ayshe to get page views.
She is living, her design changes with time, her stories push her forward and builds
her history.
Curious what she'll be getting into now... the little troublemaker.
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CURRENT COMISSIONS:
Commissions Open
CURRENT PROJECTS:
Ayshe Animated Profile
Telegram Stickers
Growing Art Skills
Animation exploration - CSP EX
3D Modeling - Blender
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OCTOBER 2023
Posted 2 years ago╔══════════════════════════════════════════════════════╗
Get right back up.
Not every project can be successful, but most projects should be profitable.
I've been burned hard and lost a lot of work and friends to a server split. Lot of
what I spoke for months went unheard, and after thousands of dollars I had to call
it quits. A crazed visionary trying to shut every one they dislike out, building their own
perfect community, until there was nobody left to work or even play.
Now, the project is completely abandoned. Every hotshot artists and gung-ho coder
felt the chill in their spine the second I stepped down. Suddenly all that work and
cost was going directly to them.
They couldn't handle a week. The best parts of that project are the parts I touched.
Now they trickle back with their tails between their legs, asking me for forgiveness
and free art.
It reminded me heavily that, despite how lonesome I feel, perhaps working for
myself is the best way to keep going strong. I'm hopeful I can find good people, I
want to find good people, but it's so hard to keep putting my neck and livelihood to
others who so easily and quickly abuse it.
People wonder why the world is so terrible now? They don't even know how awful
they treat others and that karma is a real power.
Despite all my hardships and unfairness, my life is wonderful and happy, and I'm
lucky to be this blessed to continue creating when so many have tried to steal this
passion from me.
I will never stop creating, and nobody will tell me what I can't create.
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CURRENT COMISSIONS:
Commissions Open
CURRENT PROJECTS:
Ezra Animated Profile
Ayshe Animated Profile
Telegram Stickers
Growing Art Skills
Animation exploration - CSP EX
3D Modeling - Blender
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Get right back up.
Not every project can be successful, but most projects should be profitable.
I've been burned hard and lost a lot of work and friends to a server split. Lot of
what I spoke for months went unheard, and after thousands of dollars I had to call
it quits. A crazed visionary trying to shut every one they dislike out, building their own
perfect community, until there was nobody left to work or even play.
Now, the project is completely abandoned. Every hotshot artists and gung-ho coder
felt the chill in their spine the second I stepped down. Suddenly all that work and
cost was going directly to them.
They couldn't handle a week. The best parts of that project are the parts I touched.
Now they trickle back with their tails between their legs, asking me for forgiveness
and free art.
It reminded me heavily that, despite how lonesome I feel, perhaps working for
myself is the best way to keep going strong. I'm hopeful I can find good people, I
want to find good people, but it's so hard to keep putting my neck and livelihood to
others who so easily and quickly abuse it.
People wonder why the world is so terrible now? They don't even know how awful
they treat others and that karma is a real power.
Despite all my hardships and unfairness, my life is wonderful and happy, and I'm
lucky to be this blessed to continue creating when so many have tried to steal this
passion from me.
I will never stop creating, and nobody will tell me what I can't create.
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CURRENT COMISSIONS:
Commissions Open
CURRENT PROJECTS:
Ezra Animated Profile
Ayshe Animated Profile
Telegram Stickers
Growing Art Skills
Animation exploration - CSP EX
3D Modeling - Blender
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JUNE 2023
Posted 2 years ago╔══════════════════════════════════════════════════════╗
Little Highs, Little Lows.
Keeping these journals have been good for keeping this side hobby of mine on
track. I am reminded of how much of a blessing it is I'm able to peek in and be a
part of this artistic world. At times I am isolated because of my inability to devote
myself to the craft wholly as so many others do. I do what I can, and I've been proud
of progress made.
For my projects, I'm glad to have given my clients good work despite heavy loads
and sudden surprises. I've gotten more for my portfolio and gotten my name out
and I am quite happy for that.
Focusing on art is a focus for this month, animations and beautiful full images to
really punch through and remind myself of what I can do for myself and my friends.
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CURRENT COMISSIONS:
Half-turn Animation - Alice
Half-turn Animation - Guidesa
Art Trade - Gabrieldltc
CURRENT PROJECTS:
Art Director - Freeport: Liberty
https://discord.gg/MHZ8y9RR
Growing Art Skills
Animation exploration - CSP EX
Experimental Game Designs
Untitled Space Survival Game - Unity 2022.1
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Little Highs, Little Lows.
