Alot of you may be wondering "what's up with Fenni?" cus i havent been very active on FA for a while.

Well, to answer your question i've been dealing with a lot of stuff lately. Emotionally and just in life in general.

I've been doing a lot of soul searching and trying to figure out what i want out of life.

I realized I was absolutely miserable with the way things were and i set out to change it. However for me change doesnt come easily. When my heartstrings are tugged by things that I might want emotionally even though they're bad for me, i tend to succumb too easily.

To that end, i've cut alot of things out of my life cold turkey simply because they're bad for me and only inevitably cause me heartache.

Not out of spite or anger but out of necessity whether they understand it or not.

I've already tried being soft about it, keeping the things that harm me at arm's length in the hopes that things might be reconciled but it's become clear after new evidence was presented to me that this will not be the case.

I'm taking steps toward making myself a better person. The first step is ridding myself of things i know arent good for me. I have to start taking better care of myself. Physically and emotionally as well as mentally.

I dont think i'll be using this account anymore in the future as it still has ties with some of the things i've needed to remove from my life in order to have an objective and unbiased point of view without people making demands of me and guilt tripping me or bullying me. Already i can see some backlash from the situation and while i hate to think that i'm causing anyone pain, the reactions only serve to prove why i decided to cut these things out of my life without explanation.

And so i leave you with this; I will come out of this a far better person. I feel lighter knowing i dont have to face the slings and arrows of guilt and malice that i once feared.

I feel i've taken my first steps out of my cave of personal illusions, fears and doubts and am ready to face the world anew.

I've attempted to make fresh starts before, but always kept the main elements of the past that haunted and tormented me close at hand. I realize my mistakes now, after much discussion with someone very close to me and i know now that i just... dont need those anchors tying me to the past any longer.

Those who would care to continue talking to me as i continue my journey, send me a note or something and i'll give you ways to reach me.

To those who only lash out in anger and heartache without taking the time to do any self reflection to think why i may be doing what i'm doing, and judge me harshly for doing what's right in my heart, take a long hard look in the mirror before you continue your own path of self destruction. I wish you the best.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5009869/ !!! awesome artist!

Update/Commission roundup
Anyone who has ordered commissions from me and hasnt received them yet, please post a comment here with a brief description and a ref for what you ordered. I've been really sick the last few weeks on top of working and just got my son home from his dads so things have been really crazy. It's starting to settle down now, got my net reinstated and everything so i'm going to be doing more on the commissions i've had backed up for a while.

I just need an updated list of orders so if you would be so kind as to comment with your ref and description for what you ordered i'll have something up for yall in the next couple days.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4946137/ <-- this should never have happened! keep an eye out and spread the word!

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/11270458/ <-- SO CUUUUTE!

Ok, so all my commissions are scattered about so to prevent me from forgetting anyone, i'm putting down a list of names for people expecting artwork from me. I"m going to post this on here, my other account and my inkbunny.

if i missed any names, comment with a single ref for each of your pics and what it was you ordered and i'll add it. (sorry for the inconvenience i'm just trying to keep up and i'm not the most organized wuff XD) since i derped on my stream last night, having passed out at my desk from lack of sleep, i'll be hammering some of these out today and hopefully HOPEFULLY doing my stream tonight. Here's what i've got so far:

Auran -- group chibis (Coloring started) PAID

Jorun -- chibis (PAID)

Konnor -- Chibis (PAID)

Marcus -- multiple orders (PAID)

Stuffy -- Comic, scene pic (PAID)

Cobalt -- Group pic (PAID)

Tarren -- Pinup (PAID)

Lupine -- multiple orders (PAID)

Spotty -- Pronz and desktop background pic (PAID)

Draks -- 2 chibis, con badge, handmade lanyard (PAID)

Again if i missed someone please let me know!

this evening i'm gonna be doing another stream, this one is specifically pay while you watch, new orders are appreciated. here's my prices:

LAST DAY FOR 2$ CHIBIS
after today chibis will be 5$ apiece.

5$ sketches
10$ Lineart

25$ PR0NZ

prices are relatively flexible and if you cant afford a commission tell your friends and if enough say that you sent em i'll do a piece of free art of your choosing! WHO CAN BEAT THAT!?!

