"Let It Die"

Heart of gold but it lost its pride
Beautiful veins and bloodshot eyes
I've seen your face in another light
Why'd you have to go and let it die?

Why'd you have to go and let it die?
Why'd you have to go and let it die?
In too deep and out of time.
Why'd you have to go and let it die?

A simple man and his blushing bride
Intravenous, intertwined
Hearts gone cold your hands were tied
Why'd you have to go and let it die?

Why'd you have to go and let it die?
Why'd you have to go and let it die?
In too deep and out of time.
Why'd you have to go and let it die?

Do you ever think of me?
You're so considerate.
Do you ever think of me?
Oh, so considerate.

In too deep and lost in time
Why'd you have to go and let it die?
Beautiful veins and bloodshot eyes
Why'd you have to go and let it die?

Hearts gone cold and hands were tied.
Why'd you have to go and let it die?
Why'd you have to go and let it die?

Do you ever think of me?
You're so considerate.
Did you ever think of me?
Oh, so considerate.

In too deep and lost in time
Why'd you have to go and let it die?
Beautiful veins and bloodshot eyes
Why'd you have to go and let it die?

Hearts gone cold and hands were tied.
Why'd you have to go and let it die?

Why'd you have to go and let this die?
Why'd you have to go and let this die?
Why'd you have to go and let this die?
Why'd you have to go and let this die?

Why'd you have to go and let it die?

the music video i was in is on face book and will be posted on our Ustream channel!!!! shortly it went very well it already have had 10,000 people watch it and more to come!!!!! look for it!!!! the name of it is " Dose god exist" writen by Eric craven music all by Eric craven staring Me!!!! your humble little old Roo and directed Nicholas Barone!!!! you can find more of Eric Craven's music on Itunes!!!!

Before I began I don't fucking want anybody saying shit to the person this is referring to! I will not machine names but certain people on here know who this about but they DONOT have a FA and I need to fucking vent!!!!

Some people have no respect for you or your shit and need to be beat the fuck out of with larg fucking objects! This said person went fucking homeless and I was the first one there to give him a rent free house not once but twice! even if it ment putting my marriage throw the shitter for mounts because I thought was as close to him as a brother!!! But I guess I was fucking wrong about this person! Lesson fucking learned! Fuck him! Time and time again i help him out because of this fucking reason and he had the nerve to fuck me once again when i am still helping him out! Well fuck him I am done come Monday I am done with his using ass! He can come get his shit or forfit it to the dump! I am fuckin done! He expects me to do more work for him fuck up to fix a problem he caused! I don't think so! Fuck him!!!!! And "B" it's about _ _ _!!!! He had his truck taken to scarp busters to get money from itand left while the driver was hooking it up because he had to work! That's fine! But the two truck drive broke a post from my neaighbors fence and he was suspose to call and get it fixes 3 weeks ago nOw I am getting bitched at by him because his fence is not fixed and I have to pay for it because the tow company is not. Now he wants me to go take more pics of things threaten him with court witch Is a tottel of 35$ to fix problem but now I have to spend out of my pocket because he refuses to pay for it! While I still have his shit! Well he is about to find out how much of a bastard I am! Fffffffuuuuucccccckkkkk!!!!!!

The sun raises in the east as light vanishes in the west I look towards a new horizon in hopes of a better life to show its weathard eye. It seems that I am stalled waiting for some one to save me from this misery and pain, so I keep my head up searching for hope in all the wrong places. But every place I check is not wrong it's a new path leading me back to the man I wish I could be. I Am torn between two worlds one of bliss and the other of torment screaming and dreaming of someone to save me. I am lost beyond finding but soon I know I will make it back home to the place I felt safe. Help is on its way I keep telling my self knowing its furthest thing from the truth but yet I keep pushing forward because for me there is no going back. So I walk this path of misury and pain till I find my self lost again, not in pain but of bliss filled paradise where every thing has came on to me. Like the last clarity of a dieing man, I keep asking me self why can't I stay here and enjoy my life. But there are new doors to open and new places to find. People my come in go in my life sometimes for a moment others forever but what they leave behind is more then they will ever take with them. My memories are shared with people I call my friends and family even thow they are so much more then that to me. I have loved and lost because every time I fell in love I always gave everything I had I never saved anything for the journey back home... This must be why I have came so far and you better hold on to me because I am about to take off to the top. Don't stop now and don't look back is what I keep Haveing to tell my self when I go to the grave my head will be high enough for me to eat the stars. I constantly grow wiser as my tong gets sharper and the cuts I deal out from it will make you shiver because no longer will I hold my thoughts inside, I am a dreamer I am the candle stick maker I am the weaver of passion and the wildest desires in your life. I am you, and you are me we are the same just down diffrent paths I will find my way even if I must travel on yours....

I thought thing wear looking up but of course I am dead fucking wrong again. But bad thing is I am getting extremely ok with it.. Dose that mean I don't even wanna try any more or dose it mean me and my wife are done? If we are I think I am going to leave for a short while. I have some places I have been meaning to go... Then get a job worth a shot then get my damaged ass in school. Then go from there.

First thing I wanna do is say sorry about the spelling and grammar right off the bat. It has never been my strong point in life so is a lot of things... And before I get started this is going to be whiny but I don't give a fuck right now.

I have failed at to much in my life to just let things go I feel like I could just..... That's just it I have no idea what todo I will just keep going till a path shows its self to me. I just have to fight an try harder in life. I may have to go to concealing to get past this funk I am in before I do bad things. This last con was a much need time for me and what I wanted to do. But sometimes that was just not enough to make me want more. I guess I am just sick of married life wife kids responceabilitys and dealing with not working a job worth a shit because me kids would lose there insurence and our food stamps. And what pisses me off the most I have ideas in my head that could change the world the passion to do it but not the money, or the knowledge, or the way to get theses ideas out of my fucking head! I can disign motorcycles to the point I could give Paul JR a run for his money. but I can't do that. Why? This is retarded. I want my life to change for the better or worse soon. I also love my mate and children with Amy heart but the deserve more then what I could ever give them. My wife and me have grown a part so much I don't even know she is any more. And I have changed too. But my love for has not changed just not sure if I can be with her anymore. We have changed so much I don't know if we have the streagth to do it all over again..

I just got my First REF done of my "toon" and I love is so very much!!!