Keeping these journals have been good for keeping this side hobby of mine on
track. I am reminded of how much of a blessing it is I'm able to peek in and be a
part of this artistic world. At times I am isolated because of my inability to devote
myself to the craft wholly as so many others do. I do what I can, and I've been proud
of progress made.
For my projects, I'm glad to have given my clients good work despite heavy loads
and sudden surprises. I've gotten more for my portfolio and gotten my name out
and I am quite happy for that.
Focusing on art is a focus for this month, animations and beautiful full images to
really punch through and remind myself of what I can do for myself and my friends.
══════════════════════════════════════════════════════
CURRENT COMISSIONS:
Half-turn Animation - Alice
Half-turn Animation - Guidesa
Art Trade - Gabrieldltc
CURRENT PROJECTS:
Art Director - Freeport: Liberty
https://discord.gg/MHZ8y9RR
Growing Art Skills
Animation exploration - CSP EX
Experimental Game Designs
Untitled Space Survival Game - Unity 2022.1
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APRIL 2023
Posted 2 years ago╔══════════════════════════════════════════════════════╗
Keep Pushing.
After a series of events that I never saw coming, I've been shoved into a position
and then left to die. The trick is that I've had this happen so many times that I've
grown to love the rush and when my victory matures, it's always just as sweet as
the last time I tasted it.
It's still a mountain of work, and I am happy for the project in my lap, I am worried
about the outcome, but understand the more I work the better my future. My
issue is with this weak body, how it falls to slumber, how I have to feed it and keep
it happy.
What can I complain about when everything I want is mine? How does one continue
to climb once you've reached the top? There is no answer to the cosmos other than
to do what you love, but what I love is in danger and my abilities are needed now.
I can only hope for a glorious new day where I can feel all my work was worth it.
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CURRENT COMISSIONS:
N/A
CURRENT PROJECTS:
Art Director - Freeport: Liberty
Growing Art Skills
Animation exploration - CSP EX
Experimental Game Designs
Untitled Visual Novel - Unity 2022.1
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Keep Pushing.
After a series of events that I never saw coming, I've been shoved into a position
and then left to die. The trick is that I've had this happen so many times that I've
grown to love the rush and when my victory matures, it's always just as sweet as
the last time I tasted it.
It's still a mountain of work, and I am happy for the project in my lap, I am worried
about the outcome, but understand the more I work the better my future. My
issue is with this weak body, how it falls to slumber, how I have to feed it and keep
it happy.
What can I complain about when everything I want is mine? How does one continue
to climb once you've reached the top? There is no answer to the cosmos other than
to do what you love, but what I love is in danger and my abilities are needed now.
I can only hope for a glorious new day where I can feel all my work was worth it.
══════════════════════════════════════════════════════
CURRENT COMISSIONS:
N/A
CURRENT PROJECTS:
Art Director - Freeport: Liberty
Growing Art Skills
Animation exploration - CSP EX
Experimental Game Designs
Untitled Visual Novel - Unity 2022.1
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JANUARY 2023
Posted 3 years ago╔══════════════════════════════════════════════════════╗
Hold the line.
Holiday season was a great reminder of what I have still in store for myself when I
get to come back home later this year.
Instead of gaining weight over the holidays, I lost weight, I'm feeling better overall,
and I'm going to work on my health and can feel I'm finally going down a pathway
that will work for once.
I have a lot of people to prove myself too, but I'm at a point of my life that the
people I prove it too have to prove to me they're worth it. I've had years of my life
vanish to people who didn't see my abilities, only to come back years later begging
me back. I cannot allow these people back into my life.
As much as I've adored being the hero, at some point, I have to wake up myself and
realize life isn't a movie. It keeps going after the credits, and even if I've been as
strong as Marvel heroes, as kind as Disney princesses, as rebellious as a DreamWorks
production team, it never really felt like I was going anywhere with all this power.
A good friend told me today "I make time for others because it produces good vibes
and results! I don't mind being strong if there is good outcomes." and he's absolutely
right. What has been missing from my life is my ideal that I have to save everyone,
but the reality is that, some people are just going to drag you down and want to be
comforted, and they'll never grow as anything more than a burden.
I've let go of some of these people in my life, people I've known for years who haven't
budged an inch despite all the advice and care I showed them. I have too many
people to care for, I can't neglect my future to nurture my past.
2023 is the year I hold the line and fight for myself.
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CURRENT COMISSIONS:
Bryaxis - Throne Room
CURRENT PROJECTS:
Growing Art Skills
Animation exploration - CSP EX
Learning 3D Modeling - Blender
-For Game Design
-For VR Chat / NeosVR avatars
-For SL modeling
Experimental Game Designs
Untitled Metroidvania - HTML 5
Untitled Visual Novel - Unity 2022.1
╚══════════════════════════════════════════════════════╝
Hold the line.