*sigh*
Well, i woke up this morning to a still working net connection thankfully, though my water seems to be a different story. -.- i've almost got enough to pay my net bill and rent is still up in the air.

i need 80 bucks to start water service under my roommate's name (cheaper than paying my own bill after neighbors filled up their giant pool with the waterhose connected to /my/ meter but whatevs)

if anyone wants a commissoin, chibi or otherwise please note me

Donations are accepted and very very much appreciated.


my paypal is razielle69[at]hotmail.com


seriously though? Just when I think I'm gonna be okay, life goes "LOL, one sec~" -.-; FML.

starting at approximately(edit i have company X.X;; ) 11pm CST, i will be attempting to stream via teamviewer for commissions.

Anyone interested in some really cheap really quick artwork tonight, visit my stream when i post the link here at about 10pm CST.

Here's what i'm working on tonight:
2$ CHIBIS! GET EM WHILE THEY"RE HOT!

ALSO 1$ Simple icons

5$ busts!

8$ sketches!

12$ flat color!

and as usual 25$ PRONZ~ ANY FETISH!

LETS DO THIS! 8T

if there's something not listed, my prices are flexible, pitch me your idea, and make me an offer and i'll see what i can do. :3 i'm taking advanced orders for this stream so comment below with what you want including refs and yours will be the first pics streamed before i get to any on the spot orders. i'm gonna be doing this most of the night tonight so buckle up pups n kittens its gonna be a bumpeh ride~ 8I

I got my monster, i got five hours of sleep and by some miracle my net hasnt been shut off yet, so lets keep this rollin while the gettin' is stil good! 2$ CHIBIS! GET EM WHILE THEY"RE HOT!

ALSO 1$ Simple icons

5$ busts!

8$ sketches!

12$ flat color!

and as usual 25$ PRONZ~ ANY FETISH!

LETS DO THIS! 8T

Since i got a bit of results last night with this i'm gonna keep this ball rollin!

2$ CHIBIS! HIT ME UP! Hurry before my mood runs out and i regain mah sanity! XD

I'm in the mood to draw chibis. 2$ chibi spree RIGHT NOW anyone who comes forward and sends 2$ to my paypal can has a cute chibi! Note me or message me!

post my naughty pics here? I generally dont post my blatantly adult art here but maybe it would boost commissions if i posted my dirty stuff. how many votes for me posting naughties?



I need to make a bit of cash to help catch up on some bills, and i'm still kinda behind on rent, so to expedite things i'm hoping to run a sale.

25$ PRONZ. any fetish, flat colored.

for the rest of this month.

3$ icons

10$ single character sketch
15$ single character ink
20$ single character /clean/ flat color.

Badges (digital) 10$
Badges (plastic) 15$ (plus shipping)

Offer ends july 31st.

Okay, so, roommate has just done his drugtest and is waiting on his background check to start his job at walmart.

I'm back in the saddle with my own job but things are still pretty tight.

I need to make a bit of cash to help catch up on some bills, and i'm still kinda behind on rent, so to expedite things i'm hoping to run a sale.

25$ PRONZ. any fetish, flat colored.

for the rest of this month.

3$ icons

10$ single character sketch
15$ single character ink
20$ single character /clean/ flat color.

Badges (digital) 10$
Badges (plastic) 15$ (plus shipping)

Offer ends july 31st.

Tired wolf is tired. -.-; people around here have a real issue with anyone who wants to actually SLEEP during early morning. nevermind that i actually WORK evenings. stupid people.

I must be doing something right. -w- my roommate just got a job offer. he goes in for his drug test tomorrow. looks like i wont be losing my place after all, and looks like my net is going to be safe as well :3

Today just keeps getting better and better! -w-

*sits back sips monster and relaxes*

Okay, we've all had a good laugh at the patheticness that's been going on for the past few hours, the creeper snapping screenshots of my journals and such even when his own friend told him to stop feeding into the drama and looking at posts and coming to my page just to find more stuff to bawww at.

Its been fun but it's time to move on~

This will be the last journal i post regarding this issue and will not be acknowleging anymore about it.

if anyone cares to see proof, or to see my full side of the story then note me and i'll send you the logs and images accordingly under the conditions that nobody goes after the person about it and just makes sure that their own friends and loved ones dont bother giving this fool the time of day.

He's going to continue stalking me but maybe if i ignore him he'll go away, right?

I hope he savors this last scrap of attention, because from now on he'll be stuck crying himself to sleep at night wishing he could have gotten in my pants.

Cry all you want, mister foreveralone~ Will never happen. -w- no wuffbewbs for you. 'cept...maybe the ones you grew yourself. jesus wear a bra. XD

Also if anymore people wanna creep this journal and screenshot and over all stalk trying to find ways to whiteknight or if you, yourself, Mr Creeper, are reading this?

http://i.imgur.com/aEaijAJ.jpg
Blow it out your ass! ^w^

looks like my luck is turning around a little! My job just called and i'm being called in for extra hours today, and they're offering unlimited over time. i just got the new RSA key in the mail yesterday and i'm gonna be makin so much cash!

until my overtime spree peters out, and i've gotten some sleep *stocks up on monsters and bunkers down at her desk with food and other supplies* BATTEN DOWN THE HATCHES BOYS. ITS GONNA BE A BUMPY RIDE! Bc

If you dont like what i have to say dont read my journals~

/I'm/ heartless? tell that to the people who were posting on lulz about me. :3

Really hurt right now? Good. It's still not enough.

Stop stalking me and maybe you wont be "really hurt right now"



Bawwww some more. Your crocodile tears are my sustenance~

Oh noes, i've been reported for harassment whatever shall i do?


....considering the fact that messaging me over skype when you've already blocked me just to spark up the drama? Goodness me how immature can one person be?

*siiiiiiiiiiigh*

I'll be posting some proof later on since i managed to download it before it was removed. :3

Report me all you want, i didnt do anything wrong~ |3

UPDATE: posting the proof i mentioned above :3 with an example of how to post actual credits where they are due! :D lets watch the fun, shall we?

Well the art thief is still at it, didnt even bother linking to the book image he traced this time. Tsk tsk tsk.

oh and getting his friends to talk shit on his comments because i called them out?

Yeah you're still a moron :3 And i love how much you hate it when i call you that. Moron. STUPID little raggity twats~!

Oh well, everyone knows it's been traced and we've all had a nice laugh about you. -w- well, you and your one or two minions that wouldnt know art if it bit 'em. :3

I was thinking of doing a YCH auction, but wont bother if nobody would be interested. i've got an idea in mind so if i get at least 10 comments i'll do one. Comment below~!

My landlord is breathing down my neck and my net is in danger of being shut off by the 10th. This is the last extension they'll give me on my bill. I seriously need some help guys X'P

Emergency commissions:

at this point i'm suspending plushies until i can make time to sew and get some more thread and a not-dull needle as i'm sewing this by hand.

I'm adding a couple of things to my inventory list so here's an updated price listing:

Hand made crocheted lanyards: 10$

Badges (busts, digital): 15$

Badges (busts, plastic): 20$ (comes with ring through top)

Keychains (various designs) 10$

will be uploading examples of these once i've finished making the prototypes likely in the next day or two.
As usual here are my basic pricings for digital art.

Icons: 5$ (not animated)

sketches: 10$

Flat color: 15$

Inks: 15$

Shaded inks: 20$

Full color airbrush syle shading: 25$

Full color comic book style shading 30$

All prices are listed assuming it's one character per piece, without background.

Extra characters: +10$
Background: +10$


Donations accepted and appreciated. ;~;

Just got to the point where i can do commissions again. will be drawing heavily while on leave from work due to my dad's healthproblems and an upcoming move. Dad's got some heart problems and without going into too much detail I'm going to be taking care of him for a while but i need time to get established where we're moving so i'm running emergency commissions to keep from losing my net because after my work computer broke (AGAIN >:C) i missed too much work and my check wont cover my net bill or my upcoming (and possibly last) rent payment at my current place.

here's an update on commissions i owe:

Tarrenger: 50% through drawing, have inked but not colored yet.

Sexyspots: 25% Have started sketching but havent inked yet.

MiiChii: 95% Delivery pending.

Marcus: multiple commissions; 30% have sketched but havent inked, still working on plushy pattern.

Draks: 00% will be starting on your bust soon, payment recieved.

at this point i'm suspending plushies until i can make time to sew and get some more thread and a not-dull needle as i'm sewing this by hand.

I'm adding a couple of things to my inventory list so here's an updated price listing:

Hand made crocheted lanyards: 10$

Badges (busts, digital): 15$

Badges (busts, plastic): 20$ (comes with ring through top)

Keychains (various designs) 10$

will be uploading examples of these once i've finished making the prototypes likely in the next day or two.
As usual here are my basic pricings for digital art.

Icons: 5$ (not animated)

sketches: 10$

Flat color: 15$

Inks: 15$

Shaded inks: 20$

Full color airbrush syle shading: 25$

Full color comic book style shading 30$

All prices are listed assuming it's one character per piece, without background.

Extra characters: +10$
Background: +10$


Goal: ||||||||||||||_____________________________________________ (rent and net total 70$/407$) Donations accepted and appreciated and anything donated (5$ minimum please, for ease of counting) gets a free shout out anything over 10$ will get an inked bust as a thank you.

Thanks for your time!