Holiday season was a great reminder of what I have still in store for myself when I
get to come back home later this year.
Instead of gaining weight over the holidays, I lost weight, I'm feeling better overall,
and I'm going to work on my health and can feel I'm finally going down a pathway
that will work for once.
I have a lot of people to prove myself too, but I'm at a point of my life that the
people I prove it too have to prove to me they're worth it. I've had years of my life
vanish to people who didn't see my abilities, only to come back years later begging
me back. I cannot allow these people back into my life.
As much as I've adored being the hero, at some point, I have to wake up myself and
realize life isn't a movie. It keeps going after the credits, and even if I've been as
strong as Marvel heroes, as kind as Disney princesses, as rebellious as a DreamWorks
production team, it never really felt like I was going anywhere with all this power.
A good friend told me today "I make time for others because it produces good vibes
and results! I don't mind being strong if there is good outcomes." and he's absolutely
right. What has been missing from my life is my ideal that I have to save everyone,
but the reality is that, some people are just going to drag you down and want to be
comforted, and they'll never grow as anything more than a burden.
I've let go of some of these people in my life, people I've known for years who haven't
budged an inch despite all the advice and care I showed them. I have too many
people to care for, I can't neglect my future to nurture my past.
2023 is the year I hold the line and fight for myself.
══════════════════════════════════════════════════════
CURRENT COMISSIONS:
Bryaxis - Throne Room
CURRENT PROJECTS:
Growing Art Skills
Animation exploration - CSP EX
Learning 3D Modeling - Blender
-For Game Design
-For VR Chat / NeosVR avatars
-For SL modeling
Experimental Game Designs
Untitled Metroidvania - HTML 5
Untitled Visual Novel - Unity 2022.1
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DECEMBER 2022
Posted 3 years ago╔══════════════════════════════════════════════════════╗
Let the sun come out.
Coming back from a bad break up and car accident, I've been finding myself again.
I've used art to heal my pain and found a lot fun in a new community that accepts and
is interested in my art and ideas.
I'm hoping to out reach more and live by "Feel the fear, but do it anyway" and being as
positive as I can and it's starting to work.
Just because the world hurt me, doesn't mean I can stay trapped inside myself forever.
I have a lot of love and passion to give to people and I'm not going to hide away
anymore feeling sorry for myself for when I can work on my future now.
Gotten about a picture done a day, sometimes a full picture, sometimes a meme,
sometimes an animation as I learn to use CSP EX more, I'm really liking animating in
it, it's just a shame FA borked their GIF uploading 5 days ago!
At my folks healing up, dieting even and feeling a lot better after a detox.
I'm hopeful for the future again, and my tears aren't from pain anymore :3
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CURRENT COMISSIONS:
N/A - Any commission you request from me will be worked on immediately
CURRENT PROJECTS:
Growing Art Skills
Animation exploration - CSP EX
Learning 3D Modeling - Blender
-For Game Design
-For VR Chat avatars
-For VTuber
Experimental Game Designs
Untitled Metroidvania - HTML 5
Untitled Visual Novel - Unity 2022.1
Medela Station (SS13) - Dream Maker
╚══════════════════════════════════════════════════════╝
Let the sun come out.
Coming back from a bad break up and car accident, I've been finding myself again.
I've used art to heal my pain and found a lot fun in a new community that accepts and
is interested in my art and ideas.
I'm hoping to out reach more and live by "Feel the fear, but do it anyway" and being as
positive as I can and it's starting to work.
Just because the world hurt me, doesn't mean I can stay trapped inside myself forever.
I have a lot of love and passion to give to people and I'm not going to hide away
anymore feeling sorry for myself for when I can work on my future now.
Gotten about a picture done a day, sometimes a full picture, sometimes a meme,
sometimes an animation as I learn to use CSP EX more, I'm really liking animating in
it, it's just a shame FA borked their GIF uploading 5 days ago!
At my folks healing up, dieting even and feeling a lot better after a detox.
I'm hopeful for the future again, and my tears aren't from pain anymore :3
══════════════════════════════════════════════════════
CURRENT COMISSIONS:
N/A - Any commission you request from me will be worked on immediately
CURRENT PROJECTS:
Growing Art Skills
Animation exploration - CSP EX
Learning 3D Modeling - Blender
-For Game Design
-For VR Chat avatars
-For VTuber
Experimental Game Designs
Untitled Metroidvania - HTML 5
Untitled Visual Novel - Unity 2022.1
Medela Station (SS13) - Dream Maker
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